finished your buckleway prompt!! hope u like it đđ
modern AU + werewolf AU, enjoy
posted on ao3
Heatherâs been dancing around asking Robin out for the past three weeks. Billy has probably had enough of her flip-flopping between waxing poetic and bemoaning how complicated dating humans gets.
Especially since he had ended up in a storage closet with Steve on his knees a whole thirty minutes after they met, and theyâd been fucking anywhere and everywhere ever since. Sheâs getting sick of smelling salt and sex and Steve all over their apartment, but theyâve showed no signs of slowing down. Billyâs smug as hell about it too. He loves having Steveâs scent all over their living space, the disgusting sap.
Of course, heâs still being Billy about the situation, but at least he was getting some action in between bouts of what if he leaves me when he finds out angst.
Whereas Heather is burning through more AAA batteries than she can afford to. Constantly plagued with thoughts of leaving lipstick mark up Robinâs neck, teeth on her collarbone, what that husky voice would sound like wrecked and breathy in her ear.
Itâs becoming a problem.
And the closer they get to the full moon the harder it is to be around Robin. The more she wants to just throw caution to the wind, bury her face in Robinâs cleavage and ride her thigh into oblivion.
But she canât just do that, because they like the same shitty indie bands, and Robinâs rants about the film industry are the highlight of her day, and her laugh makes Heatherâs heart do backflips, andâŠ
Sheâs human.
Heather canât just jump her and run, because sheâs head over fucking heels for this girl, but she has no idea how Robin would react to the werewolf revelation, so⊠Sheâs stuck.
As much as Billy pokes fun at her, and lords his relationship with Steve over her, they both know heâs being just as much of an idiot as she is. The wolf isnât something you can hide from a partner, not for long. Billyâs playing a dangerous game.
Then again, thatâs kind of his thing.
Point is, by the time the full moon comes around theyâre both miserable. Billyâs been moping around their apartment all day because he had to make a lame-ass excuse to Steve about why they couldn't see each other today. Heâs been looking like a lost pup for hours because Steve pouted a little over Facetime.
Meanwhile Heatherâs been binging shitty rom-coms on Netflix all day, wrapped around a sweater she stole from Robin last week. It barely smells like her anymore, but itâs all sheâs got.
Theyâre not at their best.
The itch that comes in late afternoon, when the sun starts to make its way down the horizon, is almost a relief. It might not be pleasant but at least itâs a respite from being bored and lonely.
Around dusk they head out.
Putting on a pair of running shoes and shorts pretty much covers for the fact that two grown adults sprinting into the woods at night is suspicious as hell. Hopefully. No oneâs questioned them yet, anyways.
Probably helps that they run on regular days too.
Heather stops at the tree-line and sniffs the air. Everythingâs sharper than it usually would be. The earth, the clean, dewy scent of wet leaves, Billy next to her, a solid, warm presence, smelling like home, pack, friend, musky and comforting under the chemical scent of all the products he slathers on.
The wind picks up.
She sniffs again.
Kali and her pack are already here. Figures. Theyâre always eager to let loose, full moon or not. They get especially rowdy this time of the month.
Billy whoops, taking off into the woods with a grin. He must smell them too.
She runs after him, the wind in her hair, cool air needling some colour into her cheeks. Itâs exactly what she needed after the day she had. Hell, the week sheâs had.
Robin is, for the first time in weeks, not at the forefront of her mind. Thereâs nothing but the pull of the moon, the rush of adrenaline that comes with it. The thrill of the hunt-to-be.
She wonât be chasing anything but rabbits and her friends, but the buzz is the same. Without the crushing guilt afterwards.
âAlways late to the party,â Kali chides when Heather and Billy crash through the underbrush into view. Sheâs standing in the middle of a clearing, hands on her hips and chin tilted like she owns the place. But her smile is warm, tone teasing.
Her pack surrounds her, grinning, as always, toeing the line between feral and friendly. If Billy wasnât so relaxed around them Heather would be on edge. Theyâve always made her a little uncomfortable.
Billy blames her upper-middle-class suburban upbringing, and...well, heâs not wrong.
They embrace their wolves a little too fully, every day of the year, always just a little lupine. All of them except Kali, who stays too human, even when shifted.
Dottie breaks from the group first, leaping forward and crashing into Billy. Sheâs tiny, werewolf strength be damned, and he barely moves when she hits, just wraps his arms around her to swing her around while she giggles.
âYou stink, Spots,â Billy says when he puts her down. âWhenâre you gonna stop puttinâ that shit in your hair?â
âWhen it stops bugging you,â she snickers.
Funshine is next, slower about moving forward, more deliberate about his hug. Dottie re-attaches herself to Billy, trying to wrap her arms around both of them. It devolves into a cluster of the six of them, all scenting each other, hands in each other's hair, arms wrapped around waists, contentment rolling off them in waves.
Heather basks in it for a second, the feeling of pack. Itâs soothing, like sunshine warming her face, like a tight hug from someone you love.
It makes the change easier when it hits, moments later. Itâs not the agony it was when she was alone.
It still hurts. When thereâs hair sprouting like needles pushing through her skin, gums bruising as her canines turn to fangs, of course thereâs pain, but the ache is dulled.
She used to hate this part. The slipping away. Changing places with the wolf inside her and feeling it happen. It felt like being torn away and locked up in her own head. She fought against it every time.
It wasnât until she met Kali that she realizedâ was taughtâ that fighting her wolf only makes it worse. She learned to relinquish control instead of having it taken from her. To sink into her own subconscious like a warm bath, relax into it and float away. Become the wolf.
She hits the ground panting.
Claws dig into the dirt. Running shoes get kicked off. They land somewhere in the underbrush. She can sniff them out later, they arenât a priority right now.
