Trigun and Christianity

In lieu of trigun Stampedes choice to make Wolfwood an undertaker instead of a priest (to, well, my disappointment), I thought it might be interesting to look at some of the Christian themes in Trigun, and then also look at why they might have decided to choose for Wolfwood to be a undertaker then a preist, and a potential reason to why Trigun has these Christian themes. Also, btw, this is chock full of manga spoilers so, beware!

To start it off... trigun is actually... pretty heavy on Christian themes. Fuck man, the main character is basically an angel, and in one of the first volumes they literally describe the plants as something divine (although they are later declared to be something humans made... But nevertheless the very clear imagery is there). Also what features very strongly is pacifism and the themes of unconditional love; Vash's refusal to kill coming from believing that going forward, anyone can change, even when he is literally being harmed or attempted to be killed by others. These themes of pacifism and unconditional love are very Christian, and Vash's actions very much centre him as a Jesus-like character. In fact, even the way that he (and knives) was born, a virgin birth, also could be seen as an allusion, as well as the way that he holds a physical form as a human while being more than human- Jesus being considered a 'son of man' while also being the son of God; ie, something in-between, something both divine and human. Knives as well is written in that angelic and divine light, although he is done so in a dark opposite of Vash, with an emphasis on his 'divinity' for imagery as he is obsessed with it. Interestingly, contrast to Knives, Vash, who goes around as a human, is multiple times called a Devil for his reputation, although he is the one that actually is virtuous... This in a way also alludes to him as a Jesus-like figure, as that Jesus was ultimately sought after by the authorities and in some places hated and even driven away by people.

12 disciples

As well, Nightow is pretty blatant that the gung ho guns, of which there are 12, is a allusion to the 12 disciples; hell, Wolfwood calls them straight up disciples when he is at Jeneora Rock. One might argue that then whether that posits Knives as a Jesus figure as that they follow Knives directions, or if one would consider Vash to be the Jesus figure, as the 12 literally seek out, and 'follow' Vash, and of which one of them literally betrays (although, technically, Wolfwoods betrayal goes both ways). However, I don't think that argument is really one that matters, as it's more of the aesthetic of Christianity that Nightow likes in this matter, not the philosophical implications.

As well, as mentioned above, Wolfwood is very Judas-coded; he gets close to Vash, only to inevitably betray him and deliver him up to his fate, while clearly being torn up about it. Vash is not surprised at all when Wolfwood tells him that he was one of the gung ho guns, and you get the sense that he knew about it all along, and knew exactly what he was walking into. Yet he still loves and forgives Wolfwood for all of it. Which... is exactly the same thing that occurs between Judas and Jesus, Jesus willingly going with Judas even though he knew what lay before him.

Wolfwood

As well, quite obviously adding to the heavy Christian themes of trigun, is that Wolfwood calls himself a priest. Although indeed it's part of his front, it's clear Wolfwood in the manga is religious, challenging and calling upon God in response to seeing the Knives born, and his response to the fifth moon incidence where he questions if it was the hand of God (which, actually, is caused by Vash's hand... again alluding to the 'divinity' of Vash and Knives). This clear religious affiliation continues through the series, such as when he is rescuing Vash from Knives, and even praying while he is on the ship with the people that helped vash.

Wolfwood also throughout the series is very clearly is morally wraught with guilt over his choices and sins... Something that's very Catholic/Christian. Hell, the fact that the punisher, the insignia of his murderous profession, is a literal heavy cross that Wolfwood carries with him, is poetic irony; he's literally carrying around the embodiment of his sins and his guilt from his profession and choices, which weighs both heavily on his physical body but also him emotionally. Wolfwood's guilt over his sins and choices comes to its climax when he's about to die when rescuing Vash from Knives, after betraying him; where he questions whether he can be forgiven for what he has done and whether he was wrong, and in response Vash saves him, declaring that he is not wrong; not wrong to go against orders, leaving his vocation of being a murderer behind, in trying to save Vash and moving forward. In declaring Wolfwood that he was not wrong, what Vash (heavily implied divine, Jesus-like character) is declaring is that Wolfwood can be forgiven for his sins, is already forgiven for his betrayal (unconditional love, anyone?), and that Wolfwood can change, that his past doesn't define him, because his future is also a blank ticket.

