#he'll get zero'd one day... and he doesn't care. Keeps saying he knows he won't live past 30 ;_; | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

kimarisgundam · 1 year

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Ok, seriously what the frig 😐

How did half the party end up with cyber psychosis after just 1 session 😐

Things were going so well, like we finally found our niche in Night City. Everyone was happy (I use the word "happy" loosely. At least no one was miserable) and we were starting to fully trust each other

Then it happened so fast... Exec made the wrong choice and we all watched our NPC friend get betrayed by Arasaka and executed 😐

I thought that after some time passes, the emotional wounds dealt to our characters would fade... but it amplified instead 😭

And I swear my Netrunner is the next one to get Humanity Loss from emotional stress if this keeps up. I'm grappling with so much guilt 😭

I seriously thought Arasaka was the pinnacle of honour and justice in Night City ok?!

This Red campaign was my first exposure to Cyberpunk 😭! I based my entire understanding of the world on my one introductory 1 on 1 RP session with our DM

I got indoctrinated I think?? I was devoted to my duty, I really believed that my Netrunner was above everyone else in Night City because I had "honour and duty", I wasn't "dirt" like everyone else here 😭

The moment my sponsor gave me an order (our DM would private message me), I would help facilitate the hit no matter what... I backstabbed my own party members and even indirectly caused the death of some of their old characters 😭

I still don't think everyone in Arasaka is bad... things aren't that black and white... but I'm slowly realising that Arasaka isn't any better than everyone else living in this city ;_;

I'm trying so hard to protect everyone. I was wrong about everything. The characters in my party are my Netrunner's first real friends 😭. I have powerful connections in corps and NCPD, but if they keep pissing off the wrong people one day I will be powerless to help them...

And can our Rockerboy in particular stop pissing my sponsor/dad off?? Like I know ok?? Dad's doing shady stuff that's violating at least 3 kinds of human rights. But look at who you're up against. You're just a glorified rockerstar. You think you can stand up to Arasaka and Militech?

Like this isn't even YOUR problem. You have beef with Militech cos they killed your family, I can understand that. But can you don't stick your big gonk butt into Arasaka's stuff?? It's none of your business, stay in your lane

Please don't make my dad order a hit on you?? I don't know what I'll do if I'm ordered to go after you again 😭

FRIG. If the rest of my party finds out how deep my Netrunner's connection to Arasaka really is they'll be so mad at me 😭

I'm so scared that my friend/her Exec will rat me out to them one day 😭

#personal #Justice takes the side of those with power #I don't know why our party's Rockerboy can't understand that.Me and my Netrunner are so stressed out cos he's digging his own grave #he keeps offending powerful people...#I can't keep bailing him out... one day my secret connections to corpos won't be enough #he'll get zero'd one day... and he doesn't care. Keeps saying he knows he won't live past 30 ;_;#I don't want to watch my first real choom in this hellhole city get killed ;_;#cyberpunk red

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