A whine escapes her, pressure building at the base of her skull as the moon rises.
And then it bursts. Relief in technicolour.
Sheâs free.
Billy is beside her, breathing hard, a guttural growl ripping from his throat. Pungent, sour distress rolls off him in waves, hits Heatherâs nose like a physical blow.
Heâs always had trouble relinquishing control.
She nudges his arm. Rubs their shoulders together. Kali joins them, lays a hand on his back.
He relaxes eventually, agonizing minutes later, his scent softening back to friend. Pack. Good.
Around them Kaliâs pack howls, pleased. Two of them take off, chasing each other through the trees, another follows, Heather listens to their footsteps grow fainter.
Then the wind shifts and brings with it a new scent.
Familiar. Sweet, smoky. Hints of spice. Unmistakably human.
Itâs faint. Far enough away that she canât hear the heartbeat that should accompany it.
But sheâd recognize that scent anywhere.
Mate.
Her wolf howls, louder than it's ever been, drowning out whatâs left of Heather and her awareness slips away.
--
The sun wakes her.
She blinks, eyes gummy, vision blurry from sleep, spotty as she adjusts to the light.
Something beneath her shifts.
Heather stiffens.
The sound of the woods around her she expected, the scent of dried sweat on her skin, dirt under her nails. But she also expected to hear her packâs heartbeats, smell Billy nearby, the pack blending into an overwhelming but comforting blanket of warmth around her.
Thereâs only one heartbeat, pounding loud and fast against her ear. One scent. Earthy. Spiced.
And afraid.
Heather pushes back, scrambling away from the warm body under her, anxiety tying her stomach in knots.
âRobin!?â she squeaks, croaky from sleep, from the change.
âWhat the fuck,â is all Robin manages to say. Sheâs shaking, wide-eyed. âHeather, whatâ what the fuck!â
This is...bad. Very bad.
Heather canât do much more than gape at Robin, her brain still trying to catch up to what sheâs seeing.
She tries to remember what even happened last night but all she gets are flashes. The turn. Kaliâs pack howling around her. The scent of smoke and spice on the wind, ofâ
Oh. Oh.
Sheâs always been a little overwhelmed by how Robin makes her feel. Felt it immediately. That connection. A desire to know her, get close to her, keep her.
It terrified her. That Robin is human, that she felt so strongly about someone she barely knew.
That she didnât quite know why.
Well, she knows now. And somehow the truth is more intimidating.
Of course, her wolf doesnât care about the risks. Didnât care, when she sprinted through the woods to find Robin. To be near her.
She remembers bits and pieces. Robinâs quiet gasp when Heather leapt into view. The fierce protectiveness she felt when she smelled Robinâs fear.
Of course, Robin was afraid of her, so getting up close and personal trying to comfort her really didnât help. Not that she realized that at the time.
She really should be worried about bigger things right now, but embarrassment colours her cheeks anyways.
Dumbass wolf.
Robinâs breathing is starting to sound labored, panic gripping her tighter the longer Heather is silent.
âHeather?â Robin says quietly, tentatively, eyeing her cautiously.
âUmâŠgood morning?â she responds, grimacing as she does. Itâs getting hard to look Robin in the eye.
âReally?â Robin laughs, breathlessly and without humor. âReally? Because I was supposed to be waking up in my bed right about now, and instead I spent the night here, not sleeping because I blind fucking terror isnât a great sedative.â
âRobin, Iââ Heather opens and closes her mouth a few times, still at a loss for words. âIâmâIâm sorry. Justâ what were you even doing out here?â she groans, burying her face in her hands.
âFull moon ritual,â Robin snaps, âYou know, meditating onâ no, you know what,â she shakes her head vigorously, bringing up a hand to gesture at Heather, âIâm not the one who has some fucking explaining to do. What the hell, Heather?â
âI thought the whole,â Heather waves a hand, âHairy and growling on a full moon...thing, was pretty self-explanatory,â she says sheepishly.
âYou know what Iâm talking about. Donât play dumb, youâre no good at it.â
Heather blinks. Looks up at Robin, her flushed cheeks and the indignant downturn of her mouth. Despite the circumstances, Heatherâs heart flutters.
She sighs. âAlright.â Robin raises an expectant eyebrow when Heather pauses to collect her thoughts. âWe spend full moons out here to be away from people. Running on basic instinct around humans generally doesnât end well.â
âYeah, no shit. So why am I still alive?â
âIâŠâ
Thereâs no way of explaining this and keeping her and Robinâs friendship intact. Even if the werewolf thing doesnât put her off, you never drop the mate revelation on someone youâre not even dating.
Hell, Heatherâs still trying to wrap her head around it. She can only imagine how it would sound to Robin.
âJust tell me,â Robinâs pulse is skyrocketing again, and sheâs worrying her shirt sleeve between her fingers. The impassive look on her face is obviously fake, she canât quite keep herself from chewing the inside of her cheek.
Heather watches Robinâs jaw work until she smells blood. âStop that.â She lifts a finger to poke the side of Robinâs face, but Robin tenses. Minutely. Only for a second.
But long enough.
Heather drops her hand.
âI would never hurt you,â she says softly. âI couldnât.â Robin blinks at her, and opens her mouth like sheâs going to speak but no words come out, so Heather continues.
âWhen I turned last night, Iâ I know how this sounds butâ I could smell you. You smelled like home. Like⊠well, the point is, I just⊠had to find you. The details are a little sketchy, I donât remember much besides needing to be near you. But that was all it was, Robin. Even shifted I knew you. Knew not to hurt you.â
Robinâs heartbeat hasnât slowed. Her expression is still shell-shocked, almost more than before. Heatherâs heart sinks.
