listening to that funny feeling (2021) just to feel something.

hi so im the transmasc named oliver from earlier!

ive been given permission so ill now be talking about my identity :p

prepare for a long ramble

so my presentation is really complicated. i want to be both hyperfeminine and also hypermasculine at the same time while still being androgynous between the two. like hyperfem/masc but in the way u cant tell if im a man or a woman, kinda like drag kings/queens. sadly i cant be super hyperfem bc of my body (i heavily dislike my chest to the point where ill become nauseous from dysphoria) even tho i really want to. id love to wear a skirt but in the way that a femboy wears a skirt. and i wanna wear a suit like a butch wears a suit. ykwim?

i also want to be Super Hairy. i want hair to be Everywhere on my body. a lot of ppl talk about how T will put hair everywhere on ur body except for ur face "so remember to shave" but im never going to bring a razor close to my body ever again. "oh wut about shoulder/neck hair" i want that too. i wanna be an otter (inbetween of twink and bear). i wanna be small and fem like a twink but i also wanna be big and hairy like a bear. i also Really wanna exude the energy of a bear. kinda like a "this guy is soft and warm" way. one time my friends joked that my gender is a mixture of a bear and twink but honestly that describes it perfectly. im both a feminine and masculine man at the same time. or, at least, i want to be, since i sadly can only be masc (again bc of my own body).

hopefully when i go on T and get top surgery i can finally wear skirts and crop tops while simultaneously having a full beard and the hairiest legs known to man. ik that a lot of ppl will think that its "gross" and "u cant be feminine And hairy" but i disagree and im gonna do wutever the Fuck i want.

yk what, that makes sense and it sounds absolutely awesome

please more people send in asks of how they view their genders i do love reading them!