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winterrose42 · 3 months

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The frustration of i want to do things and get things done but i dont have everything i need to fully complete it. Cant complete it so whats the point of working at all. Need to do things now so im not overwhelmed doing All Of It later. I dont have everything i need yet so i cant complete it and it looks bad. Cant complete it so whats the point-

#winter speaks #the point is i have some sort of chronic fayigue thing so foing little bits where i can instead of needing to do it all at once is necessary #but fighting against my brain for days on end to do even little things so im notbtired layer is exhausting itself #and things being so messy is triggering panic bc im gonna get in trouble even thiugh im not but oooh my god #why i hated moving why i eill hate moving and why i loathe room rearranging #itll be so.much better and object impermanence friendly and space saving plus my beds gonna be up high #and that eill be so much better mental health wise but The Process is making me want to itch my skin off #itchy itchybitchy and my head hurts and i wanna nap but i refuse and thats not good either and euuugh #and i just know my bed frame will be packed with styrofoam. the ridiculous amount of dread just from that #by march itll be done and my space will be livable agaim post depressive episode mess turned complete reorganization #and i can start my schedule things and figure shit oyt but right now i am miserable and itchy

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