#idk this became more venty than intended. i'm just a little stressed. it's been so long since i've shared work like i'm about to | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

the-cooler-harmonybot · 9 months

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me after making a character (villain) that does so many bad things but as deliberate choices that conflict with their morals which is still bad regardless of guilt they may feel. and at the same time she's not "intrinsically evil," nor do they enjoy it in any way. and also they come across neurodivergent, and i don't want THOSE traits to be demonised. and they do still have lines they won't cross which is interesting compared to other characters but they are very very awful still and state this themself: hm i think. i think i did a little more nuance than i needed to here. i'm sure i won't mess that up and people will read things as intended and in good faith :)

#yeah this is about pip. PLUS SIDE she's fun. she's evil she's sad they're probably autistic but that's statistically likely in my writing so #basically i want her actions and choices and greed to be seen as bad #but not like her lack of expression or interest in/love of magic and studying it etc #(a risk given it's half of her motive that they're willing to do bad things to reach)#like she's TECHNICALLY morally grey internally but a villain in actions #i just don't want the wrong parts to be demonised/seem like i'm demonising them #and definitely don't want her read as like “misunderstood uwu” no she's awful <3 #but that's her CHOICE not her NATURE #idk it's probably fine i'm just always prepared for the worst mentally #been having a crisis over phosphor's cast size too because the post going around with object show pet peeves #but it's. like phosphor doesn't work the same as a normal object show. voting plot or format wise.#so idk how it applies.#idk this became more venty than intended. i'm just a little stressed. it's been so long since i've shared work like i'm about to #and phosphor has so much room for error compared to anything i've made before #don't worry about this i'm just mentally ill <3 haha #like if people really end up hating it i'll just. idk. stop doing it i guess.#my best is all i can do #don't get me started on whether killing certain characters will get people upset/saying it's "burying your (insert group here)#(they're all queer if anyone tries to say gays specifically because a character has a relationship i'll just self destruct)#that's not foreshadowing half the deaths are still undecided. mainly because of this worry LOL #okay i should shut up now #hobbies include not making posts ever (haven't even been on tumblr much the past week)#and then posting paragraphs of tags and then dipping again. uh if people read this hope you're doing well. sorry <3 #i can only be concise in fictional writing not rambles #also note that this is like REALLY POORLY EXPLAINED #but anyway

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