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notgonacatchmethistimebitchfucku · 2 years

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Uhg did not get to finish our activities this morning, they will be continuing later if he wants his haircut, which im sure he does. And im pretty damn sure that he will not be complaining one bit about me doing what im very skilled at for him again. But tbh i enjoy that just about as much, thats one thing that makes us very fun together is we both love giving oral... gd i know i need to not be so in love with him, that will lead me nowhere good. That is an indisputable fact. Bit aside from all that, i care about him very much and i know he looks out for me and wouldn't intentionally hurt me. Just slightly annoyed/ sad that he didn't come right back and get in bed like he said he would...i was really excited to continue our fun. I was having a fucking blast. Could tell he may have been feeling atad bit anxious of from my interpretation that i didnt want to be intimate as much as he did. When in reality i probably thought about it way more than he did. When he first walked in my room earlier i saw a shift in him from the last time i had seen him....before he never once crossed the threshold until the first night we had uh lots of fun and last night he walked into my room without any hesitation it seemed, followed quickly by him making himself comfy on my bed without any invitation which previously he always found a way around aside from the one night. Guess my increasingly less vauge comments about still being very excited about the idea of banging again after he told me about being single for reals for the first time since knowing eachother. Ive always been very attracted to him and even with it having happened once before, we never brought it up after and carried on like it almost never happened since he got back with bitch. This time i will do all i can to make sure that hes satiated on his needs of eating pussy and getting his dick sucked and fucked. I will gladly take on that responsibility. I really do have a lot of love for him, every time we talk i learn more and more about him that just enforce how i see him. So thanks co-star, for telling me to catch feelings. But the reality? I caught them a long time ago.... were horribly similar in not wanting to be the one to make the first move, i applaud him for doing it, he def made it clear what his desires were last night, something which i was still only succeeding at alluding to. My undyingv love and appreciation to you sir, for your perfectly executed use of pulling up porn to test the waters, then claiming your space in my bed and finally playing porn in my bed. Couldn't have done it better myself, and most likely wouldn't have done it myself. My fear of rejection runs deep, and i really wanted that to succeed. Hes coming back over in a bit to pick back up where we were interrupted... well hopefully back at the beginning tbh, i want all of it again, especially the load down my throat. I thuroughly enjoyed that, probably as much as he did. So yeah I'm def suggesting a do over but with an uninterrupted 2nd act pretty much the minute he walks in the door. I've been waiting too fucking long already

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maxirueee · 3 years

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AU Alberu's POV as the experimented Beru

Alberu: Cale?

Cale: ...nggh..yes?

Cale rubs his eyes as he tried to open them slowly only to see his lover looking right at him with a nervous expression.

Alberu: I suddenly had a bad dream.

Cale: It's literally 3am in the morning.

Alberu: mm..yea- well *fidgeting*

Cale: Spit it out. What was your bad dream about Beru?

Alberu: DON'T CALL ME THAT ANYMORE- PLEASE just please I'm begging you...

Cale was in deep shock that his lover raised his voice at him just because of what? He called him by his nickname?

Cale: Didn't you tell me multiple times that I should stop calling you 'hyung' when we finally got together?

Alberu: I-its not that.. I just-

Cale: Tell me what's wrong Beru.

Alberu: THAT'S the PROBLEM.

Cale: Which is??

Alberu: That nickname, in my dream I was suddenly trapped in a flat boxed screen, I couldn't move but all I could do was smile. Smiling while looking towards the horizon which seemed endless. White. Blank.

ALberu: After a few minutes I suddenly heard voices. At first, there were a lot of compliments about how radiant I loo-

Cale: Are you even sure that's a bad dream?

Alberu: Yeah it is a bad dream!

Cale: Aren't you just totally flaunting how good-looking you are? You're srsly waking me up in the middle of the night because of this? I'm going back to slee-

Alberu: I SWEAR THAT'S NOT IT!