As well, this is followed up later by Wolfwoods confession to Vash that he hates killing:

The confession and the way he phrases it- seeing all humans as his brethren (although, in this sense he may be speaking tangentially about Livio) is something that also has Christian overtones. (Also, the way that they mention Vash sees the whole of humans as his relatives, also ties into that; except personally I'd argue that's more of a Indigenous view then a Christian, but theres plenty of things that overlap with other theologies and philosophies within the manga that aren't just characteristics of Christianity).

Redemption via acts

There's also a theme of redemption via acts, which both Wolfwood and Vash lean into heavily as a result of guilt from their 'sins', something that is very... Well, again, Christian, especially Catholic. Vash, from being unable to stop Knives and having obliterated July and just his and knives general existence, and Wolfwood from his profession, and so they both struggle with immense feelings of guilt. As a result both are very self-sacrificing; Vash very obviously so throughout the series, and Wolfwood in a quieter way, in choosing to continue to work to protect the orphanage, even though he desperately wants to escape the life he leads and hates killing people. They both don't believe they deserve to be loved because of the weight of their sins, and so they redeem themselves the only way they know how by self-sacrifice; this literally causing Wolfwoods death as he didn't reach our to Vash for help, and is evident in the way Legato looks at Vash at the end and realizes he sees a man that only sees himself as a tool and hates himself. This belief of Vash's that he doesn't deserve love/nice things is something that is also interesting, because he so aggressively pushes the 'blank ticket of the future', ie, unconditional love, while clearly being unable to apply it to himself.

Tldr: the point is, Trigun is very heavily Christian themed, both in aesthetic and philosophy, and the characterization of both Vash and Wolfwood reflect that. The show is rampant with such Christian philosophical themes as unconditional love, sin and guilt, confessions, forgiveness and redemption through self-sacrifice; for aesthetic ones, well, literal 'angels' as main characters, Wolfwood being a priest and carrying a cross, the 12 gung ho guns as 12 disciples.

Wolfwood as an Undertaker

Since Trigun is so heavily Christian themed, it makes it... well, a bit of a strange choice to pull the fact that Wolfwood is a preist out, since him as a preist further emphasizes the moral quandries within the story and the themes of sins/guilt/forgiveness and unconditional love. However, as one other post here on tumblr mentioned, stampede as an iteration of trigun is more directed towards a more modern and Japanese audience, some of which can be seen with the revamp of the character designs to make them more relatable, and I think they mentioned some specific character traits with Meryl. This re-vamping, especially one specifically for a Japanese audience might explain why Wolfwood becomes a undertaker instead of being a Christian priest. Nightow in the back panels in the manga is clearly is very enthralled with American culture- and his knowledge and love of the American genres shows pretty strongly in the themes and the setting for Trigun. In fact, the 1998 anime was better recieved in the west then in Japan, and a possible likelihood for it's higher popularity within the Americas is going to be directly because of the western audience being more familiar with the Western genre, as well as specifically, the Christian themes within the show (since western countries cultures are Christian based, even if one wasn't raised religious). As well, compared to the other typical gunslinging space western anime, Cowboy bebop, Trigun contains more Christian themes, which would make it less relatable, and less popular to the Japanese audience (of course there are many other differences in the shows, so I would be reluctant to chalk it up to just the religious themes in trigun- hell, Cowboy Bebop makes some great criticisms of capitalism that is not present in Trigun). Circling back to them revamping the show, if they are trying to make it more relatable to a Japanese audience, then removing more overly American influences, such as one of the characters literally being a Christian priest, would fit that bill quite well.

Trigun and Christianity... Why?

Also, I personally think that Nightow didn't exactly mean to make a story that is really heavily Christian themed. My sneaking suspicion from reading chapter 0, is the Nightow thought that writing a western with a main character gunslinger that is a pacifist would be a fun and interesting prospect, and then when he began to elaborate on it, he began to pull in more western (both cultural and genre wise) themes and aesthetics into the story, resulting in something that is very heavily Christian themed in the end.

