ZERO………….YOUR TAGS ON MY WYLL ASK………….IM IN THE FETAL POSITION I HAD TO TAKE DEEP BREATHS I HAD O PUT MY PHONE FUCKING DOWN I CANT I CANT I CANT OHHHH MY GODDDDDDDD OH MU GOD HOW DARE YOU???? HOW DARE HIM???? ‘he’ll carve a sweet thing out of you yet’??!?????!??!!??!!??!!?!!?!??!???????????????????? IM HOWLING LIKE A BEAST

grips you so tight by the shoulder.

there is No One in this world who is more fitting for a wretched, terrible, unloveable reader than wyll ravengard. he's not a monster hunter for nothing - but he's even better at taming than he is hunting. he takes no joy from killing. he tells you as much when you ask him. it's not pleasurable to take life, but he's good with animals. good with taming. he has such a steady hand, such a demeanor. most people want to listen to him naturally

you don't though, of course. it bothers him at first - but only at first. only when he takes a minute and realizes that you try so very hard to keep up a facade he saw through weeks ago. and you hate him especially because he's so heroic don't you? that line is so paper thin. you hate what he represents, what he could be to you. you've always hated people who think they can save you.

(who can? when you can't even save yourself? people have tried and they give up. they fail. you have sharp teeth and you bite just like a mean dog. and people don't take mean dogs in just to love them.

do they?)

so you're the way you always are with wyll. you're so awful. you're contrarian and harsh and say all the wrong things. and wyll will fight with you. he'll even reprimand you (though he's careful to never raise his voice). but he never backs away from you. never gives up, never stops being the blade.

he sees you at the worst of yourself but it's unfailing. uncanny. he's wyll and he's there and he'll push back on you but he'll never leave. he never leaves. you'll thrash against the grip so tight, foam at the mouth, push him away but he never leaves.

and eventually - eventually, even you count on him not leaving. you start to need him. to soften the blows of your own break downs because you always scratch yourself when you get like that. wyll lets himself be scratched. he takes it all and loves you deep and he doesn't fix you but he makes you think you can. convinces you of it just by being, by holding, by touching.

you can be unloveable. you can be feral. you can be so ugly in how horrible you are and wyll will love you. and you will want so desperately to love him when you reach your breaking point you'll fall into him helplessly.

just like he always knew you could

oh god I tried in every way to reblog the newest godmaker chapter and leave some nice tags, but tumblr just doesn't let me ;u; so I guess I'll send this message instead bc I have to let you know that you put out a hit on me in the form of this chapter.

there's something so magnetic about getou in this fic, how is it that he barely appears but it makes me crazy when he does?? you're sooo good at writing him it's insane!! but that doesn't mean I'm not totally here for readers and gojo's relationship. I just love toxic relationships sooo much and the way they're so possessive of each other?? that's the good shit. bc toxic doesn't always have to mean bad I guess? idk they kinda remind me of this quote from one of my favorite books, deathless

"A marriage is a private thing. It has its own wild laws, and secret histories, and savage acts, and what passes between married people is incomprehensible to outsiders. We look terrible to you, and severe, and you see our blood flying, but what we carry between us is hard-won, and we made it just as we wished it to be, just the color, just the shape."

idk if this makes sense and idk where this story is going to go but yeah, her and gojo remind me of this.

and then we get to this part after the wedding and??? ummm??? why did I relate a little too much with reader how she feels about intimacy and pleasure?? I had to take several breaks reading this part.

gojo making her vow to put megumi and tsumiki first had me in awe!! I thought she was gonna weasel her way out again but nope, this really happened. I sure hope nothing is going to come of it :'))) even if she says there is no future where she would have to choose, I have a theory that at some point something might happen that is not supposed to in the version of the future she has created and she's going to freak. but that's just my theory!!

about songs, I can also be really meticulous about my playlists, and I think every you every me from placebo is a super fitting song for reader and gojo

"All alone in space and time, there's nothing here but what here's mine

Something borrowed, something blue

Every me and every you"

I'm super excited for the next parts, thanks so much for writing this cielo!!

first of all tumblr the worst especially for big huge chapters like the previous ones....i had a feeling it would crash on ppl 💔 but gosh THANK YOU for coming to my ask box and leaving your thoughts anyways?? for taking the time to do that?? it is so greatly appreciated 💕

getou is my siren song. i can't write him into any fics he WILL take the spotlight it is so horrible of him. he belongs isolated in his own fics. honestly i could write extensively ab godmaker!reader and getou and their relationship. but its not ab them!!

okay also i have indeed read deathless but it was awhile ago so i don't remember that particular quote but it certainly fits! Marriage is so. strange indeed. i have many thoughts on it. but that is exactly what i was sorta going for with gojo and the reader! i think they certainly are the only two that can understand each other in this way. i don't think anyone else in the world could.

and listen FELT. intimacy is HARD. idk. i really wanted this reader to Not be in control for once. or not feel in control for once. i wanted to strip this reader a little. and intimacy tends to do that! intimacy is certainly something to Wrestle With.

