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jade!! hi baby! hope i’m not too late to show june baby some love <3 here are my thoughts on it!!

“He locks the car and hands over your keys with a smile. You smile back, heart flipping like a spinning coin. Head over tails, over and over.”

not sure why but the “head over tails, over and over” did something to me. i really loved that 😭 I think it says a lot about how the next paragraphs went on, realising how much she likes him over and over!!

having him fixing her necklace </3 the familiarity <///3

“There's a small line of families waiting by the front. You realise it like a shock, that the three of you must look like a family too. Eddie carries Junie with the surety of a dad that's carried his child a hundred times before; he strokes the back of her head with the affection of one, soothing the mess of flyaways she'd acquired by squirming in her car seat”

you’re actually sick for writing this. “the three of you must look like a family too”. that was MEAN.

“Thanks, babe," he says outside of screen two. You bite your lip, surprised by his easy tone.”

they’re soooo married. like everything is so familiar and so easy going. it just flows 😭

“She's being extremely well-behaved," Eddie notes, an inkling of pride in his tone. You could sucker punch him. Why does he do this to you?”

why do YOU do this to me. also i love how she just keeps realising how much she likes him 😭

"I don't know. If I were in your lap I might be well-behaved too." He raises his eyebrows, an over-exaggerated show of flirtatiousness.

You reach over the arm to take a handful of popcorn. Eyes on Junie, you offer her your stolen goods and say, "I've got two thighs."

"Don't tempt me."

NO SHUT UP 😭 I’d die for them 😭 I’d kill for them if I needed to 😭

the lil robin cameo omg hiiii <3

“Your outrage has him laughing again. It's a magnetic sound. Every time he does it you want to touch him, his arm one pole and your hand another.”

and

“He doesn't care that she's mauled the food. He's worried she might stain her dungarees. Your heart goes crazy, another sudden surge of clarity.”

the “sudden surge of clarity”!!! exactly what i was talking about when I mentioned that she keeps realising how much she likes him. every time she feels like wanting to touch him when he laughs, subtly flirting with him, mentioning how much they look like they’re together, I just feel like she’s finally catching up with eddie’s feelings!!

eddie feeling bad for not realising how tired she was </3

“Despite his best efforts, she starts to cry. Eddie freezes up because she doesn't cry often, not with him. When she does you're always there to find a solution. He supposes the novelty of being a new person has long worn off, and that he's going to have to make more of an effort than just tickling her or petting her hair to make it better.”

although I feel bad for baby junie being scared, i have to mention the “novelty of being a new person has long worn off” made me melt!! knowing that eddie is now such a familiar face for junie that she’s not afraid of breaking down in front of him, reaching out to him for comfort!!

“Eddie loves Junie. He knows it for a fact. She's very easy to love. She's beautiful as you are, she's loving, she's sweet. Her laugh is adorable and her smile is more. When she cries, Eddie finds he's never annoyed. Grated by the repetitive sound, maybe, but he can't find it in himself to be mad with her ever. He wants to help her work through it. To get you both through it. Eddie wants to be good at this.”

remember when i mentioned eddie choosing to love them and doing it actively? like learning about how to love her better, in a practical way. yeah :’)

"Flirting! Awesome. You're not too sick to forget how much of a catch I am. Watch your head."

i hate him i love him so much

“You kiss the tip of your finger and touch it to his head. It's an instant healing potion.”

i think i might love you even more for writing that.

One work skirt and one work shirt hang from two lonely hangers, accompanied only by your infamous 'best jeans'. He frowns at a small stain at the knee and scratches it fruitlessly. Not her best jeans, he thinks in horror, picturing your unhappy face. He can see it so clearly, the pinching of your brows.

not him perfectly picturing the face she makes when she’s unhappy 😭 small things like these make me SO SOFT

"Listen," he says, insistent, "If we start saying thank you to each other, we won't stop. We'll be a loop of thank yous."

"I think I have more to say than you do," you murmur.

He shakes his head, exasperated at your inability to see him for what he is even now. It's funny. Eddie thinks you've a better view of him than anybody else, that you see him more generously than anyone has ever seen him, and you still haven't noticed he's a boy in love.

You must feel his grin as he kisses your knee, his thumb stroking over the ridge of the cap.

"If I started to say thanks for all the things you've given me I wouldn't stop. I'd talk myself hoarse," Eddie argues.

You laugh at his dungeon master dramatics, but reaffirm, "I haven't given you anything."

"You don't know what you've given me," he says into your leg.

Eddie lifts his head, weary of his chin digging into your leg.

Now isn't the best time to declare devotion, or drop kisses into you when you can't offer any in return. Not that he's expecting you to. Not that he wouldn't receive them gratefully.

BABY. oh my god. i don’t even know what to say. that dialogue was everything. “you don’t know what you’ve given me” 😭😭😭

"Wish we could stay like this forever," you murmur.

"Well, I'm not going anywhere. If you were worried."

"I wasn't," you say.

Eddie thinks you might finally be on the same page.

JADEEEE 😭😭 that’s what i was talking about!!! like he’s been just patiently waiting for her to realise it too and it’s finally happening 😭 (also im pretty sure i mentioned something like that for part 2 or 3)

“You flush with heat because you're sick and not because he says it a certain way, dropping back down into your fluffed pillows without another word.”

i don’t have anything to say about that one. i just wanted to highlight it. <3 ALSO HIM TAKING CARE OF HER <333

You know she has something she wants to say. You can't wait for the days where she can. Exciting, to think that one day she'll be able to share all of her thoughts.

i’m getting repetitive about it but the way junie is SO loved by her mom makes me wanna scream. being excited for the day junie will be able to share all her thought!!!! just thinking about it again made me tear up, really.

“Don’t be dumb.”

“You keep saying that.”