EDIT: it's been raised to my attention by the lovely @trigum, that it says in the wikipedia on Nightow that he was raised buddhist and converted to Catholicism, although there is no source for that information. If so, this would, well, very obviously explain why Trigun is so heavy on Christian themes and negates the paragraph above. I'm not giving him enough credit then, my apologies Nightow!

EDIT 2:

Edit 3 (Feb 3): made a somewhat part 2, specifically looking at the phrase the 'bride of Christ'.

I thought "cult" had more than one definition? like, organized manipulation of a group's members VS pre-Christian relatively small-scale faiths, like offshoots of polytheistic religions that focused on 1 deity?? I feel like someone who knows more about this should throw this into the discourse

yeah exactly

That's a very specific sub set of ' religious cults'

There are so many issues regarding religious abuse, especially outside the Christianity circle the majority keep referring from. Like I find it wierd that they push as if that's the only kind that exists and view it from that singular example

Like I could write a book on issues with Islamic organized religions that become too zealous and become abusive, something I've experienced (but you know no one is going to really care if I'm not white and it's not about christianity)

But this game is not really the right place to talk about it, that's how I feel. And I hate the idea of waving around my "religious abuse card" to be taken seriously or even make talk about over a video game thats using aesthetic tropes as superficial as Evangelion

My day started normally. I had a before school art test and got marked absent by my homeroom teacher because she didn't know I'm writing the test. But it's fine my day went on normally.

Then, in Afrikaans class, some popular kids, (M, F, D, K for now) were constantly pulling my attention. M, F (two guys) and K (a girl) kept making kissy and flirty faces at me. I played along a for bit but got bored.

After class a girl who was about to also be in the same LO class as me, told me that F has had a crush on me since Learskool (we were on different Learskools and I do not know him outside of class)

Then LO. Oh LO. My favourite class to hate. I was talking with the girl about the F situation and I mentioned that even, if by some wierd chance it was true, I wouldn't date him. (She also name dropped him when it was supposed to be a secret.) She asked why I wouldn't date hom, and I explained to her that I'm queer. She (and the short racist prick of a boy sitting in front of her who also added himself to the conversation) started an argument with me about how being gay was wrong. Luckily I was backed up by my teacher (who I once vented to about not being a Christian because a bunch of Christians drove me to near suicide but he asked so) and another gay kid.

The argument wrapped up after school and then it was second break.

My best friend, E, started shaking, was in severe pain, and was really cold. So my other friend, A, called over a teacher and we called her mom to come get her. She's okay now.

Then it was art class. I told the teacher why I was late and another friend, M, started freaking out. She feels guilty that she had a panic attack before that happened and couldn't be there to help L. It got sorted though.

Then nothing happened for a few hours.

Then I decided to take a shower (I know, I'm sorry).

I was shaving my pussy (as teenage boys do) and I tried put away the razor for a second then the razor fell on my left ring finger. It bled so much I had to get out of the shower early and call Arlo to bring me a bandaid. I called my mom (who wasn't at home to witness this because she had to pick up a work related package in a city an hour away) and she thought it was silly but got sick in her stomach when I started describing the blood.

Seriously. Why is today so fucking wierd?

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Sending love your way 💕 Take what you need and reply with your choice(s). Then pass it on to 5 more blogs!

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Right now I need 🤗 hug, 😘 forehead smooch and a little 🍿snack.

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Hi there!

Just dropping into say that I LOVE your new theme!!! 😍😍😍

Awww🥰, thank you!

I just needed to adjust my theme to my current obsession with Tommy Shelby and Peaky Blinders ❤️. Oh, how I love this show!

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Hey El! 🥰

Can I ask 23, 31 and 48 for the weird asks?

Hi K, dear! 🥰

Thanks for the ask! And for my answers:

23. how do you feel about chilly weather?

