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hideyseek · 2 years

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11.21.2022

ok SO nano uh. continues. occasionally. i definitely got distracted by goncharov!posting earlier today and it was genuinely weird mentally to sit down and be coming up with meta that had like, an actual fucking canon associated with it lol.

but!!!! today i tried writing on my phone (by which i mean. i took a nap after work, woke up thinking about this fic, and bashed out my wordcount for the day) and it went well! i think this is my favorite and most hm... grounded description of a character having a panic attack that i have ever written. i am VERY pleased with it. i am giving haiji SO MUCH trauma i simply. pour it on him gently and lovingly! sorry man.

but oh god! it's almost done! i've decided that actually for my brain i would rather hit the wordcount all in new draft material (limiting by "stage" of writing) rather than limiting by how much of the fic i touch on (and moving to revising some previous draft material that goes in this first arc). so today's bit is from post-aotake return, post-party, so a few scenes past where i think the first arc "ends" (or like, idk, where maybe some of the things opened in the first arc are resolved). anyway i am simply keeping in mind good advice i got from dorian which boils down to: well if you simply gave it some time and then reread it, you WOULD have the reader experience! astutely put and yeah i have already forgotten what i wrote earlier this month so, very effective as a reminder for me

but today i feel FINE and even OPTIMISTIC and HOPEFUL about the writing i did! this is WILD. i will say i am once again writing this post a few hours after the writing actually happened and that sure does seem to make a big difference to how i mentally perceive what i did

wow i love to observe patterns.

#gahhhh im not SLEEPY #but i need to go to work at 7:30 bc otherwise i have no idea what is hAPPENING before i go directly into my stupid 8am meeting #oh and update: my therapist WAS very interested in the fact that i now write characters' emotional experiences as much more embodied #personally i would love to be able to do the other way still so i can like. switch back and forth #but like idk. that was a really cool realization for me #text to life connection! etc #hidey does nano 2022

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euphor1a · 2 years

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heyyyy, ive been meaning to ask you this but idk why i didn't until now🙃, lol anw since you posted that anon hour thingie im just gonna ask: which kpop idol is *actually* your type?? fr who would you date irl👁️👄👁️

your stan list is hefty(lol i check your carrd randomly sometimes it's so pretty)so im v curious

Ahhhh interesting question 😳!! I have never really thought about it, but y’know, sometimes (more than sometimes tbh) I’m watching a video and someone does something and internally I’m just going “hmm I think I’d actually date this guy” or “damn I think I’m in love is he maybe looking for a wife or something” 🧍🏽‍♀️

Skshksjk anyway, I made a whole ass list. Because yes. You might find it suprising at some points but not really... idk 🤡

bts: hobi (... he’s so hubby material it huRTS 😭! have you ever noticed how fucking caring and understanding this man is? and the way he’s so passionate? he’s so attractive 😔 also his vibe is top tier I LOVE IT SM GAHHHH >.< it’s like an instant mood lifter) + jk (pretty sure no one is surprised that i’m picking him, but 🥺 he’s so boyfriend shaped 🥺, and god, i can’t explain in short but i adore everything about him to bits ☹️, you can go through my tag for him and see the embarrassing ass posts i make about him if you wanna know more. PLS DON’T ACTUALLY, DO YOURSELF A FAVOR)

txt: binnie (i’m aware that i rarely scream about him so let me just— OH MY GOD CHOI SOOBIN IS LITERALLY MY IDEAL TYPE 😭?? i love quiet and shy people who are actually unhinged once they get comfortable, because guess what i’m exactly the same 🤠! we can be introverted clowns together and i’d love him so bad 🤧! i’ll probably be whiny and pouty all the time and i just know that he’s the type of boyfriend who pouts back and then kisses you. KICKING MY FEET WHY DID I IMAGINE THAT FUCJNSSS)

svt: gyu (the male-wife agenda is real you guys 😔!!! he’s a soft giant™ type of guy :( also his vibe??? idk bro something about enfjs 🥲, i feel so drawn to whatever he does. and he’s really fucking tall and buff, which are such a BONUS, because for some reason i really like the thought of being carried around in the house, especially if i’m tired or sleepy. so yeah. would climb 10/10. cuddles for life. size kink go brrrr. big boobs so i can hide from all the scary things in his chest. also i love him so very much and it hurts. ok that is enough simping) + dino (ah... love me a guy who can make me laugh to the point i feel like i’m gonna die because i haven’t breathed in the past 40 seconds. another enfj too :') i just know i’d be the happiest girl on earth with him. he’s so attractive??? and his personality??? and when he laughs???? and he’s so honest about how he feels :( *falls in love and breaks a limb*) + cheol (look me in the eye and tell me that he isn’t TOP TIER HUSBAND MATERIAL. i. dare. you. if he cares about you, you’re gonna be his top priority and i stan that shit so hard. he actually makes me feel like a 14 y/o who has developed a crush on someone for the first time 😭)