Her eyes fall, unbidden, to Robinâs chest. The visible pulse under her skin. âYouâre still afraid.â
âIââ Robin clutches the front of her shirt reflexively, hand over her pounding heart, and then frowns. âYou can hear it,â she says, accusing, and Heather recoils.
âIâm sorry! I canât help it.â
âHeatherâŠ.â Robin groans âThis whole time you could hear my heartbeat?! And smell myâ my pheromones, or whatever?â She buries her face in her hands. The tips of her ears are pink.
âItâs a werewolf thing! Iââ Heather stops, face burning. Thereâs nothing she can say to make it better. No one likes knowing that someone can smell how long itâs been since you washed your hair, or how well you washed your hands, or exactly what youâve been binge eating at 3am. Itâs invasive. Took Heather ages to get used to it after she was bitten.
In fact, it still makes her uncomfortable. Enough that she tries to ignore what sheâs smelling and hearing as much as possible, for the sake of peopleâs privacy. And her sanity. The walls of her and Billyâs apartment are very thin.
âIâm sorry, I know itâs weird,â Heather says quietly.
âYeah. It is,â Robin mutters, muffled by her palms. She peeks through her fingers before dropping her hands into her lap. âLook, just⊠give me some time, okay? I need a nap. And a shower. AndâŠâ She sighs. Tugs on a lock of her hair. âJust give me a couple days. Please.â
Heather blinks back tears. She knows what Robin is asking for is reasonable. Itâs better than how she could have reacted. But it still hurts, and a part of her that wonders if a couple days are going to turn into weeks. Months. If sheâs just being polite and, in fact, plans on ghosting Heather the second sheâs out of sight.
âOkay.â
--
Robin opens the door to her apartment with shaking fingers. Thereâs so much on her mind, though her thoughts are muddled by sleep-deprivation, foggy and unfocused.
Heather, hair loose and wild, eyes shining in the moonlight and fixed on Robin. She stopped Robinâs heart even before the revelation that there was something different about her. In the gloom it was hard to tell at first, but details started to stick out. Her eyes were glassy. Fingernails too sharp, jagged and curled into claws. She was barefoot, her posture was all wrong. Her hair brushed aside as she moved and revealed pointed ears, covered in thick fur.
And once Robin started to panicâŠ
Heatherâs reaction made no sense.
She has a lot to think about.
Like how devastated Heather looked when Robin told her she needed some space.
âFuck,â Robin mutters, shutting the door behind her. Maybe a little too forcefully.
âRobin?!â Steve shouts from the next room. Before she can respond he comes skidding down the hallway and barrels into her. âWhere have you been?â he demands, too loud and right in her ear.
He pulls back, hands on her shoulders and gives her an appraising look.
âAnd why are there leaves in your hair?â He pauses, and his eyes widen, full of concern. âRobin, are you alright?â
She struggles to come up with an answer that wonât sound like a blatant lie. And besides the fact that he probably wouldnât believe her anyways, the whole werewolf thing isnât her secret to tell.
âI. Um. Iâm fine. Ran into Heather.â
Youâd think growing up queer in a small town wouldâve made her a better liar.
Steve raises his eyebrows. âThen why do you look miserable.â
âItâsâŠâ she sighs, âAsk me tomorrow. Right now I need sleep.â
He frowns. Hard. Frowns with his whole body. But he nods anyway, albeit reluctantly. âIâm late for work,â he says, glancing at the clock on the wall like itâs personally responsible for his constant tardiness. âBut Iâll call in sick if you want me to stay. No questions asked.â
That coaxes a smile out of her. His kindness still catches her off guard sometimes. Even after he moved to California with her when she got into uni out here. After she came out to him and he made her laugh, despite how terrified she was. After he got her through the horror of working at Scoops Ahoy.
She steps away from the door, clearing the way for him. âYou donât have any sick days left, dingus. Iâll be okay. Pretty sure I know how to take a nap without supervision.â
âAlright.â he eyes her carefully, âBut text me if you need anything. I mean it.â
She nods, and tries to school her expression into something encouraging. Heâs going to worry no matter what she does but she can at least try.
It doesnât work, predictably. He leaves their apartment with a crease between his eyebrows and a lingering look at Robin before he closes the door.
âFuck,â she mutters again.
Getting herself showered and into PJs takes longer than sheâd like. There are so many leaves tangled in her hair she considers just shaving her head so she can go to sleep, and she keeps drifting off, lulled into a stupor by the hot water.
But once sheâs comfortably buried under a mound of blankets, clean, warm, and so, so tired, she just lays there, awake.
She keeps replaying her and Heatherâs conversation in her head, telling herself she should have reacted better, been better, not run off because...
See, the werewolf thing she probably could have handled. Itâs ridiculous, and so fucking out there, but Heatherâs still Heather. When she isnât all wolfy anyway. And even that was weird but not a dealbreaker. She didnât hurt Robin, just scared the piss out of her.
All Robin needed was to calm down a little to wrap her brain around it.
What she canât handle is the fact that Heather, because of her fucking werewolf senses, most definitely knows exactly how attractive Robin finds her. Which is fucking mortifying.
Heather never struck Robin as the type to dance around a mutual attraction, so, clearly, it isnât mutual, and Robinâs just been drooling over a girl who doesnât want her. Again.
She needs a few days to lick her wounds.
Preferably starting with a goddamn nap, but sleep still eludes her.
She tosses and turns and tries not to think about sad, dark eyes. About Heatherâs reassurances. I would never hurt you and You smelled like home, because what the fuck does that mean.
About Heatherâs body curled around hers.
Needless to say, the countless times Robin imagined spending a night under Heather the context was very different, and the aftermathâŠ
Robin groans into her pillow.
It takes her hours to fall asleep.
--
Two days later Steve has been reassured, Robin has gotten plenty of sleep, and she decides itâs time to stop moping.