Cale looks back at Alberu who had a look of desperation. Cale couldn't distinguish if what he's seen rolling down the face of his beloved was sweat or tears. Maybe both. Well, he might as well comfort his lover since that was his job. Alberu: I heard giggles, squeals, people were shrieking with how I finally appeared. They kept saying that I looked so dazzling, how I sparkled. They were even speaking the same annoying lines that you tell me every time with your glib tongue.

Cale: Whatever do you mean oh shining sun of the Roan Empi-

Alberu: My point exactly *glaring at Cale*

Cale: Alright go on.

Alberu: It went on for days, I couldn't tell how long I was trapped in that frame-like screen window, all of a sudden I reverted back to my dark elf form.

Cale continues to stare at him, already feeling bored as he watched Alberu continue ranting his struggle of a mere dream. Although he found it amusing as he heard him say the next lines.

Alberu: But it didn't stop there, my hair color suddenly changed to a blood-red color just like yours Cale. I was the spitting image of you. And the voices agreed on how we really are sworn brothers if we just switched hair colors.

Cale: Hoh...

'There must be something more to this if it actually made the emperor of the Roan Kingdom have buckets of sweat rolling down his pretty face.'

Alberu: It was until I heard somebody say, 'How about a Pink Haired Beru?'

Cale: Huh?

Alberu: My hair color immediately changed to pink, then sky blue, then green, then orange, then red again. I didn't know when it'd stop but I couldn't even budge. Even when I wanted to so bad.

Alberu looked dead straight in Cale's eyes, with both his hands firmly holding his partner's shoulders, but ironically he was shaking. Alberu Crossman was shaking in fear. For what reason? Is this another one of the Sun God's pranks to his lover? Perhaps it was the God of Death again? He continues to ponder at the annoying thought that maybe divine beings were messing around his precious people again but stopped as Alberu continued speaking his worries.

Alberu: I thought it was okay since it was just a hair color change..then a woman's voice asked with great anticipation, "HOW ABOUT A BALD AND A MOHAWKBERU?"

Alberu: I continued to smile, even when my luscious golden blonde hair was instantly gone and I was suddenly bald. BALD! I saw numerous hearts floating in front of me and I could hear the mockery and laughter of beings I could not even see. Yet I continued to smile.

Cale was speechless.

Alberu: For some reason, I could read the words floating in front of me. "EVERYBODY GIVE IT UP FOR THE ROAN KINGDOM'S FAVORITE SHINING SUN- BALDBERU" is what it said. More hearts appeared at a scary rate and I couldn't even shout or move. I was terrified.

Alberu glared at the person in front of him like a mad man. Cale just shut up and listened to whatever he said, Alberu really looked mental.

Alberu: The woman from a while ago spoke again, I swear her voice was scary beyond belief. She added "Okay everybody hold up- Now imagine DELINQUENT HAIRCUT AlBERU"

Alberu: My hair suddenly grew back twice as much and it was styled into this weird looking hairdo...

Cale continued to have his stoic face which made Alberu feel relieved. Little does he know Cale was on the verge of laughing his ass off-

ALberu: I suddenly heard "JOSUBERU I CAN'T WITH THIS FANDOM- YA'LL REALLY DID IT U PUNKS" again from that mortifying woman since earlier, apparently it was done by a group of people claiming to be my fans?! BUT THE MONSTROSITY THEY'VE- no that wasn't even half of it

Cale: 'There's actually more?! PFFFFFT' I see, continue then. The prince saw his darling sweetheart Cale shaking as if he was sympathizing with what he was going through. At that very moment, he felt touched by his lover's empathy towards himself.

Alberu: The horrors didn't end just there as I was still waiting for the whole nightmare to be over, they were begging for a 'Voldeberu' which I don't even understand, at that point, I SUDDENLY LOST MY NOSE!!

I WAS BALD AGAIN AND MY NOSE DISAPPEARED YET I WAS STILL SMILING. I HAVE NEVER FELT SO MUCH FEAR IN MY LIFE.

