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#i loveeee when mental health/family/and also my uni being a fucking hellhole because Yeah fucking Sure

pointsfortrying · 6 months

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#rye rants #vent #don't know if i can “we stay silly” out of this one gang #vent:tm: im just yelling into the void fslkjsdklrkd head in hands #me when i. face the consequences of my actions #my gpa is going to be Plummeting this semester we are in the fucking. trenches #i loveeee when mental health/family/and also my uni being a fucking hellhole because Yeah fucking Sure #let's bring a god damn '''isre*li''' to speak here Yeah I definetly want to stay in this school and havent been looking for alternatives #going to keep being pissed off about that!#just.#head in hands #the classes were easy as well and that's the fucking. worst part because i Know i could've done them i just.#didn't! because i kind of really wanted to just leave the school or vandalize it in between other forms of protest/arguing with #god damn z.ionist teachers/faculty + general health/mental health shit just. gah #technically still got an hour to try and raise my grades up a bit but like Hah i give up #me when. i don't even fucking Need a good gpa. it's god damn video game design. portfolios are more important #i should care less about grades! I don't need the god damn. best possible grades but Ragh #<- the constant self internalized need to prove oneself #me when. university is the first time in my life i can actually Understand school and thus have a need to excel in order to #prove that i've always been capable and it was just my enviroment/situation #god #i hate my brain and i really wish the world we lived in was less of an ass but fuck it!#what other option is there beside staying silly and fuck it we ball #i wish my brain would work but i don't get that because god had to nerf me when i was born or else i'd be too god damn strong apparently #<- they'll be okay and things Very likely don't have consequences that matter but they've been. Very frustrated and needs to complain a bit #stares off into the distance one day i'll get therapy or some form of aid to get some healthy coping mechanisms to deal with the fucked up #systems and perceptions in my head #until that day though fuck it we ball we stay silly #slams fist on floor me when i am human and i feel human emotions such as frustration #fucked up

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