the way sol's love language is acts of service and jiwan's is physical touch.... hnnhhhhh I just. keep thinking of. how, in the withdrawal of it all. sol has gotten accustomed to how touchy-feely jiwan is and tempering her own expectantions in the midst of all that even thru the feelings she has had for jiwan for SO LONG and. jiwan pretending to forget hurts sol so deeply bc once this line has been breached they cannot just pretend it doesn't exist; and for the first time ever. sol flinches from jiwan's touch. sol, who loves letting jiwan get the first bite from her plate when their food arrives, who loves carrying stuff around for jiwan... for the first time, sol hands her baggage back to jiwan and walks away, exhausted.

and when, apologizing for falling for her best friend, she starts to pull away, sol feels her eyes brimming over and hastily wiping away that tear before jiwan could see. even if she's staring at jiwan's retreating back...