Alberu: Somebody then proposed a 'Clowberu' AND MY FACE SUDDENLY BECAME A CLOWN WEARING MAKEUP. The hardships I had to take while staying still like a fucking mannequin. BUT IT STILL DIDNT STOP THERE.

Cale almost broke into laughter as he wanted to continue listening to his lover's amusing dream! If he laughs now Alberu might as well punch him in the face.

Alberu: I wanted to cry, I pleaded with the Sun God in my head that I want this to stop but I didn't get what I wanted. Instead, a chatbox suddenly appeared, I almost pissed my pants reading at the schemes of those so-called 'fans' had for me.

Cale: Oho.. what did you s-see then? 'Pfft'

Alberu: "LET'S MAKE HIS SKIN GREEN WITH ONLY ONE EYE, MIKE WAZOWSKIEBERU" "We need a butt, BUTTBERU" "I still didn't get my mohawhkberu!" "TWIN TAILESBERU" "AFROBERU!" "MONKBERU!" "SANGWOOBERU" "COWBERU" "UCHIHABERU" "I SAY NUNBERU! NUNBERU SUPREMACY RISE!!!!!!"

I DON'T EVEN WANT TO KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT MIKE WAZOWSKI BERU! BUT THEY WANT MY HEAD TO BE A COW?! HOW COULD THEY TO THE EMPEROR OF THE RO-

Cale couldn't handle it anymore he bursts out laughing, almost in tears.

Cale: BUHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH!!! If only I was there to see it all! I ca- I CANT! MIKE WAZOW- WAZOWSKI HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAH AND AFRO?! HAHAHAHAHAHA

Alberu: How could you be laughing at my pain?!

Cale: Oh dear emperor of mine, isn't it fine that you have such 'entertaining fans' of yours?

Alberu: Entertaining can't even describe those lots... They all praised me for how I was the rising sun of the Roan Kingdom as they humiliated my every being. To the point where they even planned on turning me into 'LIGHTBULBERU'. A FUCKING LIGHTBULB BECAUSE THEY WANT ME TO SHINE LITERALLY. A WALKING FLASHLIGHT KING. ME. ALBERU CROSSMAN.

Cale: PFFT HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Alberu: Haaaahh... You don't understand because you were never in my position. Those fans were a bunch of lunatics I say, LUNATICS!

What Alberu doesn't know is that we, the fandom won't just stop there...

Alberu felt shivers down his spine as he recalled the very vivid and realistic experience he had inside his dream.

Cale: I am so telling this to Tasha, my esteemed and very much adored Beru <3

Alberu: JUST CALL ME HYUNG PLEASE!!

The trauma seemed to have sunken deep into his mind that every time Cale calls him by that nickname, he subconsciously touches his hair and nose in order to reassure himself that it's still there.

I'm tagging these superb beings for making the thread LEGENDARY: @cale-alberu @chunnicalesimp @thescarletguard @trashduchesshenituse-reblogs @farmercale @just-a-sleepy-person @annerisk @pile-of-sticks @trash-duchess-henituse @icyteaa

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barnesandrogersfanfics · 4 years

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Ocean Eyes - Part 10

A/N- Another update??? What is going on??! hope you all enjoy this part 💕 Please like/share/reblog.

Within days of being back home from our weekend at Chris's the lockdown was announced and I spent a day packing up some of mine and Masons belongings that we might need while staying with Chris. While i was feeling very nervous about having to spend this time with Chris, Mason was over the moon! He was so excited that we had to go stay with Chris and Dodger.

Chris arrived early with Scott and they loaded our things into Chris's car.

"This is gonna be so much fun!" Scott said happily.

"Are you staying at Chris's too?"

"I am!"

"Oh god that means you're gonna be trying to get me drunk!"

"Well duh!" He laughed shrugging like it should have been a given.