Her decision to finally put pants on and leave her apartment is made only partially because she has to go to work. Really, she got to this point mostly on her own, promise.
She even sort of plans to talk to Heather today.
What she didnât plan on was Billy Hargrove ambushing her before her shift.
Sheâs just barely tied her apron on when he comes storming in. The cafe isnât even open yet.
âWhat. The fuck. Did you do,â he snarls, slamming his hands on the counter when he gets close enough, leaning forward to glare at her.
âHargrove, itâs too damn early for this, what are youââ
âHeather, dumbass. Tell me what you did to her.â Itâs not a question, itâs a demand. Thereâs a coldness in his expression sheâs never seen before.
Granted, sheâs only ever hung out with him when Steve is around.
The way his shoulders tense, like heâs ready for a fight, almost scares her, but sheâs too busy getting angry at his belligerence.
âFuck you. I didnât do anythingââ
âDonât lie to me.â
Something clicks into place.
âOh,â Robin narrows her eyes, âYouâre one too, arenât you.â
Billy growls, a little more wolf than human. âYeah, you got a problem with that? That what this is about?â
âNo, oh my god.â
âThen tell me why Heatherâs been a fucking wreck since the full moon. She said you found out about her, and thatâs all I can get out of her.â
âI⊠donât know?â Robinâs stomach flips, and clenches painfully. She tugs on a lock of her hair. âI asked her for a bit of space, thatâs it. I was going to text her today.â
âYou better.â
âAlright, calm down, Mr. Macho,â Robin says flatly. God, heâs just the fucking most. Sheâd almost be able to appreciate how much he cares about Heather, if his wrath wasnât currently focused on her.
He glowers a bit longer before retreating. Not even a goodbye, he just storms off.
Asshole.
Heâs right though, she needs to text Heather. Whoâs been just as miserable as Robin, apparently.
And hasnât told her best friend why.
That bit of information niggles at her. All through her shift it lingers in the back of her brain, hanging back but always there, like the buzzing of an insect she canât find.
By lunchtime itâs gotten so distracting that sheâs fucked up five orders and dumped two drinks on her coworker.
Thankfully sheâs done at noon, and her now very annoyed coworker tells her to piss off the second her shift is over.
She hasnât texted Heather yet.
Every time she pulls her phone out she draws a blank. Has no idea what to say. âHey, Iâm done moping, sorry I hurt your feelingsâ doesn't seem to cut it.
She stares at her phone for fifteen minutes, motionless and completely at a loss, then sighs and tosses it on the passenger seat of her car.
Before she has time to question whether itâs a good idea or not, she pulls out of the parking lot and heads to Heatherâs apartment.
Itâs only a ten minute drive, but itâs plenty of time to second guess herself. And third guess. And fourth.
But sheâs here, sheâs doing this. Sheâs sweating bullets, but itâs happening.
Two flights of stairs later sheâs staring at Heatherâs front door, fist poised to knock, and not moving a muscle.
She takes a step back in surprise when the door swings open suddenly.
Robin blinks.
Heatherâs standing in the doorway, hair loose and frizzy, deep purple shadows under her eyes. It looks like she hasnât slept in days.
Her mouth is hanging open a little, and sheâs staring.
âUh. Hi,â Robin says. âI⊠can I come in?â
âYes. Yeah, of course,â Heather fumbles, and runs a hand through her hair as she steps aside to let Robin in.
They stand in the front hall awkwardly after the door shuts behind them, shooting each other nervous glances but unsure what to say.
âIââ Robin pauses. Looks down. âIs that my sweater?â
Heatherâs eyes widen, and she grasps the hem of it nervously. âUm. Yeah. Sorry, I canââ She starts to pull it off but Robin reaches out to stop her.
âDonât.â She wraps her fingers around Heatherâs wrist. âIt looks good on you.â
â...Oh.â Heatherâs lips curl in a pleased smile that sparks something in Robinâs chest.
âI was being an idiot,â Robin says quickly. Her heart is starting to pound, and she catches Heather glancing down curiously. âIâI just assumed thatââ She closes her eyes briefly, frustrated. Itâs no less difficult to put into words in person. âLook, you know Iâm into you, right?â
Heather startles, eyes going wide. âWhat?!â
âYouâŠâ Robin gapes at her, âYou didnât know? I thoughtâ I mean, all those things you said about⊠needing to find me. During the full moon. Iâ you got my hopes up but thenâŠLook, you can hear heartbeats and shit! How did you not know?!â
âI...â Heather grimaces briefly, âItâs not an exact science, okay? I mean, I hoped you were, but youâre human, Robin,â she folds her arms across her chest, hugging herself, âI was more focused on that.â
Robin furrows her brow. âWhat? Why?â
âSeriously? Because all I did was cuddle a little too aggressively and I scared the shit out of you,â her voice cracks and her eyes start to look watery, âYouâre my mate, Robin, Iâm bound to you for life! And I had no idea if youâd ever want to see me again!â She stops suddenly, bites her lip as tears slip down her cheeks.
âOh.â
Robinâs feeling a little like sheâs been conked on the head. Dazed. Her brain trying to catch up with whatâs going on.
Sheâs known Heather less than a month and apparently theyâre already werewolf married, or whatever the hell mate means.
Itâs slightly terrifying, butâŠ
âHeather, look at me.â
She does. Looks up at Robin with red-rimmed eyes, and Robinâs whole chest contracts.
Without really thinking she leans down, and presses her mouth to Heatherâs. Itâs brief, chaste, but still makes her stomach flip and warms her from head to toe.
When she pulls back Heather sways forward, unbalanced for a moment, her eyelashes fluttering.