enha: park jongseong (🛐🛐🛐 he regularly makes my expectations for a partner reach new heights and i’m not exactly a fan of it. LIKE??? DUDE DON’T DO THAT I’M GONNA DIE SINGLE🧍🏽‍♀️??? ugh god he’s so :((( totally the type to hug you from the back as a surprise and then kiss any bare skin he can find in your shoulder/neck area. also, the type to bury his nose there and inhale your scent because he associates you with home— NOW TELL ME WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF 😭😭😭😭)

&team: kei (the irl disney prince i deserve!!! 🥺 throughout &audition he tightened his grip around my heart so badly... i legit get heart flutters whenever he appears on screen. he’s so exceptionally thoughtful and caring 😭, and his energy is so intoxicating! i love it, it makes me smile all the time! can’t wait for his debut 🥺)

skz: chan (do i really need to explain?? this man makes me feel such a wide range of emotions. a big heart with a big... nose and so goddamn boyfriend??? i love him. and ngl, it feels like he walked straight out of a romance webtoon. chan is very supportive of everyone too, it’s kinda crazy? i adore him 😞)

atz: yunho (this guy... i’d commit arson for him. he’s my honeybun, sugarplum, cuppycake, gumdrop etc. etc. you get it 🥺🤧😭!! i love him so much fuck i know i’m repeating the same shit over and over for everyone but yunho is so precious oh my god 😭!! soft boyfie :(( my heart aches for him, and!! yes i do the cooking, yes i do the cleaning 🤠👏🏼 *is that enough for a ring?*)

— “ anon hour ☁️ ” + send me an ask!

#📬; aleyna’s mailbox #🍶; ask games!#nonnie 🕊️#holy shit. can you tell that i need therapy 💀#and omg i’m so glad you think my carrd is pretty 🥺 it took me literal years to make it hdgjsdh #also i’m sorry for... whatever this is. you probably just wanted the names 🤡#i actually spent nearly an hour writing this please k*ll me #aleyna please stop embarrassing yourself infront of internet strangers challenge

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kennyswifu-blog · 5 years

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Corpse Park chapter 1

Craig: oh IM SORRY! It’s not MY FAULT you guys are PIECES OF SHi-

Thomas; THATS IT MR. YOU ARE GROUNDED!

Craig: CANT DO THAT! I’m 18 THOMAS im not your kid! I don’t even LOOK LIKE YOU AND MOM! I’m probably adopted!

Thomas: IF YOUR NOT OUR OUR KID THEN GET OUUT!

Craig: whatever, I’m seriously tired of this

Tweeks POV

I’m In so much trouble! My parents are going to find out AND KILL ME GAHHHH, TOO MUCH PRESSURE x<

Tweek: if they find out me and Craig..... and Clyde, Token, Kenny, Kyle, Stan, and cartman, that we drank last night?! Oh no- AH GAGGGG

Tweek parents: tweek, sweetie, come down stairs

Tweet: GAH THEY KNOW-

tweeks mom: know what?

Tweek: that- um I’m gay! And that I love them a lot

Tweeks mom: oh yes we know that.

Tweek then starts to calm down after awhile and then soon got a call by Craig.

Craig: hey- I was kicked out of my h-house a-and- ca-can I c-c-come o-over?

Tweek: Craig! Are you ok AHHH

Craig: y-y-yes h-h-hone-ey.....

Tweak: ok Craig...... are you sure?

Craig: y-YES (not a yell though like a crying loud sounds?¿?)

Tweak: ok- and let me ask- ok?

Craig: ok- thanks H-Honey <3 love you-

Tweak: love you to-

Craig hanged up before hearing tweak. He waits for a response.

