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androidboy · 6 months

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#ive got this awful feeling i just want to scoop out #i feel stupid and sensitive #like ive hardened myself to all this shit so the fact that i’m being affected by it is also making me mad at myself #my family didn’t want me around for thanksgiving and didn’t want me there for the family christmas party and didn’t want to #spend christmas with me because my mom doesn’t want me around the extended family because of how far in my transition i am #and my gf put off asking her fam about bringing me over for christmas for a month #and barely just asked and it sounds like they don’t want me there either #and tbh i kinda knew they wouldn’t #but also i feel like my gf also didn’t actually want me there which is why she put off asking for so long #and idk #i felt like with how far along i am in emotionally and physically recovering from stuff #and then also having a partner for the holidays for the first time #i would’ve left my sad sandra bullock era. but i have not #the only person who wants me around for the holidays is my dad and ive got such a weird relationship with him #and it literally would just be me and him alone #my dads side of the family doesn’t want me there either bc of the trans thing i just feel really fuckin #disgusting #feeling very goop monster

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downtherabbitholewithlucy · 1 year

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Wes behind the scenes for the "Lie" Music Video

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#you know how in the song he sings NOW I'M BURNING ALIVE JUST LIKE YOU #well watching Wes in all his behind the scenes glory has me 🔥BURNING ALIVE🔥#when I tell you this music video has a very special shrine in my heart i fucking mean it. so this bts stuff is like 🌽orn to me alright.#for one watching wes in his 'coon-eye make-up with the slutty smeared red lips and his wet hair and his painted body and those tight pants #🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵AND🥵#second... I'm a big 'ol sucker for bts stuff from music videos to movies. any media really. so this was like a thanksgiving meal for me.#I love how he had his 'lil spray bottle to wet his hair with them little 💧squirt squirts💧Wes... where does one apply for this job?#I can keep ya hydrated. I got'chu boo.#it wouldn't be a wes post without some sort of silly facial expression from him. only he would rock a 🤪b4 being dragged on the floor.#Wes Borland #Black Light Burns #Industrial Rock #Alternative Metal #Music Video: Lie #Limp Bizkit #nu-metal #down the rabbit hole #Wesley giving me that WAP on Wes Borland Wednesday

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spoonyruncible · 2 years

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So, I finally tried The Flavor. It was genuinely bizarre, because there is a taste but it's not really anything that's meaningful. It is like drinking "Colorless green ideas sleep furiously".

Which, actually, brings me to my conclusion of why it is like this. It's genuinely kind of interesting. There are no real disparate elements between the two beverages, nothing that would expressly taste bad if mixed. But, also, cranberry and cucumber aren't really good together, or bad, just weird. Then there's the makeup of it all. Salt, sugar, and alcohol. I genuinely think that when these things combine in this way they actually do sort of short out your brain and get NULL as a response. Because you do taste something, it's just nothing.

My primary reaction to it was that it was heavy. Not the way cream or oil is heavy, but the way a small weight in your mouth would be heavy. My brain prioritized the mass of The Flavor before it could work out what it tasted like.

Like I said, this is "Colorless green ideas sleep furiously" of drinks. There is nothing wrong with the actual composition of the beverage, but it is incoherent nonsense the second it has to stand up to actual review.

#the flavor #so i told my therapist it take at least a 100 level class in three disciplines to make sense of my sentences #this was not bragging #i do not think i am clever or other people are stupid #i think i am incoherent #i feel kinda like me connecting flavor profiles to noam chomsky is gonna make her think i'm trying to be incoherent #no really this is genuinely odd #also mikes harder cranberry is fucking gross #it does have a flavor #that flavor is that i am 16 and i found suspect gin in my uncle's basement and the only mixer i have is cranberry sauce #it is thanksgiving in this scenario but that's what it tastes like #gross and a little shameful and like my mom will yell at me #lime cucumber Gatorade tastes kinda like gatorade is trying to impress me but not in a good way #like it wants to be fancy enough that we can smash #it mostly tastes like if cucumber shampoo tasted exactly the way you think cucumber shampoo should taste but doesnt #i like lime cucumber gatorade but i do not like mikes harder cranberry #both of these drinks would take advantage of me while drunk #but only the gatorade would know what it was doing was wrong