Well, I just have two feelings. One, I want to hide myself with good book/tv show, drinking hot cocoa and being snugly wrapped in the most warm blanket I own. Or second, I want to be silly and enjoy being outside, probably catching snowflakes and just being happy.

31. what type of music keeps you grounded?

I would say any song from Skillet, you can find my two most favourite songs here and here.

48. when did you first try an alcohol beverage?

I don't know if I shoud say that out loud on the internet, but I was around 14 and my family is christian, so as I was babtised, I could go to the ceremony, where we are given piece of bread and a tiny cup of wine (don't know the English term for this thing) and my mom wanted to make me accustomed to the taste of wine before I would be given any.

Omg, this was really wierd but also really fun! The wierd asks can be found here.

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“17” Questions, 17 People

Thanks for tagging me @runnning-outof-time ❤️

Nickname: My classmates used to call me Milena (our chemistry teacher took wrong seating list which he had year before and there was one gir, caled Milena who had same last name as me), which I hated. On the other hand my friends call me El or Ela, hence my nickname here.

Sign: Saggitarius, I believe.

Height: 158 cm / 5’ 2.2’’

Last Thing I Googled: Height conversion (in original search in my language převod výšky) as I don’t know how to convert metric to imperial 😂😅.

Song Stuck in My Head: Someone you loved by Lewis Capaldi. I need it in my head for the story I am writing😅.

Number of Followers: 39 😅.

Amount of Sleep: A lot... Like 8 hours a night, because I need this much to just function...

Dream Job: Teacher, teaching history and english (maybe one day after I finish uni...).

Movie/Book that Summarizes You: I would say Sorcery of Thorns by Margaret Rogerson as the main character has really great relationship with magic books.

Favorite Song: Refuge or Anchor both by Skillet.

Favorite Instrument: My favourite instrument... Well, I would say piano, guitar, recorder/fipple flute and ukulele. I can play on most of them though least on piano.

Aesthetic: I don’t know... Maybe something spring like or autumn like...

Favorite Author: I can’t choose one. But if I must, I would say J.R.R. Tolkien or his friend C.S. Lewis.

Random Fun Fact: I don’t know 😅. Maybe I must always leave home with headphones and at least one or two books, even if I won’t have time to read them.

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"M sorry, dove, I can't go riding with ya today," Bonnie said apologetically as he helped groom the horses. "You know Mr. Shelby wants me in the ring as much as possible before the fight," he explained, knowing you were growing impatient with him. You stomped your heel in the dirt so hard, dust flew around you in a cloud and you stormed off dramatically. As you left you shouted over your shoulder, "Fine! If you like it there so much, you can sleep in the boxing ring tonight!" Bonnie dropped his head in his hand. Why did he have to marry a woman so much like his ma? Luckily, he knew how to fix it.

The rejection hurt you, so you went riding alone. You knew he would try and fix it after you came back home, but you still wanted to be alone right now.

„I know, Swen. I need to cool down and take some time to think.“

Swen, your favourite horse, shook his head in understanding, so you climbed into the saddle and rode off.

I will solve this later, was your last thought as you left the gate of your property.

(Thank you for this, I tried to write something, but this is all I could come up with.)

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dear lord

dear Lord it’s Danielle

i have a hard time calling you that due to the patriacy and shit

i struggle with what your institution has turned into but old habits die hard

i find comfort in falling back on the rituals of my childhood

the rosary beads the words that are easy to say to you

if i were to begin again everything would change but nonetheless i begin

hi there, universe my name is Dani

do you have a minute to talk? i know it’s been a while

i want you to know that i see your moves i find you in the smiles of my middle schoolers

when they are given popsicles on a hot playground i know that you are real

i don’t have to be hiking in a national park or surrounded by the first snowfall

or kneeling in a Catholic church to see your majesty

it is in the quiet, almost silent, words of a friend the words that manifest hope

the words that communicate “home” even when home seems impossible

universe, i want to say thank you

thank you for surrounding me with people who want me to know you

with people who remind me of your existence when i don’t feel you

I think the thing I love most about you is how you look different in everyone’s eyes