"God help me you two are gonna be trouble" Chris said shaking his head as he helped Mason into his carseat.

"You knew what you were getting yourself into".

While Chris and Scott started bickering i turned and saw Brian coming out of his house, he stood and watched us and then started to walk towards us.

"Oh shit.... quick lets go, Brians coming over!"

"This guy!" Chris said through gritted teeth shaking his head and looking a little pissed off.

"Morning neighbour!" Brian called out, i turned and gave a quick wave.

"You and Mason leaving?"

"Yep, we're gonna ride this out with family" i nodded and felt Chris wrap his arm around my waist and pull me closer to him.

"Come on sweetheart we should go"

"Yeah sure, take care Brian"

"Wait, you look so familiar...." Brian suddenly said looking more closely at Chris "where have i seen you before?"

"I just have one of those faces, i get that a lot" Chris shrugged casually opening my door for me.

"Yeah maybe..... hey Y/N, i was thinking after this lockdown is over maybe you and i can get dinner...."

Was he serious right now??

"Dude really??!....." Chris snapped looking at Brian shaking his head.

"What?"

Chris closed my door and stood towering over Brian as they exchanged words i could no longer hear. Chris was soon strutting round to the driver side of the car while Brian stood there looking pissed. I turned to look at Chris as he got into the car, he was fuming. He started the car and pulled away onto the road, his grip on the steering wheel so tight his knuckles went white.

"Hey, you okay?" I asked him quietly.

"I will be knowing you and Mason are away from that creep"

"What did you say to him?"

"We'll talk about it later, i don't want Mace to hear"

"Okay, but can you please try and calm down....."

"Im Fine"

"Tell your face that, plus you're kinda white knuckling the steering wheel there....."

"Sorry.... sorry. Im fine really...." he loosened his grip and gave me a tight lipped smile.

"Always so protective" Scott chuckled from the back seat earning him a glare in the rear view mirror.

"Scott i swear to god...."

"Come on boys behave, this lockdown hasn't even started yet and you're bickering"

"You sure you don't wanna go stay with Ma....." Chris muttered at Scott making us all laugh.

The first week of lockdown quickly passed, there was no news on when the lockdown would let up so we were all just enjoying our time together.....It was just like old times. I called my mom and Hannah everyday just to check in and have some female conversation but other than that it was just me and the Evan's boys in our little quarantine bubble.

I was in the kitchen making breakfast when Chris walked in sporting a new haircut..... the buzzcut was back!

"Wow...... you've shaved your hair...."

"Yeah" he run his hand over his head blushing a little "fancied a change, its been a long time since i can just cut my hair when i want"

"Right, Marvel owned it before"

"No...."

"You know i'm right" i shrugged "i always did like the buzzcut look though"

"Yeah i remember....." he smirked.

"Morning family!" Scott said loudly walking into the kitchen "What happened to your hair??"

"Fancied a change, plus now i haven't gotta worry about my hair everyday"

"You know that actually sounds kinda smart..... have you seen my bed head??"

"Kinda hard to miss Scotty" i snickered behind my hand looking at his hair that was sticking up left, right and centre.

"Maybe i should do it too"

"And me!" Mason said smiling big at us "i want hair like dads too!"

"Oh my god Chris what have you started..."

"Sorry...."

"No its fine, its only hair. It'll grow back right.... i guess now is as good a time as any for a haircut".

After breakfast Chris took Mason for his hair cut while i showered and dressed for the day. The next time i saw them all three were sporting buzzcuts and i had to admit it was very cute!

"Let me get a photo of you three, this is just too cute to pass up" i smiled grabbing my phone. I snapped a few photo's and forwarded them to Chris and Scott before setting one as my lock screen and slipping my phone back into my pocket.

"Oh my god i love this.... i'm gonna get this blown up and framed on my wall" Chris smiled looking at the photo.

"Let me get one of you three" Scott jumped up and pulled me towards the sofa where Chris and Mason still sat.

"Oh.... we dont have to do that....."

