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junehan · 2 years

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word dump , vi mental breakdown (?)

sometimes, vi still hears the haunting whispers of vander like lingering regrets.

they come to her frequently; when she lets herself relax for a second too long or when she finds herself laughing too hard, but most usually when the moon is out and the others are sleep, only her alive at the dead of night.

they voice the fears she's unwilling to confront. they pile, evidently because the first few times she could tolerate, simply pushing it to the depths of her mind, but they stack and stack and stack, and she finds herself often overwhelmed. she's scared and she's sorry, of a past she'll never reclaim and forced to carry a burden of a heated moment. sometimes vi falls into a spiral of self pity; "what did i do to deserve this?" she thinks at her worst moments.

vander's voice always responds even when she doesn't. "they still need you, vi." he'll say.

but she's tired and she's so over it. her issues have escalated beyond her control and now there's more at stake then her familial issues. lives, hundreds of thousands of them, countless faces, innocent faces, a look that had never fit quite right on her own. one that she had failed to save.

had she been the cause, perhaps the catalyst?

vi curls up into herself, withdrawing. her room illuminates with the glow of the stars outside, rolling ebony skies concealing distant constellations. even when she had been trapped in a prison cell for years, vi had never felt so alone inside a room before, even with the constant whispers of a deceased loved one.

"they still need you."

vi falls alseep, a mantra repeating like death's call in her ears.

#it's almost two in the morning but :( poor vi #i always see ppl blame vi for her explosion @ jinx but like ... she just saw three of her closest ppl die #vi #arcane #word dump #just wanted to post smth tbh LOLL

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