#im always in a bad situation tho which kills me n gives me major depression even more lol | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

voxxian · 1 year

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in an act of extreme depression and also the extreme urge not to go and do something irrational and stupid to myself, i have decided to revive my laptop and sign into tumblr for the first time in eons yet again, only to discover upon trying to edit something on my blog that now you have to email support for javascript capabilities

i will always have a bittersweet hate-love relationship with this website, literally always because what the fuck

#on that note #i guess i will log into everything else that im not logged into such as twitter discord emails and such #i really did manage to die off from the internet and talk to literally nobody except text messaging my toxic fucking ex/boyfriend/idfk what #im always in a bad situation tho which kills me n gives me major depression even more lol #no thanks to him either and for some reason i keep putting up w it #no self respect ig #or i guess i have too much hope and not much to lose besides myself? idfk #he keeps fucking me over n never stopped for 4 years #now im trying for therapy for him #why? because i dont love myself ig LMAO #but hey maybe itll work out and this can go from abusive to healthy #who fucking knows #a rarity i know but i got NOTHING else going for me #jobs have been hard to come by since i was laid off in december last year #and i have been depressed #and i moved 340404095458 times already #and life sucks and i cry all the time lols #and i have a hard time staying in touch with friends because i also suck #but thats been my life since i was 19 tho #thats why i dont talk to literally anybody i guess #and only him through text #fmldjfapsodfijapsdojfdsf fmllll #anyway it brought me here and i did move away from him again so maybe thats a step in the right direction #im delusional idfk #help me hahahaha #voxxrambles

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