"Come on, it'll be nice to have at least one photo of the three of us" Chris said looking up at me with those damn ocean eyes of his that always made me week.

"Okay, sure" i nodded taking the seat next to Mason.

"Move in a bit closer....." Scott said trying to get us all in frame, we both leaned in closer to Mason and smiled while Scott took the photo.

"Oh i'm good..... this is great you guys" Scott said before both our phones were receiving photo's from Scott. I couldn't help the smile on my face when i saw how lovely the photo had come out.

"Okay you did good, i love this"

"This ones going up too by the way" Chris looked at me with a huge smile.

"You don't have to do that...."

"You kidding me? I want to"

"Fair enough, its your house. I just don't think your girlfriend will appreciate it much".

"Okay..... who wants lunch??" Scott asked loudly interrupting, it had suddenly got a bit awkward at the mention of Lindsey so i just got up quickly and followed Scott into the kitchen.

Once Mason was in bed for the night the alcohol came out. We watched some old movie (that Chris found hilarious) played some card games which somehow led to childish drinking games and before we knew it we were all pretty wasted!

"Right you guys i'm going to bed, i physically can not drink anymore" Scott said getting to his feet and stumbling making Chris and I laugh.

"Dude you're such a lightweight" Chris rolled his eyes at his brother.

"Shut up. Goodnight.... love you both"

"Night Scotty, love you" i smiled up at him from where i was laying on sofa.

"Night bro, love ya".

Chris and I sat in silence for a few minutes, just the sounds on the TV playing in the background.

"You want another beer?" He asked getting up from the armchair he had been occupying all night.

"Sure, i'll have one more before bed".

While Chris went to grab the beers i sat and reached for my phone to make sure i hadn't missed any messages from my mom or Hannah. There was a photo from Hannah that made me laugh just as Chris walked back in with the beers.

"Hannah just sent me this photo..." i said to him turning my phone to show him a photo of Lucas who now had a buzzcut.

"Haha! Oh god i really started something didn't i?" He laughed looking a bit guilty.

"I sent her a photo of Mason's new haircut earlier, she said Lucas wouldn't shut up about wanting the same.... looks like he got his way"

"You gotta admit it looks cute though?"

"Yeah okay i'll give you that. Mason is like your little mini me, even more so than usual"

"He’s just missing the beard"

"I think we've still got some time until that happens" i laughed "you definitely have strong genes Evans.....that boy literally inherited none of my looks"

"No but he's got your attitude and sass"

"Hey!"

"Im kidding.... mostly"

"Ass" i muttered shaking my head at him before taking a mouthful of my beer.

"He might look like me but his personality is all you sweetheart... he's an amazing kid"

"Yeah he is, id be lost without him"

"I kinda love having you both here" Chris added avoiding eye contact with me.

"Its been nice, just remember its not permanent...."

"I know, i know" he nodded quickly "you know when i came in and saw you laughing at your phone, my first thought was that it might've been Derek.... i hate that guy and i don't even know him" he scoffed "how sad is that?"

"Chris....."

"I know, its none of my business who you date or whatever"

"You're right it is none of your business. But just for the record, there's nothing going on with Derek, we were gonna go for dinner before this lockdown stuff but i haven't spoken to him since"

"Oh...."

"Can i ask you something?" I turned to face him, he looked up and nodded finally looking at me.

"Why isn't Lindsey here?"

"What?...."

"Why isn't Lindsey staying with you? I mean you guys are obviously serious if you came looking for that divorce but she isn't here....."

Chris looked away again coughing to clear his throat.... was he nervous??

"Lindsey isn't here because i ended it"

"What?... when?"

"When i found out i had a son. When i saw you again and realised anything i thought i felt for her was a lie"

"Are you fucking with me right now?"

"No. Im just being honest. Y/N, i know i fucked up when i ended things with us.... it was the biggest mistake of my life and i regret it everyday.... but i never stopped loving you. Not for one god damn second...."