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n4rval · 3 months

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ough. toriel my beloved

#comics may or may not be coming #(they are i am drawing them)#why is it so difficult. not the process of drawing but something about choosing a canvas size and marking the panels makes my brain lag #okay kingdings is something that exists i guess but can we have a little old lady interaction.#need more content of wingdings actually being a part of that world and an important individual for the people around him #rather than just existing as a satellite to a handful of characters and straight up being barely acknowledged by others #specially considering he was the goddamn Royal Scientist the man genius himself #anyway toriel. their relationship would be funny #she may be perpetually confused by his mannerisms but shes immune to creepy (re: her own creepy ass children across universes)#woman always sees right through him and thinks hes the silliest thing #she knows how badly you want a family mr weirdo come now you can sit at the thanksgiving table #feels kind of bad her efforts cannot undo the debilitating loneliness he radiates however 😔#but my favourite thing: will never Not kiss her hand #there are no romantic undertones it is just a gesture of reverence #will do it to your mom your grandma your sister. really any lady he feels he owes formal acknowledgement #and queen toriel is always owed formal acknowledgement #gugunghhuhguh. ily toriel cant wait to finally figure out how to draw you

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intramoon · 2 years

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another couple of besties aka a couple of gym rats

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camillahex · 6 months

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MY FAVORITE PAIR OF JEANS JUST RIPPED IM GONNA SCREAM

#okay i have had them for like at least five or six years and wear them very often but STILL #things shouldnt wear and break i don't like it #ironic part is when i was home for thanksgiving i put a patch in to reinforce the seat which i could see was super thin but it #ended up ripping in the groin #well i'll be back in two weeks anyways so I can fix it then #it would be interesting to try a project where i take these apart fully and make a whole new pair with new fabric using these as the patter #but i'd really want my mom's help and idk if being back for a week will be enough to get it done #c.hex posting

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bsaka7 · 2 years

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at what point did excitement for the holidays become apathy and the occasional wave of dread...

#Going to my bosses Thanksgiving with my coworkers and like. Maybe I should have begged off.#I had another offer which would have maybe been worse but like.#I can't handle meeting twenty new people and like. It takes me so long to warm up to people #And I've had a headache for two days straight :(#I mean I'll go and I'll fake it or whatever and hopefully play some cards #But it's just. I'm trying not to feel anything at all about it #Also dreading going home for the holidays except it's not even home it's just to my dad's fam and then my mom's fam.#Week between Christmas and new years #Sorry u guys r gonna hear a lot of this :(#But i'm hoping to get some fucked up i-feel-bad-in-an-airport fic out of at least. December.#Also my coworkers make fun of me all the time and it's mostly good natured #But we're not really friends so it frustrates me #Also they are way behind on the deadlines we set for ourselves #But that's just. Work.#And half day tomorrow at least!!!!#I miss the last year and a half of living with my friends so bad #It was really something. To look forward to coming home to them every single day.#Now I sit in my house.#It also takes me forever to make friends. Like. I didn't feel like i had good friends in college til. Literally my senior year.#A bit the second half of my junior year.

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donuts4evry1 · 2 years

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recently got a binder to do fun jellyfish research on 😳😳😳!!

#my school gives away free stuff and I took a big binder #my encyclopedic knowledge will no longer be confined to my brain I shall finally have somewhere to look to!!#(... ok tbh. it would be really funny if I made.... the English language's 4th jellyfish encyclopedia lmao)#but like #i make it better then everyone else because I add jellyfish drawings and my commentary is just better #granted I am not qualified to speak about jellyfish in any official capacity but I think it would be massively entertaining to have a-#-whole space to myself to just ramble about jellyfish and draw cute jellies #or #during the thanksgiving break next week I might try compiling all of the jellyfish studies I've read through thus far and print it out #and i'll just stick em all into the binder #i can use them as supplemental material to help out with jellyfish stuff :)#...#oh but i need paper :(#we have no paper at home I gotta wait till we pick some more up :(#mun rambles #jellyfish

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eggs-can-draw · 1 year

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I hc that shuichi isn’t snobbish 1. Because that just not how he was raised 2. Naegi during the winter/thanksgiving holidays takes him to give back like volunteering at soup kitchen going to shop for caned food to give to food drives, when shuichi grows out of clothes they take them to be donated(with out togami because he gets emotional) when shuichi doesn’t use or gets disinterested in toys that he doesn’t have sentimental value with he donates them.