âI want to give this a shot, Heather. I⊠Iâm sorry I freaked out, but I swear, I want this. You. All of you.â
Heather grins in response, bright and dazzling. It lights up her whole face, and her eyes start to well up again. Seemingly at a loss for words she instead chooses to launch herself forward, colliding with Robin as she wraps her arms around her and crashes their lips together again.
Robin staggers back a few paces but regains her balance enough to respond in kind, smiling against Heatherâs mouth.
She feels right, wrapped around Robin, feels safe. Like home.
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Finding Kurt Hummel: Previously Unaired Christmas
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5x08: Previously Unaired Christmas
Look - itâs no secret that I am not a fan of this episode. It still makes my stomach twist a little for reasons that I canât entirely articulate (and I suspect are far more personal than any real issue the episode presents). I know people are split on either loving this episode or hating this episode - maybe doing this will help me figure out whatâs really going on. Â
I, personally, have two issues with the whole thing. (The second one Iâll explain within the narrative of the episode.) The first is that it does kind of feel like an FU to pretty much everyone. I donât necessarily think itâs to the fans explicitly (though the stuff with Kurt kinda feels like that), but in general, Iâm guessing they were forced into a holiday episode that they didnât really want to do by the network. Because more so, the nastiness towards Christmas feels like that. Â
I also have to wonder if Coryâs passing plays a small part. I mean - this is cracky Glee - itâs been cracky Glee for a while now. We just had an episode about puppets, twerking, and dressing up in bizarre Lady Gaga outfits. The show has been kind of off the rails for most of season 5, and this episode almost feels like the climax of that (after the break - things feel a little more...normal?) Â
Anyway - I donât know exactly how we ended up here - but I kind of wish that Glee didnât end itâs Christmas run on a, well, whatever this note is. Â
Oh! And one last thing. Â At this point - season six was not shortened. Â I wonder if they had another, more heartfelt, Christmas episode idea for their final one. Â Hmmm. Â
What If
We open with Jane Lynch talking about how this was a secret hidden away episode. And Iâm bringing it up because this whole set up seemed to confuse everyone. No - this was most definitely not a lost episode, nor do I think itâs any more or less controversial than anything else they did on the show. (I do think the writers didnât give a flying fuck - and were warning about that...) Â
However, this whole intro does seem to make things confusing. Yes - itâs set in season 4. Yes - Iâll bet they did, at some point, come up with the Rough Trade Santa thing the previous year, and just discarded it until now. However, shout out to @ckerouac for bringing up the point that -- if Glee wanted to go cracky, they could have gone so much further. I mean if youâre going to go AU - why not do something entirely wacky. They kind of did in Glee, Actually with Artieâs fantasy. So, Iâm kind of in agreement. Why bring it back to season 4 (other than you have newbies you have to deal with). Why not shoot it into the future, or just switch everyoneâs bodies again. Glee can go that extra mile, why not? Who knows. Â
Meanwhile - I need to state that this did not happen in the main timeline. It could have (sort of - there are so many continuity errors that it hurts my head). But it did not. This is completely AU. And really, I could skip it if I really wanted to. Iâm going through it just the same because a) for completeness sake - itâd bother me if I didnât, b) there are some interesting Kurt-meta points that I think are worth bringing up. Â
That long winded, probably unnecessary preamble aside - here we go.Â
Grandma Moses
So. We open on the New York side with Santana crashing at the loft, buying Kurt weird doll heads and tickets to Dildo island. (Are we being edgy yet - the writers ask? Just you wait ;)) Okay, so this scene kind of sets up what the whole New York act is supposed to be about. It seems they want to address two specific things about Kurt (that I have at least seen in criticisms, and Iâm pretty sure the writers did, too) -- a) That he didnât have enough of a ânormal teenage reactionâ to his break up with Blaine and b) that Kurt is an old grandma, desexualized gay. Â
Well. Glee being in its FU mode is going to rectify that - just not in the way thatâs going to satisfy anyone (I shouldnât generalize - I know there are people who love this episode, my regards). Â
And - in a FWIW thought, Kurt is an old grandma. He always has been. Thatâs just part of the make up of the character. Â
The point, however, of Santanaâs little monologue of exposition here is to set the stage for whatâs going to happen in the rest of the episode. It reminds me of the Tattooo Guy in The End of Twerk - telling Kurt that if heâs going to go nuts, he has to go all out. Â
[2 asides - 1. Santana is also getting rewritten break up stuff (Iâm guessing in response to criticism), as they seem to retcon a ton about the Brittana break up. 2. This whole story seems to be a commentary about Kurt specifically, and not really about Blaine? Blaine seems to be fine this entire episode - though heâs barely shown because heâs off screen with some weird yule log obsession ;)] Â
Meanwhile - Rachel has gotten them all jobs as elves at the mall. Which - I suppose makes sense. Oh! And weirdly enough - thereâs no discussion from Rachel about her own break up with Finn (which makes sense because of Cory), or about Brody, or Cassie, or any of the stuff that happened to Rachel in season 4. Weird, right? Nah, sheâs just a backdrop to the Kurt and Santana stuff. I will say - Rachel saying that sheâll be the best Jewish Elf ever made me laugh.Â
Bad Santa
Ah, the one highlight of the episode - Chris Kurt in that elf costume. It was like he was born to play an elf. LolÂ
Anyway - they get to the mall, and Santaâs late, and drunk. (Not really here for bad santa - but his line about them in an âequity cardâ mindset had me laughing.) So, of course Rachel takes charge and they try to calm the audience with Here Comes Santa Claus. Itâs -- perfectly fine. In general, I find the music of the episode, with the exception of Love Child, somewhat uninspired. Oh, right, this is a musical show, we have to have music. Hereâs a Christmas song. Â
Of course, at the end, the kids arenât charmed - they throw crap at them. Yeah - we totally didnât see this happen in season 2. Â
I have read some meta about how Kurt, Rachel, and Santana are stand-ins for the writers here -- that whatever they do, itâs gonna get crap thrown at them. (The thought is echoed at the end, too) Oh! I have lots of thoughts on this, but I should probably save it for another post, cause itâs not really about Kurt. Â
So -- the next day? Later that day? Santana goes and takes a bath...in the loft? I have no idea what the time line is. I havenât watched the Lima side of this episode since it aired. Anyway, Kurt and Rachel call her up and beg her to help them. Santana gives another obligatory joke about Kurt being an old grandma - born to play Mrs. Claus. (Um, Santana - I think weâve established that Kurt was born to be that Elf.) Â
Oh - this still says so much....