I suddenly felt very sober, my heart pounding in my chest.

“You’re just saying this because you’ve had too much to drink...” i muttered shaking my head.

“You’re probably right, doesn’t mean its not true. Ive just been keeping it to myself” Chris suddenly got up and came to sit next me taking hold of my hand “i know my timings sucks but i just needed you to know..... and i just need to know if there is any chance at all that you’d give me another chance.....”

“Chris i really don’t think now is a good time to talk about this.... we’ve both had too much to drink..... if you’re serious about this i think we need to have this conversation sober”

“But you’re willing to have that conversation?”

“We’ll talk about it tomorrow” i nodded pulling my hand free and standing up “i’m gonna go to bed.... goodnight”.

I had to put some distance between us before i did something id regret in the morning.

It was safe to say i wouldn’t be getting much sleep tonight.

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yourghastlycloseness · 2 years

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i cant spend all day stressing worrying crying wondering about where this will go (answer: likely nowhere) but also i like how he has been handling this friendship. when it comes to things like this, neither of us are so simple to be deciphered by a cosmo girl article on attraction and flirting. i was ruining myself over him -- it's just the way i am; for the longest time, i've stayed away from the people i cld potentially fall in love with and who cld potentially love me back because i've always known that i wld get deeply attached and obsessive -- the woes of a romantic lmao -- but i can feel him distancing himself from me (he seems to have set an allowance for himself to text me only once every 2-3 days) and yet, at the same time, promising me his friendship, which is all i need right now; we can be two adults who are somewhat attracted to each other but who don't act on it, right? at least, not now. because he's attached. and if that attraction gradually fizzles out because we don't see each other anymore, then so be it, this wasn't for us. or maybe we'll be lifelong friends. there's a lot i can learn from him. i know that on my end, i'd probably still like him all the way, so the ball is pretty much in his court. but that's not to say that if we are end game, i'd continue liking him the way i do now; i don't know what kind of a person i'd be when i actually have to commit to loving someone. right now, it's all fun and games and crying myself to sleep indulgently; i'm taking snapshots and trying out lines i never thought i would get to say. assuming the attraction is mutual and we end up in a situation where we're both able to make something more out of it, i suspect that the honeymoon phase will blow over quickly, i will go back to seeing him as just another guy, then i'll crash land and set us both ablaze. i think. i wouldn't know for sure because i have nothing to work with.

another fond memory: i don't think i jotted this down earlier. the last time i saw him, he had walked into class with a haircut from what was probably a neighbourhood barber or one of those chain barber shops scattered across the island. before that, his hair had been voluminous and beautifully and neatly swept back, such that i could see the pure symmetry of his pale forehead. idk why, but upon meeting him, i immediately thought he was a player lol. when i saw that fresh haircut though, so style-less and neat, like it couldn't have cost more than 20 bucks -- a schoolboy's spartan haircut -- i realized there and then, that he wasn't someone who put in a tremendous amount of effort into his physical appearance. he just happens to look clean-cut and nice most of the time, all of it, the boyish handsomeness, the seeming goodness of character, the soft body language — god-given. he seemed to inhabit a different sphere of the universe from me. was i intrigued for this reason? i rarely find myself drawn to people who are conventionally attractive because i just can't fathom how our perspectives could ever be aligned when we've lived in discrete worlds. but it’s friction, opposites attract, isn’t it?

i may not hear back from him again. if so, i may not reach out again either. there’s only so much silence and uncertainty i can take

if this is goodbye, then let it be so. thank you for the short-lived friendship/fantasies. it was painful, but i grew up so much in the past few weeks. it might be the end for us in that we can’t pursue anything further from this, but i still intend to keep you as a friend, not in a way that would invite hope for something more, but just as somebody i'm glad to have met and wish the best for in life, if you'd be so kind. pls be well, wherever you are and whoever you’re with

LOL all that and

ok tbh im not ready to give up on you yet until someone else better comes along the way. i definitely don’t want to say goodbye completely. but i’ll go slow and steady. if it’s a hard no by then (he hasn’t rejected me at this point — more of kept the doors closed but not locked, kept the bridges barricaded but not burnt) then i’ll go away. as ldr once sang: “hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have — but i have it” — and im ok with letting it ruin me

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the--falling--titan · 4 years

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https://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/anti-lockdown-protesters-carry-weapons-north-carolina-sandwich-shop-n1204081

This is the peak of American idiocracy and white privilege.