i cannot speak to your theory much without revealing anything! i will say. i think gojo's interlude will reveal a touch more about what he's been up to. what he thinks. i will not say anything else!! 🤐

also!! this song!!! gosh the lyrics are SOOOO fitting for them. absolutely the idea of like...this is already so bad. you can't change this now. also i think with those two, there was never much of a chance at normalcy. those lyrics you highlighted especially!! it just fits so well!! thank you for this song rec friend!!

i'm excited to share the next parts!! thank you so so much again for reading and taking the time to come share your thoughts!! it means a lot to me!! 💕

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Hello, what is the name you were given at birth? Hi there, it was Robyn. Would people consider you more immature or mature? Ask people. Name the closest yellow object to you; is it something eatible? I don’t like the color yellow so I don’t think I have anything yellow in my room at all. Would you say most of your friends are older/younger than you? They all used to be the same age as me (since we were classmates in high school), but my group of friends have changed and it’s mostly balanced. I have a fair share of friends who were born in 1999 and 2000, but I’ve also made upperclassmen friends over the last few months. If you have a significant other, do you get jealous of people a lot? Maybe not jealous but insecure, but I won’t deny that those two are very closely tied. When Gab is with other people, I always get insecure and worried that I can’t offer her anything better. I guess it all stems from a desire to want to be the best person I can be for her, which is why I’m always convinced that those people will always be better than me–in jokes, making her laugh, giving her a good time, giving her better conversation, etc.

When was the last time you went to Target? Who did you go with anyway? I’ve never stepped foot inside a Target. Dont you hate it when people don’t text you back at all? Not really. It’s only a huge bother when I get ignored during an urgent matter. What’s the most money a boyfriend or girlfriend has spent on you? I’m not sure. It’s definitely not much, since I always tell her that I hate being spent on, and will feel bad if she even treats me to something at all. The biggest gift I’ve received from her was probably bouquets? which would be around 600-700 pesos each. I’m perfectly happy with that.

What does your 8ith text message say? Phone doesn’t work like that. Do you ever take pictures with family members around the holidays? Pushed to, yes. Filipino families love their selfies and group photos. What would you do if you found out you/your girlfriend was pregnant? Devastated not because she’s pregnant, but because that would only mean she was with a man and did things with that man, either of which I would have never seen happening ever.  Are you physically attached to your cellphone? You can say that, I guess. I’m always holding on to it. Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? Nope. Who was your best friend in the fifth grade? Angela, Marielle, Cielo, Maryrose, and Aubrey. Do you like fried food? If so, what? I love all the fried food. Corndogs. Do you wear short shorts & tanktops in the summer? Sure, but not so much outside like to school. Would you ever date your best friend of the opposite sex? I don’t have a boy best friend. Would you beat up anyone at the moment, if you absolutely had the chance? If you gave me an animal abuser or a child molester or a rapist and told me I can do absolutely anything I want with them then perhaps. Have you ever been obsessed with someone? That was me with Beyoncé when I was 10. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had in your lifetime? Just one. What's your best friend’s name? How long have you been best friends? I’ve been best friends with Angela for 13 years; Gabie for 6 years. When was the last time you rode a horse, if you've ever ridden one? Years ago. I’m polar opposites with Gab, who goes horseback riding frequently. Is your mother a stay-at-home mother or does she work somewhere? She works at a 5-star hotel in the next city. Do you know anyone who is overly flirty with people? Boy or girl? Yup. Girls. Have you ever had sex before? Yes. Is green your favorite color? I hate green. Have you ever thought you were gonna die? I feel that at least ten times a month. Are you someone who normally eats a full breakfast every single morning? Only when my dad is here. He makes sure I have something to eat every few hours. Now that he’s in Australia for work, I’m back to skipping breakfast. What's your favorite meal of the day? I don’t look forward to any in particular. I always eat out of schedule as it is. What fast food place, in your opinion, has the best french fries? Jollibee. Don't you just love to cuddle? Sure, if I’m in the mood for it. Are you constantly checking your phone to see if you have a new text? Yes, even if my phone vibrates anyway. Where would people most likely find you out on the weekends? At home. Do you have a favorite between your mom and dad? My dad. Do you have any siblings you're embarassed of being related to? Nooooooo. There’s an uncle that I’m embarrassed of enough that I’ve informally disowned him as an uncle, but definitely not my siblings. Do you like to get drunk a lot? I mean kinda. I feel better and I get insanely better at socializing. Do you have any sisters? If so, how many? One. What if the last person you spoke to told you they wanted to marry you? We’d both start crying probably seeing as we’re both extremely emotional people. Who was the last person you kissed and why did you kiss this person? My girlfriend. Because she was my girlfriend and she was saying goodbye. If the last person you texted died, how would you feel? I hate this question. Do you ever wish you could read people’s minds? Yes. Some are difficult to read. Do you have friends you can joke around or are they all serious? I always choose friends that I can hang with for a good time. What's your favorite thing to eat for lunch? I don’t really have a favorite meal set for lunch; I just get whatever’s good at the moment, or whatever I’m craving. What subject do you like better: science or social studies? I love both. Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a K? Kristen Stewart I wish. HAHAHAHA no I haven’t.