you aren’t a you but we have no other way to conceptualize you

without comparing you to the act of finding another thing to pour your love into: a $4 bonsai tree at an estate sale

or pulling a squirming fish into the boat as you rock with the Atlantic ocean

or noticing the lashes on the blinking eyes of a women you love

or hearing the sound of a motorcycle whirring as you speed down church st

or writing without stopping writing good, writing bad, writing everything

or listening to the testimonies of other Christian mothers

or walking softly on the earth repeating the words of a childhood prayer

or running till your feet blister letting the pavement clear your mind

or dancing wildly to music you are hearing now for the first time

or being quiet and listening so quiet that your family forgets the sound of your voice

or taking a bubble bath letting the impurities in you seep out your pores

or caring for your body and taking pride in how far you have come

regardless of the ways we see you and even if we see you at all

you are magic and you have so many names

dear goddess it’s me

how could you be anything but a womb to birth the entirety of everything?

dear compassion it’s me

how can i find ways to forgive unconditionally?

dear holy it’s me

please use me as a voice in the darkness to communicate tolerance and kindness

dear peace it’s me

do you see how your people have used your name as an excuse to pick up guns?

dear marvelous it’s me

would you agree if i said that we can all live in you regardless of our belief systems?

dear openness it’s me

can you find a way to end the fundamentalism without destroying everything in your wake?

i continue to wonder how wierd it is that we become what we become

that the world grows in such a way that we stride forward but forget how to be kind

but I am comforted by the idea that kindness is the last ounce of orange sunlight reflecting on the windows of Chicago’s skyscrapers

Seasons

This is been the heardest season of my life. We all know those times in our lives where every single day is a significant struggle. I wanna write more on here because I used to do it a lot as a kid and I don’t know why I stopped. The only thing I can be positive and for sure about is that seasons change. Thankfully, I will never be in the same season of my life fever unless I choose it to be that way. I’ve gotten so far into this season to realize I am unfulfilled. There’s something that’s missing. The sad part is I feel like I’ve gotten it all right, a boyfriend, a school, a direction, a family, and my religion. Yet, at the end of everyday, I’m left feeling empty. Very empty. It’s wierd because my background, I should be very happy. I’m puzzled each and everyday with this sadness, and it’s hard being a Christian feeling like God is an absent mind. I just remind myself that “it’s just a season, it’ll pass”, but how much of this is simply me lying to myself.

In this season, I have become very very doubtful. Of myself, of my loved ones, of my peers and professors. I lack confidence in every aspect of my life, I feel as I’ve lost myself. Sometimes i wish for a stranger to come up to me and show some kind of miraculous gratitude. This of course never happens usually added with a rude comment or strange interaction with this awkward individual.

I’ve also become very internal. I’ve always been very outgoing and courageous as a child, but as a gew up this faded. My anxiety now being adult is at its peak. I constantly have physical signs of stress on my body because of my anxious thoughts. Anxiety is like someone grabbing your heart and twisting it, feeling very scary and painful. It never goes away and almost always seems to get my attention.

I know a lot of people feel this way and I know i’m not the only one to experience this. I know i should seek help as talk to a mentor . I’ve done all that, and this is honestly my last resort. Maybe physically typing out my words will some how purge these crazy emotional thoughts i’m having. Life is hard and not fun a lot of the times . Unfortunately, I feel like some of us are cheated on life and it’s supposed to be fun, and this isn’t what God intended for us but we’re here and it’s how it is.