Craig POV

I wonder why it’s taking so long for tweak just to ask his parents.... I might as well go to the cabin that we broke cartmans electronics. Hah, memories.... hmmmm... I wonder how he’s been, he never talks to me anymore after-..... what I did...... I wonder if he’ll ever forgive me for what- uh.... mistake I made, it wasn’t even tweaks fault but he gets punished for being my boyfriend....

After Stan moved away to the farm, Kyle has been pretty lonely..... Kyle tried dating him to get them closer but- it made it worse..... Wendy found out and tried kicking his ASS. Of course she failed cause she’s a weak bitch- i mean “lady” well it’s not my fault, she is one. Poor Kyle just wanted Stan to understand he wants to just be “closer” hah just made it rhyme-

*ring*

Message from ❤️tweak❤️. Hey sweetie, for some reason they said no- but we can go and hang out at the abandoned cabin with everyone else?

Craig: I’m already a step ahead of you! Meet you there at 12:20? Or sooner? It’s only 11:59 right now, so do whatever floats your boat, cowboy!

Tweak: gee.... you sound like a dad.... ARE YOU PREGNANT?!? Wait.... AM I PREGNANT!??!???! AHHH THIS IS TO MUCH PRESSURE!!!!!

Craig: Lol, we cant be pregnant! We’re guys...... cya later honey

Tweak: ok.... bye!

Tweaks POV

Craig and I been together since 4th grade. And we’re in high school, it’s a big deal for us! Clyde and Bebe, broke up.... oh token and nikole are doing bad- Kyle and Stan never are going to be “something” Kyle and cartman- lets just say..... cartman will always have a flat heart after it.....

FLASHBACK———>

“Kahl, I must tell you the truth..... I’ve been- UG- I’m in love with you ok!” Kyle had the meanest face expression ever..... “are you fucking serious?! You made Stan HATE ME! And you made everyone think I WAS SOMETHING BAD!!!! AND YOU CALLED MY MOM A BIG FAT BITCH, AND YOU MAKE FUN OF ME FOR BEING A JEW!?! And WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY IS kalh I love you nynynyny, SEROUSLY FUCK YOU!” Cartman froze and let’s just say after that the hospital was needed there at the scene

END OF FLASHBACK————>

I must say, I’m happy Craig isn’t like that- I must say, he’s good to be around...... when you get under his skin...... he’s a real lover.....

Later......

I started sneaking out after my parents died after drinking to much. Not really though just passes out- anyways....

Craig: when will u be here I’m bored X(

Tweak: on my way! Just hold on. I waited till my parent passes out after all that bear.

After awile everyone got their

Clyde: u say we play this game, it takes you to a world of nightmares making your darkest dreams come true...

Token: it sounds fun and might be fake-

Kenny: UNLESS WE TRY IT, token, we won’t know? Anyways is it possible we can die there

Clyde: oh you bet your sweet ass!

Kenny: LIT AND don’t say that.... I know I’m thick but I get it- you guys have fun dying.

Clyde: you not playing pussy?

Kenny: oh I am, I just can’t die.

Clyde: loser, still with that?

Kenny: because it’s true!

Clyde: sure thing partner

Stan: lets just start

Kyle: yea it might be fun to see FATASS CARTMAN SUFFER!

Cartman: shut up ye FUKin a Jew! I’m not fat I’m big boned....

Kyle: whateve-

Stan: OMG SHUT UPPP-

Kenny: why did they come? Who invited these losers?

Token: lets just do this already.

Tweak: oh GAH OH GOD NO?!

Craig: it’s ok honey it’s not real.

Tweak: GAH you sure- IT SEEMS DANGEROUS!!!!

Craig: honey- please?

Tweak: if it works IM BEING YOUR WORSE NIGHTMARE! AHHH

Craig: ok honey.

Clyde: the ritual need blood from all of us. We put it on the door only a minute from 3, then you will see, they night will become decay? Only one will know the right way out, just be quite and don’t shout, survive till 6, with all your sticks and don’t forget the blood.... so collect sticks and put blood on the door ok..... wait decay? Like what? Zombies BLEEHHH.

Craig; your an idiot... lets just do it

They all collected sticks and came back with 6 to open the gate to hell. Tweek almost threw up from fear but overcame it with a hug and kiss from Craig.... after it was done at first nothing happened but were they wrong? Yes, they were. The room turned dark, darker than black, and they got sleepy, maybe to sleepy and woke up 6 days late....

A dark land of fog, nothing here but us... what happened that night and are they in the world?

Find out next episode..... #southpark #horror #risk

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