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#im terrified of therapy and it likely being another disappointment/failure and nonsensical treatment w/o treatment plan
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8 months
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I'm like 2-3 disappointments away from becoming a very difficult person to deal with
#therapy please please please
#please
#im becoming so cynical
#i have symptoms interfering with all my basic daily life things
#and actual proper therapy has been non existent so far
#and it's so tempting to just start acting out and tell everyone to fuck off and leave me be
#just give up on everything
#i cannot even go for walks to calm down because it's dark outside and i fear assault
#i cannot go to the park to read bc i fear assault
#i cannot calm down in my apartment because there's too much noise from outside
#im terrified of therapy and it likely being another disappointment/failure and nonsensical treatment w/o treatment plan
#terrified of having to bring up my worst memories to potentially no avail
#and even if i end up getting effective therapy. it will not be fun
#and the support i have (i have an apartment in a building w an office w '24/7' staff bc im unable to cope alone)... well....
#theyre not doing what theyre supposed to do
#they have a whole file on me including a crisis(prevention)plan and they just dont. dont look at it.
#even when i am obviously distressed
#and then i get told to 'read a book or listen to some music'
#while i am reaching out to them because i CANNOT calm down on my own
#like im not reaching out unnecessarily
#and then i get told to sort myself out when im alrsdy like hello i cannot help myself feel better now
#it's maddening like the whole purpose of being here is the support that im NOT receiving rn.
#then id be better of in a normal independent apartment in a quiet neighbourhood fr.
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