#in truth its bc ive tried adderall before and it was great i got everything done. but everything felt wrong. it was too functional | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

iloveyoumorethansoup · 3 months

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the depression is doing abnormal things (im not rotting?? still there. but its not that kind rn) and god would i Love to say. the lwa obsession never left. the depression briefly (last two years) covered it. i am still so not normal at all about this show. i need it so bad in every aspect of my life

#typing this from my computer rn bc I wanted to scroll through the croix tab while I did hw #i will not lie! the emotions i have experienced the last week are reminding me of that one post that was like hey guys sorry I haven't #been active on my stan account i got put on mood stabilizers and now Im not nearly as obsessive #its giving that. it is so deeply hardcore giving that. its ok tho! cause i am not on mood stabilizers and i don't want to be !#i would love a stimulant though. seriously. I've got the adhd diagnosis now i want the meds for it.#my therapist asked me today why i said i wanted to take it once a week knock out all of my hw and chores and not take it every day and #live a functional day to day life. and its like bestie. i am a little on the unstable side. i don't want to be neurotypical #in truth its bc ive tried adderall before and it was great i got everything done. but everything felt wrong. it was too functional #i need the broken hinges in my brain the things that don't work. it keeps my life interesting even if its downright miserable #why is grammerly showing up on my tumblr post. bro?? woah you can edit ur tags on desktop?? this is crazy #grammery emotion guesser is saying i seem very unhappy. i feel better than i have in a long time. its like a breath of fresh air #i think i should look at what manic depression is #anyways. Hi from desktop!!#soup talks

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