Girls what do I wear to a christening/baptism? Like can I serve cunt? Or do I have to buy like a plain long dress?

And like, are trainers/sneakers okay? 😭 or platform boots?

hi wanna hear about me complaining about french school being racist, sexist and fatphobic? yeah okay so.

first, for some kind of context, this year my school's rules or whatever have been changed to add some shit like "an appropriate outfit is required. we musn't see the lower abdomen and lowed back" and that alone is annoying but moving on

theres this girl in my class, and she's a fat, black girl. so. there's definitely a part of that in this. and, yesterday, she went to school with a tank top, a full one (we didn't see her tummy) and we just saw the the the top of her chest because. it's a tank top yk?? it looked like that basically

except she's fat and black so two more reasons for people to critisize her.

so. we had math class, and our teacher (a skinny, white woman, may i add) almost immediately pointed out her top, basically saying it was innapropriate (she didn't say it like that, she just said shit like "we already talked about your outfits blah blah" because the girl already wore crop tops, but here it wasnt even cropped or anything) so, we stay here, she starts her class bla bla

and, another girl in my class took the school rules or whatev (also i should add the teacher said "we can check the rules if you want" or something) and she said "ma'am. it says "lower adomen and lowed back". it doesn't talk about the chest" because it doesn't fucking talk about the chest!!!

and the teacher goes "oh, come on girls!!! blah blah blah" and then the second girl (not the one with the tank top) said "but you're saying that just because she has big breasts" and, of course, the teacher goes "oh no. no no no. that's absolutely. not. that!" and the girl with the tank top said something like "yes it is, if it was [second girl's name] (who doesn’t have big boobs) you wouldn't have said anything" which is true ngl

and at some point, the teacher says "but you're disprespecting yourself!" ...sis. she's dressing like that because she likes it and is comfortable with it. could you not sexualize her??? AND she goes "do you see boys dressing up like that to attract?" LIKE SHE REALLY SAID TO ATTRACT. WTF??

and obviously the two girls get mad (i wish i wasnt socially anxious and i could just. yell at her probably) and say things like "tf it's not to attract" because indeed, it's not

and anyway it stopped here, the teacher asked the girl to keep her jacket and close it

oh also, on the moment, i was saying kind of to myself "she's getting mad at her for. having a body." and the guy that sits beside was just like "urghh 😒🙄" at me. bro. you're a white skinny cishet guy. you cant understand how she feels. shut the fuck up.

BUT TURNS OUT TODAY!!! we had this teacher again, and she talked about bullying and all, and she said "critisizing people's body is the worst. because you were born with it and you had no choice but to live with it" or something. yeah. respect other people's bodies unless they're black, a woman and are fat yeaaah

on the moment i was really like. are you fucking kidding me.

but anyway people piss me off, they're so fucking stupid

November 22nd - 12:23am

So my Sunday gets rated a 6/10 no better yet a 5/10.

Me and 'him' ended the night on a sour note from my standpoint. For the second night in a row we aren't on the phone at night. For this day, he spent his day with you guessed it his best guy friend 🙄. Dont get me wrong, I dont have a problem with his friend, heck I loved the guy at one point on another. Its jut now I feel like every time I want to talk to him I have to talk to his friend too. Also this friend and SM are 'chatting' to see what happens in Texas so I have a fixing and a half of this guy. I just miss when we had time. Like actual time for each other. With all of this happening I still need to worry about getting another job. I have my portion to pay for and no clue when the rest of my accident money will be released. I miss 'him'. I really truly miss the us that we were. The us that filled the calls with endless conversations and weird looks, goofy faces all the cute stuff. I have to keep reminding myself that we aren't in the honeymoon stage anymore so no its the time we just fall into a pattern. The trip to Texas should shake everything up so thats something to look forward to.

Although I often come on here to rant, I would like to say im happy with my life. Like yes things could change but overall im at peace. I really wouldn't trade any of these stresses.

Anyways back to regularly scheduled programs-

A little part of me wants to link with 'him' while he is here. Like ion wanna be on nothing with him, but I do still want to see him as a friend at least. I know that SM is going to have something negative to say about that so I dont plan to tell her 🤷🏽‍♀️. I just think that he is still my friend if nothing else, why cant I still hang out with 'him' if I stay respectful to 'him' yk.

I hate that this is something I have to be thinking about. I miss the calmness of worrying about one person rather than dang near three. Im just going to step back and let whatever happens happen. I am tired of expecting thing from people and they let me down, so I won't expect anymore. I won't let people disappoint me 🤐

Well good night yall. I plan to read a book for class for most of tomorrow, so I need to rest my eyes. Love always - Bre <3