God isn't real! The most important opinion about your sins is yours

ok this is a lifetime of paranoia from being raised in a strict Christian setting & it's probably never gna fully go away and I honestly don't know how any ppl who have been in this same situation ever fully get over this feeling that they're still going to hell. I feel like a lot of the people who were never religious feel they can just point out the logic of it all and call it a day but they don't realize how sinister this fear can be. I don't even know if it's possible to avoid this fear as a Christian and it's wierd bc no one even talks about just how fucking hard it is to reverse that fear of hell so it feels like the fear is just accepted as a normal part of Christianity. like the very first thing u learn as a kid is fear of hell if u reject god (& in the more fringe Christian beliefs if u simply commit sins or if u don't do enough physical labor or if u don't convert enough ppl or whatever) so just saying god isn't real doesn't combat this fear at all. that's just telling a person with an irrational fear that it's irrational, without addressing the more important part which is the fear, bc no matter how irrational the object may be, as soon as fear is involved it immediately becomes a problem. and lots of ppl know it's irrational so they never mention it bc it's easier and sometimes comforting to just say "well it's not real" than it is to say "it's not real, but my fear is and therefore this is a serious issue" also bc it's embarrassing to think that u can be so greatly affected by these blatant lies and it causes a bunch of self image issues, when u really shouldn't have to feel so embarrassed bc ur literally suffering from it and it's not going to go away just because someone says it's not real. Christianity is basically just a lie that I was conditioned to believe and (more importantly) fear in my formative years so like I may know it's a lie now but I still have that doubt and fear leftover. it's LITERALLY a lie that punishes u for knowing it's a lie (u go to hell if u reject god, every Christian knows this so if u recognize it to be a lie then that means ur going to hell in the eyes of every Christian. it's inescapable if the fear is driven home enough) so like on the one hand Christians are very easy to make fun of but a lot of them are victims to this fear like I was and still am, even now that I've dropped the faith. but even throughout the course of writing this I could picture myself being at the gates of heaven having this exact shit be shown back to me along with every moment of my life from when I stopped believing up to now, and this is constantly permeating everything I do and if u expect someone to function and get over that then u really don't know what it means to be an ex religious person. Christianity takes the most vulnerable ppl and threatens them with hell then offers them ways to avoid it that are historically horrible things like there's a reason Christianity is linked with colonialism and genocide and so many atrocities so closely, and that's bc it is obedience thru fear. some people may feel they have a fear free relationship with the religion but that will just never be the case for me

could you answer all the unusual questions as well?

Totally! 