I feel like shuichi was raised to show a lot of compassion towards people, with parents who gave the people who were territist a second chance and built the world back up again with wanting nothing in return he picked up on it. But he was also told and taught to not let his compassion allow for others to walk all over him or his friends second chances are good, but they are meant for the people who regret their actions

Sorry for the ramble I find upbringings interesting

Do not apologize for rambling I’m bopping you with the ramble foam bat this is a ramble household where we explore ideas and have fun and eat hot chip

I could see a lot of that stuff not just coming from who his parents are as people but also just the crazy situation that was his upbringing.

Homeboy was born and growing up at the mid point and tail end of the apocalypse and literally watched his parents work to rebuild the world. Yeah he probably wasn’t physically there for all of it but he still grew up around it and I could totally see Naegi taking a tiny Shuichi with him on shsl hope business trips as:

A) a way to show Shuichi the world (in a travel sense not a hey son look how fucked your generation is kinda way dw) and

B) a way to show Shuichi how you CAN have an impact on this world and that no matter how small, your actions can do a ton of good if you allow them too yknow

Upbringing and nature vs nurture n stuff are really interesting. Shuichi got the combo package he’s kind by nature and was nurtured to use that kindness to help others

#eggs can answer #shuichi saihara #it’s a shuichi day aint it!!#good #love him #love thinking about him #also the winter/thanksgiving but made me think about my childhood a bit lol #I grew up military and every Christmas Eve we would make cookies and drive them out to the people working the gates #seeing them happy always made me really happy as a kid #I can’t do it anymore since I don’t live on an afb anymore and the nearest one is too far away but this year I might see if I can #I unno #g-eetings

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nxthero · 2 years

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I know I kinda disappeared and have been quieter than usual the past week but that’s because honestly I'm sicker than I’ve been in a long time and that medicine I took by mistake for my sinuses really fucked me up and made my anxiety go nuts. Usually when I’m having sinus problems my doctor will give me a steroid shot and knock this shit out within a couple of days bc I can’t take most cold medications due to the ingredients, but when I went to the clinic the other day, my pcp wasn’t in office, and the doctor that saw me kinda just ... completely ignored all of that and threw a z-pac antibiotic prescription at me and told me to take a different otc. And then the otc she told me to take? Turns out I can’t take that either, it has that same ingredient that incites my anxiety so I’m just having to tough this shit out with only the antibiotics lol

#medical tw #negative tw #also my face looks so fucked up right now like I literally look like I got punched in the mouth/nose this is awful #needless to say I am not a happy camper right now #'oh I don't want to give you the shot bc your blood pressure is higher than usual'#yeah jan it's bc I took that fucking medication that skyrocketed my anxiety and made me feel like I could drop dead #which the shot would have dealt with too but. sure. I'll just cope.#I'm just frustrated and venting bc I'm probably going to miss thanksgiving dinner with my family tomorrow and I'm upset about that #some of these people I haven't seen in three years so I might make myself go anyway #I really want to see them #idk man I've just had the shittiest week #I feel like I'm whining like things could be SO much worse but still #I'll probably delete this I'm just so jittery and I can STILL feel that shit in my system I hate thisss #✧ ooc. ⊱ ── ❝ 𝘖𝘩 𝘯𝘰 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘔𝘢𝘳𝘪. ❞

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emile-hides · 2 years

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Y’all interested in getting a Commission or two? Just thought I’d ask.

