Excuse me while I divulge into and project things onto one of my top three favorite characters of all time that I'm emotionally attached to and will never be separated from and have spent hours digging for his official lore in pitch bibles and whatnot. Dr n gin. Extremely specific ramblefun that appeals to no one but me under the cut

They really gave him like the most repulsive anti-representation of a dissociative identity. The thing is though it makes sense to me for him to have something like that. Like come on the rocket in his head is the most obvious metaphor for (if not literal representation of) trauma, and the metal plate splitting his face down the middle. Like it makes so much sense, it's a logical conclusion. What really makes my head spin coming to this scene years after realizing some Things about me is how one part of him fucking hates the masochistic and jovial part. One part is aware of the abuse he faces and scorns the other, the language the jovial one uses being childlike and everything is too much man. I don't know it just really mimics a similar internal thing I had happening when I started coming to terms with my fuckass memory and fuckass identity. I know it's not the other way around because I used to just think he had bipolar disorder hah. It's seriously funny how he only had this personality for like three games because they gave Nolan North the greenlight to go ape shit with him (and holy shit did he go ape shit, if you want to either love or hate a character, i suggest you look up all of his voice lines in Crash Tag Team Racing on YouTube and just listen, it's a ridiculous game and thats when they really interestingly scrambled his character) . He was straight up NOT like this in earlier games, it's almost as if his mental state degraded as the games went on rather than strange decisions made by devs. Don't get me wrong there's a ton of real life bigotry put into these games and it shows in this character. But with hat said I really love doctor N. Gin and I find new ways to lovw him everytime I revisit him, he really represents feeling like a disgusting evil little monster with irreparable damage to your brain, except the awesome thing is that I love him for that. I love him so much. My muse. I want to hide behind a corner and scare the shit out of him