pls i had to double check the notification to make sure i saw it right because the scream i let out- 😭 you better believe me when i tell you i cried a bit 😤

i love these two so so much and you write them to, dare i say, perfection. i literally cannot imagine them being even slightly different than how you write them....i mean.... you've made them look so natural at every freaking single thing they do or think or act on, it's like they're real people because everything about them is so detailed and in character omg I LOVE THIS (idk if im making sense im so overwhelmed with happiness im giddy 😭)

i missed their dynamic so much and watching jungkook finally getting comfortable enough to trust her on some things is amazing and what's even more amazing is how she is experiencing that shift too.... honestly i feel happy for her when it comes to her feeling comfortable with trying to trust him and even relying on "probably's" as she says because even if that does lower her guard and might not always be the best thing to do in her line of work but i still feel that she's been so hardwired all her life to stay in that hyperaware and cautious state that she's in certain ways just not felt safe enough to truly "breathe" tbh. we know she's always forcing herself to shut down her emotions and surely after that long period of not really "feeling" things, all of these new emotions must make her feel different and uncomfortable in a sense but i truly hope she can find a healthy balance in feeling and honestly accepting those emotions (jungkook better help her with it if she ever needs support tho 😤)

i know i always say this but hector truly is the bestest character everrrrr i love him and he's precious 🥺 i love his dynamic with the oc too and the gentle understanding they have for each other is really like a safe place amidst the entire list of intense interactions among other characters in the story. i could write a thousand words about why i love this story so much and it wouldn't be enough 💗

ohhh and i loved reading the long author's note too! pls feel free to write em as long as you want 😌 i love this story and i feel grateful that you choose to share it with us! that said, you definitely don't need to rush with the story. write at whatever pace you feel comfortable with and i'll be always here to support you (im sure a lot of us will be!)

i haven't been as active here as i used to be during the stay at home days since life has started happening again and im graduating soon too which means im having a very stressful time with the final year project and thesis too just like you mentioned you did but this iicngyp update came as a saviour in these stressful times and for that alone, i will support it till the end. you could say im emotionally attached to this fic 🥺

i said this already but the QUALITY of your writing is unmatched and it just pulls me in with how immersive it is but!! you wrote in the author's note that you feel scared that the chapters or writing won't be as good as earlier or if it'll match but i just wanna tell you that no matter how you write them, i trust that i'll love it. so pls don't feel scared or nervous about us not loving it because im sure we always will!

thank you for writing, ily 🥺 (also sorry for this long ask)

Hiiii, it’s always good to see you in my inbox 😁 and never apologize for long asks, the longer the better truly~

Ah no you make sense and this makes me so happy 😭 I was particularly worried about this chapter and if they’d feel ‘ooc’ (weird thing to say since I’m the one writing them I know) considering the fact that there’s a huge shift happening in their relationship, coming from Jungkook in particular. You’re right though, OC is not quite… there… yet. There are feelings that are starting to bubble to the surface and she essentially keeps shoving them back under. So yeah, it might take a little while until she gets somewhat healthy about it, but she’ll get there!

Hector is such a sweetheart, OC needed someone who’d be on her side and I’m happy with how he turned out and the fact that people like him that much 😁

That’s super sweet of you! I’m not looking to rush the story, but also sadly my productivity just plummeted after Covid and it’s upsetting because there’s a pretty direct link between my mental health and that (if I don’t write I’m less happy, if I’m less happy I don’t write, so it’s quite the vicious circle lol).

Oh gosh I hope your thesis goes well for you!! I know how stressful but I’m sure you’ve got this, don’t forget to take care of yourself during it too 💜

Ah thank you so much again, with this chapter I was actually quite unhappy with the way it turned out until I edited it, and then I was quite happy with it. The first scene (which had been written for months already) was almost entirely rewritten and I think it really helped ‘lift up’ the chapter. I’m very glad you enjoyed it though, makes me feel like my hard work really paid off

Thank you so much for the comment, again, always happy to see you in here and I hope i’ll get to keep reading your thoughts for future chapters as well 😊

1 pondering on gavin's sexuality, 1 windenburg matchmaking request, 3!!! jersey shore inquiries, once again compiled 4 ur viewing pleasure 💋

wait that's iconic i'd love to meet ur gay gavin & exchange book recs 👯 & yessss same i love seeing people's takes on the townies like ofc it's fun when there's a general consensus but when there's that one out-of-left-field take/pairing/lore.. we simply have to respect 🙌

candy & siobhan are actually so hard for me to pair in my head bc those r my GIRLS & i want the very best for them 😤 it's abt matching the energies so i'd see candy with someone outgoing & fun & silly but also responsible (her being her sister's guardian and all) i almost wanna say johnny but idk if he's responsible enough, then i wanna say miko ojo but idk if she's easygoing enough 🤨 siobhan also needs some1 outgoing & fun & like very Cultured/In w the times ykwim... like i don't think she's an influencer but definitely knows all the right people / is in that general vicinity of The It-Crowd so lowkey... penny 😶‍🌫️ as for partihaus ..... well . u will see soon 😌💋