Notice how all of these people are white. What if these were people of color? People would flip. They would be arrested. And these people aren't even asked to leave the store.

You know that these people don't know what oppression is. I hardly claim to know what oppression is. I've had a pretty easy life, I know that.

I saw a post earlier today on here saying how queer people haven't been complaining that pride events were cancelled. There were no protests. No saying that "you're violating our rights". Because this isn't oppression. This isn't the government controlling our lives. This is keeping everyone safe.

And when these people can't go to the fucking barber for a few months, they go and put everyone's lives at risk. People like this are not helping to shorten this quarantine, they are just making it last longer.

No one wants to be trapped in their houses all day long. No one wants to be doing this. And yet we all are, because we have grandparents and older relatives and immunocompromised loved ones.

So I'm not fucking sorry that you can't get a haircut. I'm not fucking sorry that you can't go to church. I'm not fucking sorry that you're realizing that teachers actually have hard jobs. I'm not fucking sorry that you're uncomfortable wearing a mask everywhere. We all hate this. Were all upset. So sit your ass in you house, make sure you're kids are safe, call your family. Do the things that make you happy that don't require you to go outside.

And don't bring guns into a fucking Subway.

Essential workers are so strong. So many minimum wage workers are being hurt by this. So many people have lost their jobs. So many people can't even go outside because if they get sick they will die.

If you don't care about you or your family, fine. I don't give a single shit. But don't put other people in danger because you think this is oppression.

Because it fucking isn't. Oppression is when your people are dying, starving, being murdered, and otherwise fucked over while no one, especially the government, does jack-shit about it.

Yes I'm angry. Yes it's 2:30 am. I did not mean to write this, but I was looking at the news and saw this article and got so fucking angry.

Listen to these fucking quotes:

"The walk on Saturday wasn't a protest, it was a gathering to support our God given freedoms as Americans. We headed out for a walk to get some fresh air, sunshine, and some much needed exercise."

"We are a peaceful group, and wish to keep it that way at all costs. We aren't looking for a fight. We in fact, want the opposite. We want to put on a smile, shake some hands, and be friendly. An armed society is a polite society."

No. Just no. Could you even imagine having this mindset? Thinking that this isn't wrong? Walking into a store where people are just trying to have the best day that they possibly can with giant weapons and thinking this is peaceful??

Your "god given freedom" bit is complete bullshit. Where is my god given freedom to be something other than a dyke to some people? Where are people of color's god given freedom to walk down the street in peace? Where are trans people's god given freedom to be who they are? Where are disabled people's god given freedom to be safe in our world, especially during this pandemic?

God given freedom my ass.

I can't think of any more coherent thoughts. It's really late and I'm really angry. I'm sorry for sweating so much. I had a few moments where I almost cried out of rage, and I can't contain curses when I feel like that. I'll probably read this over in the morning and see if I want to add anything else.

And if anyone thinks if shouldn't care so much about people's rights who "don't affect me", I'll leave you with this:

"First they came for the Communists

And I did not speak out

Because I was not a Communist

Then they came for the Socialists

And I did not speak out

Because I was not a Socialist

Then they came for the trade unionists

And I did not speak out

Because I was not a trade unionist.

Then they came for the Jews

And I did not speak out

Because I was not a Jew.

Then they came for me

And there was no one left

To speak out for me"

–Martin Niemöller (1946)

Goodnight.

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