Santana arrives as Mrs. Claus and proceeds to be a bitch to little people under ten. Kurt and Rachel rightfully look horrified. Sorry. I donât like this sequence. Itâs mean spirited and awful. I donât think itâs funny when adults are mean to innocent kids. Moving on...
And....then we have the arrival of âSexy Santaâ Cody. (Dude - this guy is totally skeevy to me -- who arrives at a mall without a shirt? But whatever) And the rest of this plot line gets played out like half baked smutty fanfiction. Â
I will say this -- I do think all of this is completely in character for Kurt. Remember Ricky Martin in season 3? This is essentially the same reaction from Kurt. Kurt finds lots of guys attractive -- and he is allowed to react to it. (And weâre in cracky mode - this is totally played up for laughs, in the same way it was when Ricky Martin guest starred.)Â
This is also not one of my issues with the episode.Â
Anyway - Cody wants to âget to knowâ his elves before he helps them. Ew. Kurt those abs are clouding your judgment, buddy.Â
That Godawful Chipmunk Song
Santana once again reminds Kurt that heâs a stick in the mud and convinces him to spike his own eggnog. And then Cody arrives. Again. Shirtless. **rolls eyes** And obviously scoping out the place so he can rob it. Maybe thatâs part of the reason I canât really get on board with Kurt hooking up with him. Cause itâs obvious that this guy is gross and going to be bad. Yuck.Â
Anyway, we all know what a light weight Kurt is - and within a few sips of cooking sherry and eggnog, heâs all flirty mcdrunk pants. Â
So - this whole Chipmunk thing - in bulletted form because my brain is currently working better that way...Â
I, personally, think this song is dumb. Sorry. Â
It creates this super weird adult/kid vibe between Cody and the loftmates, which I find uncomfortable. Â
Cody is obviously playing this all up because heâs going to rob them - which makes his actions later really awful. Â
Trashed Kurt with anyone else (especially Blaine, but anyone really) would have been hilarious in just about any other context. Â
Chris, obviously, had a lot of fun filming this - so Iâll let him have that. Â
The point where SO goes on her diatribe - so feel free to skip
Oh, where to start. Â
1. Cody is taking advantage of a incredibly drunk, barely legal teenager in order steal from him. I donât think the writers put a whole lot of thought into it -- other than saying âhey, we can make Kurt a sexual creatureâ, but I do think it was kind of in bad taste.Â
2. I wasnât personally offended by it - but there were a lot of people who were (especially when it gets to the being tied up, and Kurt telling Cody no), and a lot of people telling them to get over it because it was cracky glee. The whole hoopla over that in fandom has always left a bad taste in my mouth. Â
3. Gross Cody stuff aside, no I donât think this is out of character for Kurt. Kurtâs in a bad place about breaking up with Blaine -- and after being pushed by Santana hard enough, having enough alcohol in him, and being presented with the opportunity, Kurtâs trying to get out of his shell a bit and enjoy himself. Heâs perfectly right to do so, and I do think it makes sense that someone going through a hardship like a rough break up with a first love would try something new -- especially being a first time college student with no limitations.Â
4. What about âyou matterâ and baby penguin Kurt? Well - first of all, I donât think Kurt has ever been a baby penguin, and Iâm going to spend a lot of the second half of season 5 talking about Kurt being very much a sexual being. I also think that Kurt does and will always be particular about sex -- again, the writers had to get Kurt incredibly drunk and in a very specific situation for this to even present itself. I donât think itâs that Kurt canât (or wonât) have casual sex, but more so that it means more to him when itâs with someone he loves. Had this not been a throwaway episode intent on being offensive and cracky, that thought might have been explored.Â
5. It cracks me up that they kind of even half-assed Kurt being a sexual being. Sure, Codyâs half naked in-between Kurtâs legs. Itâs more of a slight of hand, though. The kissing is a) cut away from very quickly, and b) barely kissing (the first part when Santana and Rachel come in isnât really even kissing - itâs like stage kissing, where you kiss their cheek, it looks like making out, but itâs not). The whole thing looks way more provocative than it really is.Â
6. I do think itâs unfortunate that they didnât let Kurt be this provocative and flirty (and handsy) with anyone else on the show. I do think Kurt has hotter moments (with Blaine - in various episodes, I can name them for you if you like). But the whole being overtly sexual and gay and somewhat naked is limited throughout the show (this goes for Brittana, too, for that matter, and even the Quinn/Santana hook up - they were mostly covered and a good four feet from each other on that bed).Â
6B. As an aside, though -- Glee doesnât do overtly sexual very often, and nearly every time they do itâs for comedy. It makes me wonder if there was some kind of limitations in general. I mean, Finchel never got a mostly naked sex scene either - though Blaine and Brittany did -- for comedy. Â
7. I do think thereâs an interesting story about season 4 Kurt dealing with his break up -- which would have included more intimate moments with Adam, and/or other people. But that wasnât the story they chose. Â