#Emile's Arts #fdkgjfkdjkdjfkdjf #YIKES #I'm not freaking out I'm not freaking out I'm fine #... but my mom did ask me if I'd consider putting my Commission Sheet on Fiverr as well to look for jobs #There's some really good artists on there selling their works for $5 guys don't make me go there I would not survive #please commission me please commission me #Commissions open #Commisions open #To be 100% clear we're like. Pretty okay.#Luckily we're not making our usual Streets meal this week a local church does homeless meals for Thanksgiving and we're joining them #And my brother (who's trying to save money to get out of here) would loan us anything if we really needed it for like #gas or food or anything #And my OTHER brother just brought like half a thanksgiving dinner of left overs from the resturant my sister works at #So it's just one week with $20 in the bank like it's gonna be FINE #But I'm just askin here #Would anyone like some art you would literally double my savings over night #Please consider it love you I'm not freaking out I promise

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n0ct0urn1quet · 2 years

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god it feels like everyone i know has been sick in some way within like the past week or so. i got sick n threw up Twice on friday, my mom was queasy n nauseous n kinda ill after that, my mom's boyfriend's daughter had a fever, my girlfriend has a fever and is still fairly ill as far as im aware (i havent heard from her At All today and she was very very very very low energy yesterday and kinda jus spent the whole day in bed so i have no doubt that thats what she prolly did today as well . prolly hasnt said anything to me all day bc idk maybe her phone died n she doesnt have the energy to get up n charge it or something KJASJLKLJKG). everyone's been SICK and it SUCKS!!!!!!

#i have no doubt my mom's bf is gonna fuckin come down with covid or some shit #or like my sister's gonna be sick or somthgin. good god #i mean ok i wasnt really SICK sick i just had a weird throwing up thing that happened . it was just still so weird i dont even know what #caused it. because like #the night before i was feeling kinda queasy kinda ill kinda sickly but i jus thought it was cramps or jus tummy ache #i wake up the next morning n my stomach Hurts n it just feels Weird n im jus kinda laying there at 7am wondring if im gona puke n then im #like. well ill just get up go shower n come n lay back down. so i get up n i get into the shower n after a bit im like ok i feel . slightly #better so im gonna get out. and. i get out and i start getting dressed and i jus kinda stopped and im like. okay no im gonna throw up #so i get out n go into the livingroom to tell mom and i just. yeah. right onto the floor. eugh #i dont know what caused it. mom didnt know what cuased it. it just kinda came up n out i guess #it wasnt a lot n it was all liquid with like a chunk or two of whatever i ate the night before so like #i dont know what caused it. at all. bc we all had the same dinner last night n drank the same stuff #so i dont know why i threw up when no one else Did . very very strange #right before fuckin tahnksgiving too thanksgiving is the day after tomorow and im STILL struggling to eat a lot after it #my stomach had shriveled its about the size of a shriveled up golf ball rn and i havent thrown up but i can barely eat simply because like #ill make soup. ill eat like 4 spoonfulls of it and then im just Full bc thats all my stomach can FIT #and its almost thanksgiving!!!!! The Food Day!!!!!!!! and im juts like <:(((((#i want turkeyyyyy and mash potato :((((( green been and fruit slad :(((((( and pie :((((((#and so now im all worried about if i eat too much if im gonna throw up again AKJJKSKLLJKKBG #I HOPE I DONT. ID BE SO SAD IF I DO ANd also it would suck becaus no one likes throwing up. BUT ANYWAYS #sorry ig november is just The Sick Month. everyone's got something going on rn. we are all Going Through It as some would say

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schlange-edens · 6 months

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With the upcoming holidays, I feel it's important to remind yourself, that you are not obligated to love your family unconditionally. Just because someone's your blood, does not mean you have to respect and love them. Some people have terrible families, that have been nothing but poison in their lives. You are allowed to cut people from your life and to leave them behind. The people who choose to stick by you and accept and love you as who you are, are the ones that matter. Not your mother and/or father or any other family member, who put you down.

Just because people from older generations grew up a certain way, does not excuse them being queerphobic, racist, ableist and other terrible things. Every person is capable of being better, and if they refuse to even try, leave them in the dust. Sometimes, the bad things people do or say are born from ignorance. But sometimes, people are just bad. Bad people exist. But we do not have to keep them in our lives, it's alright to think of yourself first. Being selfish can save your life and mental health.

Stay safe and never give up. Things will get better eventually.

