Whatever is going on with Poland is making me want to go back to the ballads

the chronic pain sure is being chronic and painful today!

Genuinely sobbing over how Nikignik describes Marolmar. Weeping if you will

I'm so sick and tired I want to get stoned and forget about everything for a while

Tumblr, seeing I'm almost finished answering an ask: hey what if I ate this

praying that these painkillers hit before my cramps get bad like i'm actually scared

I don't think that I am a native of anything. Doesn't the word incenuate a sense of all knowing? Having knowledge of every side spot and major road? I haven't been anywhere in my eighteen individual sentences except to rehab. I know nothing of the world in my own backyard.

I live through artifical scenes of worlds I can't ever experience. I know more about customs from a thousand years ago and over a million miles away. I can speak of monarchs like I knew them personally but I cannot tell you had to get to my high school if road construction is blocking my way.

Have I made an alien of myself? Is this a cage of my own making? I could try to retrace my footsteps through my past to see how I came to be in this body, but I'm afraid I'll get lost. I drown in my reflection and fling at my belongings. What gives me the right to know anything at all?

auuh

YALL MY STOMACH HURTS SO BAD

Ready. To kill

my only goal for 2024- TO FIND THE NAME OF THAT ONE MOTHER FUCKING SONG I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR FOR NO SHIT 5 YEARS

YEAH U HEARD ME RIGHT

F I V E Y E A R S

IM FUCKING DIEING OVER HEARRRRR

2024 will be my 6th year searching for this song

the agonizing moment when youre trying to look up like. a quote or a phrase or lyric or something. and all that shows up is fucking bible quotes. endless frankly bizarre blog posts about jesus or whatever. bro i just want to know who said these words and if they said any more. not about if god helps you out of the darkness.

Me: oh this fic is great! how long until the next chapter?

The fic: *last updated in 2021*

Me, through tears: great :')

fuck studio bones for not including chuuya’s “no witty commentary” line and dazai’s slow and almost mournful reply. dazai doesn’t jest about his victory or flaunt it in front of nikolai like he does with other villains. he lets him mourn.

dazai knows what it’s like to lose the only person that looked past your violent and cruel exterior and into your true essence. your heart. dazai knows what it’s like to lose the only person that ever understood you. and that’s why he digresses and tells chuuya to leave quietly by his side.