#idk i think my overall thoughts is that nmj can be frustrating with how rigid he can be but also like | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

luobingmeis · 1 year

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i need to find more 3zun people to follow i love xi/yao with all my heart and soul but even i get a bit tired of either 1) nmj being entirely erased from 3zun esp when it comes to lxc’s seclusion or 2) nmj being overtly vilified 😭

#i can talk abt nmj for so long but overall my points boil down to #1) yes i believe to some degree he was too harsh on my/jgy #2) yes he being of the gentry shaped his world view #3) he also has understandable reasons to not want to associate with my/jgy #4) we can talk abt nmj and qi deviation but his qi deviation in the story. was not it’s natural progression.#5) he was not bullied into the brotherhood nor was it just to intimidate jgy #and my secret 6)#i don’t necessarily think nmj was wrong for saying that maybe they shouldn’t let a serial killer be in the hands of the sect #when nmj is like the only one stopping them from completely abusing their power #but tbh overall i just get so :/ when lxc’s seclusion is reduced /entirely/ to jgy #like yes! that is such a big part of it! and by god is it heartbreaking!#but also lxc’s seclusion is a culmination of like. the road to hell being paved in good intentions #and how a lot of his active decisions ended up having adverse effects #like i will not deny that nmj was a threat to jgy but also like. he had claims and his qi deviation is quite tragic to me #and like idk i feel like lxc would feel some kind of way abt. u know. the whole song of clarity thing #but also even in the inverse bc i love nielan as well but then there we have jgy as like #more of the fall guy/‘bad’ guy than he already is #which like in hindsight it’s funny trying to find equal content bc 3zun is a mess akdjdjsj #idk i think my overall thoughts is that nmj can be frustrating with how rigid he can be but also like #1) makes sense for the character mxtx has set up #and 2) his fate as both a man and a fierce corpse is so tragic to me #edit: and even more so i know and love that lxc’s seclusion was pushed by jgy’s death #and how a part of lxc died in that temple #but it’s just!!! sometimes i rotate #bc yes it’s abt jgy and it’s abt how lxc killed jgy for the one thing he didn’t do #and it’s also a line of ‘wrong’ choices #but also when i think abt lxc grieving both his sworn brothers and thinking abt how he should’ve died in the temple #i do lose my mind a bit

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