7B. I do think, ultimately, this was the writers saying - well we could have written that story - but we prefer the one we are doing. I think itâs in part of the whole FU thing they were going for. I mean, even for people who wanted to see Kurt get more action -- heâs going to get punished for it in a sec, so even that feels like a bit of an FU. Â
Moving on... the next morning Santana and Rachel wake up to find that theyâve been robbed and Kurt is tied up. Â
Kurt does say that when he said no to a sexual thing - Cody got aggressive and tied him up. That is leaning on sexual assault there, show. Again - Iâm not personally offended, but I also donât think itâs funny either. Â
Oh, as an aside I want to mention the whole thrown in joke there about Kurt being sexy to kiss because itâs like he has no kiss (geez, is it just me or is there a blow job joke in there somewhere?) it is a comment on Chrisâs physical attributes. So, calm down people when we get to Santanaâs rant in season six. Every character gets pot shots about their looks. Itâs part of being an actor in general.  Â
Go Feel Shame
Itâs...the next day? And Kurtâs talking to Santana (seeming much more Kurt like than the rest of the episode) about how he just wanted to let loose and feel better. (Well, alcohol rarely helps with that kiddo - but itâs a lesson nonetheless.) Itâs interesting that he says he feels ashamed (he shouldnât - but I can see why he would). And he also doesnât want Blaine to know, ever. (An odd comment for something that is an AU) Â
I do understand some peopleâs thoughts that they wished Kurt had had a better experience about letting loose a little (and in some ways he did -- I mean that was what The End of Twerk was about). And I agree in that not every poor decision in your life needs to be met with shame and being robbed. Â
But I do think itâs also Gleeâs way of saying - hey, we did hear you - and weâre going to continue to tell the story our way. Â
They all look really lovely in this scene. Rachel has a new gig for them - singing behind a wall of glass. Â
Itâs the fourth wall -- Kurt, Santana, and Rachel are the writers again. Itâs probably better that they stay there for their own safety. But also - this episode is what happens when that wall is broken down between creators and fandom - a weird mess of....whatever this is. Â
Oh! One last final side thought -- no, thereâs no Klaine duet. That doesnât bother me within the context of this story - it wouldnât have made sense anywhere. That said, Iâm sorry they didnât get a final duet. I think Winter Wonderland would have been a nice conclusion for them. Letâs take a moment and lament that there was no season six Christmas episode to end on a high note with.Â
Time to move on to the regular story at hand. Â
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Influencer mostra corpo real por trĂĄs de suas fotos no Instagram
A influenciadora digital Danae Mercer compartilha em seu perfil no Instagram o corpo real por trås de fotos perfeitas como uma forma de protestar contra os padrÔes estéticos inalcançåveis e procura alertar sobre a ilusão vendida às pessoas por uma foto bem tratada.
Danae Mercer mostra os Ăąngulos em que suas fotos nĂŁo saem de acordo com o que Ă© estabelecido pelos padrĂ”es estĂ©ticos da sociedade. Segundo ela, a âperfeiçãoâ do clique depende da perspectiva usada nas imagens.
A motivação de Danae em mostrar seu corpo real é a superação de um transtorno alimentar que a fazia magra ao extremo.
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TW â NEW YOUTUBE â Eating Disorder relapse â My story Thereâs so much I want to say. Most of it I talk through in this video (link in bio): How itâs so common to have disordered thoughts around food; how itâs normal to battle healing; how sometimes we deny we have a problem for days and weeks and years. How getting better is worth it. How youâre not alone if you find yourself wobbling in a grey area where body image and mental health and external pressures collide. I relapsed once, four years ago. It happens and itâs horrible and yet. Yet. We are resilient. How it will be ok. And yet Iâm not quite sure how to say so many things, now more than ever. Because Iâm realizing eating disorders are more complicated than I ever knew. And that there are entire communities who are left out of the healing, the research, the representation. Maybe youâre stumbling through these things too. Maybe youâre that girl. So for now, let me say this: If youâre struggling, know that recovery is possible. If youâve recovered, remind yourself constantly your why. And if youâre feeling alone, know that you are not. Not now. Not ever. It will be ok. It will be ok. . . . #EDrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edawareness #selflove
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A influenciadora tem mais de 870 mil seguidores na rede social, e usa sua visibilidade para mostrar que todos somos perfeitos do nosso jeito sem precisamos seguir um padrĂŁo de beleza inexistente que nĂŁo faz bem a maioria das pessoas.
Vigilante, a influenciadora mostra seu corpo real, suas celulites como sendo o que sĂŁo: algo completamente normal nas mulheres. âA celulite Ă© tĂŁo comum! EntĂŁo, use aquele maiĂŽ, arrase no biquĂni, vĂĄ lĂĄ fora e mostre a maravilha que vocĂȘ Ă©. E nĂŁo deixei nenhum pequeno detalhe fazer com que vocĂȘ duvide de si mesma, nem por um segundoâ, escreveu na legenda de uma publicação.