“You keep being dumb, boy.”

lol i love wayne with his tough love 😭

He looks over your shoulder at your life — at his life, or at least where a majority of it seems to take place. All his favourite parts these days happen right there on your couch, or at that table, or knee to knee with a baby that isn't his but- but-

A SHARED LIFE 😭😭😭 seeing his life and their life being irreversibly intertwined 😭😭😭 you were so low for this that’s literally my weakness.

"That's how I feel, too," you whisper. Utter. Hushed, your words ring loud anyway. "You're my best friend."

omg best friends to lovers trope <3 no but honestly her saying “you’re my best friend” MELTED me </3

"I actually…" — he gathers as much bravery as he has — "want to take care of you."

and

He holds your face in both hands. "You know you- You know you started it, right? You know it's- that without your-" He cringes internally at his stammering, but he has to get this part right. "You have gold where your heart should be."

that was my final straw. completely lost it.

THE MATCHING BAND T-SHIRT. <///3

"Can I trust you'll nurse me back to health, in the event that that happens?" Would you take care of me? His hands tremble where they're touching you. He's too scared to open his eyes.

You don't answer.

You cover his hands and the seconds stretch endlessly, a thousand moments of terror and pining and want suddenly flattened into one as you kiss him.

He exhales against you. His relief is a palpable, viscous thing as he pulls you in and his nose digs into yours. Lips soft as he'd imagined, as he'd known they'd be, you kiss back tentatively. Sweetly.

I wouldn’t dare add something to that. I don’t have anything to say besides that the “Would you take care of me?” ruined me. also totally mood ring baby vibes, I get it.

You're kissing him like he's something that needs a careful touch.

i love that 😭😭😭 eddie, the banished, the indomitable, the “freak”. being taken care of and treated like someone who (rightfully) needs a careful touch 😭😭😭

Eddie screws his eyes shut tight enough to see stars, firecrackers, a shattering bouquet of colours as you move beneath him. He can't believe he's kissing you. He can't believe there was a time where he wasn't.

THAT LAST PART. jade. oh my god.

"Okay?" he asks, more movement than sound. His lips skip over your own. You have to feel it.

the “more movement than sound” description was so good omg

"Make me sick, sweetheart," he says, begs. Whatever.

Whatever word you want to use. He doesn't care if he pays for it afterwards, he wants to be close to you now, unapologetically close. And kissing you — kissing you like this, your reciprocation, it's everything because it means you feel the same as he does.

Or a fraction the same. He's reassured either way. If you felt a fraction of what he felt, that's enough.

It's a lot. To be touching you, finally. He grabs at the nape of your neck and kisses, kisses, kisses. He goes slowly, not quite sweetly. He's never been as sweet as you have, never as soft or patient.

It doesn't feel like it matters.

that whole part was so good but I had to highlight that. oh my god. you’re insane. you’re SICK

Eddie massages the back of your hands. "No, you're the fucking prettiest girl ever. I think you're aces. Killer. Everything."

"Everything," you say, an almost indecipherable glassiness to your eyes.

"Everything," he says. He spreads his hand over your heart.

baby, that was everything. honestly. more than I could ever think of. the way you build their relationship is so utterly satisfying and catching that getting to a point where they’re on the same page feels like we’re finally all on that same page, like we’re finally fulfilled.

you’re so talented, sweetheart. the way you write their feelings, their thoughts and their actions will always be my favourite thing in the world and i can’t believe i get to live in a time where I can read your work like this, and send you thoughts on them like this. i’m forever grateful for your talent, your hard work, your dedication and your beautiful, lovely mind and heart, for sharing this with us and dedicating most of your time for that. you’re amazing, you must know that. can’t wait to see what’s coming next from you!! take your time and take care of yourself, yeah?

love u!!! so much!!! 💌 - lu

lu you are literally a dream you notice EVERYTHING 😭 I love u

junie is so loved, and so loving! I have met small children like junie before and I think it is SUPER obvious when a child is just drowning in love and affection and patience and I know parenting isn't easy ever and sometimes kids who are extremely loved also act out and I wouldn't suggest otherwise, but yeah sometimes you meet kids and they're just the nicest, weirdest creatures ever and it makes me want my own so badly 😭 hence piling all of my parenting wants into junie and making her a little affectionate sponge

the mood ring baby vibes! it fits them so well because they both keep thinking the other is just the best thing that's ever happened, and like "do you wanna get close" "would you take care of me?" parallels are very important to me, that song basically defines romance and emulating it will always be something I'm trying to do even if it's impossible!

I am so happy you noticed the whole catching up to speed for r ! cos in part 3 it's clear she gets the wrong idea and thinks Eddie doesn't like her back so I wanted to make sure Eddie kept doing all the things he was doing that kind of scream I absolutely do like you back, I want u and ur stupid for thinking otherwise!! but he's patient (ish) and is willing to wait, though by the end of the chapter he's literally gagging for a kiss and just wants her so bad and ahh ah !! it was super fun. I thought for a while that the slow burn would keep going and that I was gonna end up disappointing people bc originally Eddie was supposed to come and they were gonna share her bed but still not kiss but as I was writing the scene I just ended up writing the kiss without thinking, I think it really matches up with how they've gradually fallen but then it's like oh wow we're in love?? that was so sudden but so long at the same time!

IM the one who is forever grateful! it is really nice to see what parts you liked and you always always say the nicest things and have the best commentary I feel like you can see inside my head sometimes and know exactly what I was thinking at the time! And sometimes you give me more credit than I deserve and add meanings to these things I was just writing on autopilot and idk it makes me feel really happy and I love that you think these things and that you could ever take the time to compile all of this.

thank you for being an amazing friend and reader, i love you! this is totally a gift !! ♥

#long post #jade's asks #love u lu baby

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