IKR i feel like she's a household name especially now that that era is the Moment but at the same time i'm trying to be more understanding & less of a "YOU DONT KNOW XYZ ??? 😵‍💫😵‍💫" gal bc ofc everyone's pop cultural upbringings / experiences vary depending on so many factors so while it Is jarring sometimes O WELL the world turns, the icons change, the trends die off, C'EST LA VIE 🗿

LMAO ur totally fine, i was never that big of a reality tv girl until the pandemic made me revisit the Classics of my adolescence so i get the confusion 🐒 i think shows from that era are fun to watch bc it's this mix of pre-social media/influencer personalities, but in the midst of The Rise of the Reality TV Star™️ so it's interesting to see the different ways fame and like Performance were handled back then vs now where it's *gestures towards the wasteland of youtubers / instagram models / etc* & then the fact that the jersey shore cast was just regular ass east coast italians all grouped together for their big personalities rather than online clout made things Feel a little more real/easier to connect with? like you could've met any of these people on the boardwalk ykwim so there's something kinda endearing/homegrown to it IDK even the fact that it's not just partying & going crazy but they actually have to physically work at the shore store too LMAO it's like reality tv for minimum wage earning 20 yr olds 😮‍💨🙏 i do think a lot of it is the nostalgia factor too & recognizing these shows as the pop cultural artifacts that they are / the undeniable effect they have on pop culture even today, but maybe that's just my own fascination/fixation speaking 🥸

HEYYY BABE GOOD 2 HEAR FROM U AGAIN!!! 🫂 i actually dont watch family vacation 😶 after rewatching the original series w my friend @ the start of the pandemic we Tried to get into it but it was srsly so depressing seeing them all like shiny n botoxed n groomed & like milking out the glory days even though everything is so different ?? 🤕 like as i answered above, so much of the appeal (for me) was how unfiltered & personal they felt and now i just feel like they've all been corrupted w fame in a sense RIP still lovable & somewhat the same but ugh man i don't wanna see their mansions or their hyper-sculpted-for-the-gram bodies lounging at bougie resorts making up problems / playing on nostalgia bc they know it'll get clicks ykwim?? v against the spirit of the original jersey shore 2 me 🌬 also i feel so much 4 sam & hate that everyone seemed to forgive ronnie like in her place UGH just bad vibes all around ❌ sometimes i'll watch clickbait moments on YT & i follow most of the cast on insta so i'll see bits thru there too but ya deffo not a full time watcher i don't think my heart could take it 🥲❤️‍🩹

wanted to make a little blog post documenting some real life going ons and things i've been playing/watching! :o

Truthfully not much going on IRL for me as it is too cold to do anything 🥴 I keep saying the moment it gets hot here I'll be up early and take advantage of good weather like I'm not going to run back inside to an AC-chilled room the moment I start sweating too much LOL Also took a brief hiatus from the gym just to focus on some life/hobby stuff after work, still been going good with my dieting so it's not a big issue. So besides that, really not much going on. Been slacking on making art lately but trying to work on something atm. In regards to stuff I've been indulging in lately: Games:

FFXIV: 6.1 dropped so I've been having fun with the game again after a brief break. I've been enjoying the PVP revamp to an extent, sadly not enough to grind for the Garo mounts sorry LOL Sailers also did some Endsinger EX and that was a lot of fun! Current goal is to get a clear from that and go back to leveling crafters.

NEO: The World Ends With You: I started this one about... a month ago now, I wanna say? I've absolutely been loving everything about this game so far and am always listening to the OST on my way to work everyday LOL Probably about more than halfway done with the game and if postgame stuff isn't too annoying to go through maybe I'll do it right after... or just save it for an NG+ run in the future. But I'm having a blast for sure right now.

Twisted Wonderland: I'm only mentioning this because lately I fall off of gachas really quickly. The moment leveling units starts to feel like work the uninstall is inevitable. However, since the game is really more a card collector visual novel where stats don't matter, I don't feel nearly as stressed to do shit. It's nice. My plans after NTWEWY are to either pick up Kirby or start DQXI which has been on the backburner for a while but it'll most likely be Kirby. I need a bit of a JRPG break after this lol Shows/Channels I've been watching:

The Ultimatum: What can I fucking say about this honestly?? You are not immune to watching straight people be messy as shit on one of these trash tv shows. I fucking love it.

Rilakkuma and Kaoru: Already seen this one when it came out, but gave it a light re-watch as background noise while doing some drawing last night. I'm still mad they'll never make more of this, it still warms my heart as much as the first time I watched it.

I Will Always Travel For Food: If you are familiar with TabiEats (foodie vlog channel run by two Japanese dudes named Shinichi and Satoshi), you'll also probably know this one? It's a side channel run by Shinichi where he doesn't talk and just quietly shows stuff and adds commentary through subtitles. I watch his other two channels where he tends to talk (not that I have an issue with that LMAO) it's just that I tend to prefer the ASMR on it and reading the subs. If you like Japanese food and restaurants (and are also possibly trying to fill the niche of not being able to go to Japan rn), I recommend this! The Ultimatum is giving me a 90 day Fiance itch again so that feels like something that I'll be watching sometime soon LOL And that's pretty much what I've been into as of late 😤