#idk if this is phrased weird but holiday season always makes me anxious #I've had a few nasty holidays with family #but I was able to distance myself from that #my family celebrates Christmas and well you know how Christians are sometimes #I'm so glad we have no Thanksgiving here at least #if I had had to do this holiday thing with my family twice a year back then I would have simply exploded #even my grandmother who grew up in a really conservative and fundamentalist christian family and survived wwii #was able to change #and that woman was bombarded with bullshit left and right

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albedobeheading · 6 months

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last day in Rome probably ever

#didn’t see the Vatican or statue of David but hey ya win some ya lose some #I still would not be surprised if I get a huge text from my friend after I leave saying that we’re no longer friends #I think I’ve said all of this stuff before #and it wasn’t even that like. I actively wanted to go home and was sad outwardly the whole time #my posts may beg to differ but I think like three days in it became a wanting to go home situation to be away from here #not back to where I wanted to be #I did go to a few churches and those were amazing every time and the one museum I went to was also very cool #maybe I also associate a lot of stress with my camera #I think my friend is also maybe just a bit narcissistic?? Ik everyone is the main character in their life but like. reminds me of my mom #when she exaggerates how scary something was or how a story only happened because of her #my friend always tells the story wrong of how we met where she makes herself the one who instigated the conversation but it actually was me #and I slightly helped my friend make mashed potatoes for thanksgiving and she made direct eye contact with me and said she did it all by #herself and the potatoes were actively trying to kill her #she also misgendered and deadnamed our mutual friend to her other friends and again I just #I’ve said this before and I know it is fucked but I am thankful and privileged that my gender fuckery is not so extreme that I can be #deadnamed. bc it really is your own people! and sure everyone is learning but!!!#and I also have not always been the ally I need to be and corrected people in the moment #that’s also its own thing of who people are out to so I’ve gotten better about asking if they use their pronouns with everyone or just with #friends at whatever point in their transition. even at that yanno #I think it’s called a red lie? where it hurts someone but benefits you? bc there were also times I didn’t want to have to explain #who is trans to my mom. depending on the day she’ll either be so phony and welcoming or just refuse to get it. anyway #half of that doesn’t relate to my current situation #I also do sometimes worry though if I’m coming off as self centered/ narcissistic if I take up space in convos or if I’m not checking on #people/ if I’m actively making a situation bad for others. the cop out answer would be to say that there’s a learning curve to this stuff #but I still need to be actively trying. I think I need to not be a bitch when I’m planning things bc sure even tho I sometime get stressed #it’s for all of the people I love that also love each other to hang out. what could possibly be bad about that #I’m gonna get up now

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daisyjohnsn · 6 months

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#i miss my grandpa so much #my cousin had her baby today and named him after him #i think that would make him really happy #he’d argue about it not being necessary but it’d be special to him #this is going to be our first thanksgiving without him #i don’t know how to tell anyone how sad i am #especially when my dad is struggling so much #i cant believe it’s already been six months #he was one of the biggest reasons i wanted to come home at all #he was the only person who smiled when i said i was dropping out #i was supposed to be spending all my time with him so we could try to be not lonely together #i miss him a lot #delete later

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polaraffect · 7 months

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the last month of this semester has got me considering disappearing to another country more than any other moment of my life has before, which truly is saying something.

#damien.txt #i was a very depressed 13 year old into doctor who and anime. this thought has come up a lot.#all of my professors have decided they want proposals for our final essays/projects which has done nothing but #make the week before thanksgiving even more stressful than it normally is #truly i'm more of a 'condense all of the anxiety & stress into finals week' person but now the anxiety is going to be spread out #over a whole 4 weeks which. i'm not sure i can even handle fr.#anyways. the usd to yen ratio rn is really bad for japan. but truly great for anyone in america who wants to go there rn #and ohhh boy does it have me contemplating #even though i for sure do not have that kind of money rn. but also. i could.#sigh. why must academia do this to me. i just want to sleeeep i am simply a sleepy boy.........................#and i just realized i have d&d tonight which normally would be good but oh my god do i not have the time nor the energy #sigh.... i might end up skipping my modern britain class so i can take a nap #but also like. my grade is so fucked in that class. attendance is a grade and..... im telling you now it's fucked. i cant see it but. i kno #alas. i think this is a sacrifice i must make so that i can live. lowkey scared i have like a c in that class tho tbh but. we live i guess.

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