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How do influencers get GREAT BOOTIE PHOTOS? But also â SOCIAL MEDIA is NOT REAL. Seriously. Itâs not. Look how much my bumbum transforms just by how Iâm standing. PLUS Iâm in SHADOW, which hides my cellulite and stretchmarks. And Iâm filming on a LOW RES FRONT CAM, which does the same. Hereâs how I did it. THE BIKINI: You usually see this pose in TRAVEL SNAPS, with a tanned beach bum framed against a blue sky. Sometimes thereâs a guyâs hand reaching up. HOW: Bikini high for longer leg lines; step my feet apart; pop my hips back; arms overhead so waist looks longer; and bam take photo. It looks crazy from the side though đâ€ïž. THE WORKOUT WEAR: Bonus points for light coloured leggings and/or bum rusching, which adds to this. HOW: Face away from camera, legs in a line. Rotate over one shoulder. Squeeze back bum cheek. Arch hips back. Squeeze core. Arms overhead for long waist. Bam! Take photo. So there you go. Look, if you want to run around taking all the bumbum photos and rocking all the angles, go for it. But more importantly, remember this: SOCIAL MEDIA is not REAL. Itâs POSED. FILTERED. PERFECTED. Especially with aesthetic photos. So donât compare yourself. Donât be hard on yourself. Youâre doing great â no bootie pose required x . Also top is @womensbestwear @womensbest.me . #instagramvsreality #socialmediavsreality #fitspo #bodyconfidence #selflove #posing
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Same girl. Same day. SAME WORTH. But we donât see both these types of photos to the same extent on social media. The online world is filtered. Here, TikTok, Twitter, wherever. Itâs a series of magic moments and perfect poses that have been reshot and filtered and adjusted until they embody the ideal. This doesnât just go for the stream of âidealâ bodies. It goes for incredibly romantic adventures or cool crafts or perfect parenting moments. All of these, all of whatâs on display, is so often part of someone elseâs HIGHLIGHT REEL. And itâs easy to feel our REAL doesnât quite measure up. Only your REAL is magnificent. Itâs flawed and complex and complicated, but itâs also HUMAN. Itâs also authentic and raw and YOU. And that? That is far more incredible than anything social media could ever hope to display. . . #selflove #iweigh #whstrong #instagramvsreality #bodyconfidence #posing #toldya
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Insta vs Reality / or why PERFECTION is DANGEROUS. Perfection puts a wall up between us and others. It does. Whether itâs in POSING FOR PHOTOS or LIVING OUR LIVES. Especially for us PEOPLE PLEASERS. Because it shows only our sparkly bits. Our STAGED bits. Our MASKS that we wear when we are quietly afraid no one will love us otherwise. It proves we are good little girls. Only hereâs the thing: PERFECTION builds that barrier. Because ultimately, itâs only a half truth. A brief moment. A STAGED PHOTO. And us humans, we are more complex than that. We are raw and clumsy with belly laughs and cellulite and fears and dreams so fragile we dare only to whisper them into existence. So today, show someone your imperfect. Show them your real. Let them see you for all the splendour and glory you are, and let YOURSELF be SEEN for the same. Whether itâs simply rocking your WIGGLES at the BEACH or opening up about your HOPES. Show YOU. As someone who has only started embracing VULNERABILITY in her 30s, trust me on this: Itâs so much more incredible than perfection could ever hope to be. Itâs human. Itâs wonderful. Itâs real. x Photos @chiclebelle gabrielleph as always #selflove #feminist #selfacceptance #inspiringquotes #positivequotes #iweigh #mentalhealth
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CELLULITE is so darn COMMON. So WEAR that swimsuit. Rock that bikini. Get out there and roll with the full wonder of all that you are. And donât let any little lumpbumps make you second guess for a single minute. Over 80 percent of women have cellulite. Thatâs a HUGE number â and yet we are told itâs bad and wrong and subtly, so subtly, taught that it is shameful. Some of us learn these lessons as little girls. Yesterday I shared a YouTube video that wants to teach exactly that. It featured a slight child deciding she was TOO BIG, so she exercised and weighed herself and ate carrots and weighed herself and climbed stairs and weighed herself. Some of us learn these lessons as adults, when brands try to SELL TO US and make money from SHAME. From creating flaws that donât exist, or from turning incredibly common bits of bodies into things that must be fixed. Wherever you learned these lessons, know that they are wrong. Your cellulite is NOT an error. A glitch in perfection. Itâs incredible. Unique. A stamp mark of who you are. A sign that your body is functioning and alive and doing the same thing as over 80% of other women. So today, babygirl, get out there and rock your cellulite. Celebrate your dips and rolls. Embrace your curves or your straights. And most of all, do whatever makes you SMILE. Because you are a GLORIOUS CELEBRATION. A song of limbs and heart and soul. Donât you forget it. Bikini @heiress_swimwear #selflove #bodyacceptance #normalizenormalbodies #cellulite #strengthmarks
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Insta vs reality â or LETS talk LIGHTING. Because thatâs the main difference in these photos. In one, my bum is deliberately angled into the shadows. The softer light hides my cellulite and smooths most of my stretchmarks. Itâs flattering. In the other, Iâm just casually squatting (lol) beside the mirror. My hips and thighs are in the sunlight. Lumps and bumps are on show. There are a few posing differences (core tight, hips popped back, squeeeezzzinnnggg), but mostly this pic is about LIGHT working its magic. When I worked in magazines, we shot at sunrise or sunset. On most sets, there were people holding SUN DIFFUSERS and REFLECTORS to help create the perfect FLATTERING balance of shadow and light. The same thing happens on SOCIAL MEDIA, just in a different form. Most insta-models know EXACTLY how to POSE and work their angles. And they know LIGHTING too. Like how SIDE LIGHT, diffused from a window, is the most flattering for abs but usually pretty harsh on the face. Itâs why youâll often see a phone covering the face. Or how SHADOWS can gently eliminate certain LUMPS and BUMPS. All that is fine with me, honestly. Itâs art and photography, and there is no shame in wanting to look FIERCE. But I also want to remind you about how SO MUCH on here is FILTERED. POSED. PERFECTED. And how you shouldnât EVER COMPARE YOURSELF to a STRANGER on the internet. Because cowgirl, youâre just seeing their snapshots taken in PERFECT LIGHT. Your reality is a whole lot more varied, diverse, and human than that. Itâs more perfectly imperfect. Real. Raw. And thatâs a wonderful thing indeed. You got this. x #instavsreality #womenirl #womenshealth #popsugarfitness #instagramvsreality #posingtips #cellulite #strengthmarks
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