the reason i love dean is because he is literally just a bug in a glass jar and he is suffocating and he is going to die and he knows it he is literally just always beating at the walls of his glass jar but they will not let him out and everyone he loves is dying and everything he knows is dying and he's going to do die too but he has to watch them go first and despite it all when faced with like the choice between saving hismelf and saving someone else he always chooses someone else and you're like but don't you want this for you? don't you want to feel the air on your skin? and he's like yes yes. that's why. and it's fucked up. it's fucked up!!!