1.Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? Sound Cloud2.is your room messy or clean? Clean3.what color are your eyes? They switch between green and brown4.do you like your name? why? Yes because I’m named after my great great aunt5.what is your relationship status? Single6.describe your personality in 3 words or less. Cynical, warm, and psychological 7.what color hair do you have? Brown8.what kind of 🚗 do you drive? color? I don’t have a lisence9.where do you shop? Hot Topic mostly 10.how would you describe your style? Punkish I don’t really know I wear black t-shirts, jeans, and boots11.favorite social media account.  tumblr12.what size 🛏️ do you have? Twin13.any siblings? Nope I’m all by myself14.if you can live anywhere in the 🌍 where would it be? why? Live anywhere, I don’t really know: NYC LA Waco15.favorite snapchat filter? That sparkily blue one16.favorite makeup brand(s). Maybelline 17.how many times a week do you 🚿? Everyday18.favorite 📺 show? Doctor Who or Supernatural19.👞 size? Womens 8-9.5 it depends if I’m wearing converse or boots20.how tall are you? 5'621.sandals or sneakers? Sneakers22.do you go to the gym? No cause marching band23.describe your dream date. Filling up the back of a truck with blankets and pillows and then driving out to the middle of nowhere and looking at the stars/\.24.how much 💰 do you have in your wallet at the moment? Probably like $1525.what color socks are you wearing? None26.how many pillows do you 💤 with? 10 or so, I’m a total pillow fiend 27.do you have a job? what do you do? I do my homework sometimes and try to stay okay28.how many friends do you have? By this meaning of friend I’m going to guess the people who don’t drain my social battery so then- 6 I think29.whats the worst thing you have ever done? Probably remembering things people wanted me to forget about them.30.whats your favorite 🕯️ scent? Freon 31.3 favorite boy names. Harvey, Rolland, Toby, Merlyn, Logan32.3 favorite girl names. Mavis, Marceline, Lavonis, Andromeda 33.favorite actor? CHRISTIAN SLATTTTEERRRR AND JACK NICHOLSOOON!34.favorite actress? Nicole Kidman35.who is your celebrity crush? Probably young Christian Slater36.favorite movie? The Silence of the Lambs37.do you read a lot? whats your favorite 📓? Yes, Look for me by Moonlight by Mary Downing Hahn38.💰 or brains? Both are nice but humor is best39.do you have a nickname? what is it? Lil, Laff, Ghost, Flower Child (what my aunt calls me)40.how many times have you been to the 🏥? I’m guessing that mean the city. Uh, I’ve been to the city plenty of times.41.top 10 favorite songs. Out of order- The Shape of my Heart(Sting) Holiday(GreenDay) Dead Girl Walking(don’t fucking judge me the guitar in that song is amazing) This is Gospel(P!ATD) Nights in White Satin(Moody Blues) Surrender(Cheap Trick) Music of The Night(Phantom of the Opera) Right Round(NSP) People are Strange(The Doors) Pet Sematary(The Ramones) Thnks fr the mmrs(Fall out Boy)42.do you take any medications daily? Yes43.what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) Yes44.what is your biggest fear? Never finding happiness and being lonely and also dolls45.how many kids do you want? More than one, its really difficult being and only child46.whats your go to hair style? Side part because my fair is curly as fuck47.what type of 🏠 do you live in? (big, small, etc) Two story48.who is your role model? My grandmother she’s a fucking badass. Like to an extent where I might have to write a huge post about all the cool things she has done49.what was the last compliment you received? The chick at a 7/11 cash register called me cute and it totally made my dat50.what was the last text you sent? "Its fine man”51.how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? My mom told me when I was 12 but I had known for years52.what is your dream 🚗? 1967 Chevy Pickup53.opinion on smoking? I’m asthmatic but I love Tim Sutton and Christian Slater54.do you go to college? Le High School life55.what is your dream job? Writer56.would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? Suburbs57.do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? Duh58.do you have freckles? Due to ☀️ damage? Yep. When you’re in pit for marching band the sun its one side of your body the entire time so I’m half tan half pale. I’m like a fucking neopolitan.59.do you 😁 for pictures? I hate having my picture taken.60.how many pictures do you have on your 📱? 900 something61.have you ever peed in the woods? Nope62.do you still watch cartoons? Yes63.do you prefer 🐔 nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? Mcdonalds64.Favorite dipping sauce? Chickfilas 🍯 Honey Mustered 65.what do you wear to 🛏️? Short cotton shorts and a t-shirt66.have you ever won a spelling 🐝? I suck at spelling67.what are your hobbies? Writing, drawing, being wierd68.can you draw? Yes69.do you play an instrument? Yes, all percussion instruments.70.what was the last concert you saw? U271.tea or coffee? Coffee72.Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? Starbucks73.do you want to get married? Hell yeah74.what is your crush’s first and last initial? I had one for five days, he asked me out, I said yes, and then whatever I had been feeling left as the date began.73.are you going to change your last name when you get married? Hyphenate that shit74.what color looks best on you? Black and red75.do you miss anyone right now? Yeah76.do you 💤 with your 🚪 open or closed? Closed I get the worst night terrors if its open77.do you believe in ghosts? Yeah78.what is your biggest pet peeve? “Libarry” When people spell night as “nite” the dog filter on snapchat79.last person you called` my mom80.favorite 🍨 flavor? Mint Chocolate Chip81.regular oreos or golden oreos? Dafaq is a Golden Oreo?82.🍫 or 🌈 sprinkles? Yes83.what 👕 are you wearing? Black t-shirt and prussian blue sleep-shorts with moons and stars all over with black lace trim84.what is your 📱 background? Pastel pink with a black heart that says UGH85.are you outgoing or shy? Shy86.do you like it when people play with your hair? Depends on who they are 87.do you like your neighbors? I hide from them most of the time88.do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? Night89.have you ever been high? Yes(It wasn’t intentional and I’ll do a story time on it or sooner if I get an ask on it)90.have you ever been drunk? Ye(It wasn’t intentional and I’ll do a story time on it or sooner if I get an ask on it)91.last thing you ate? Pizza92.favorite lyrics right now. And we sang dirges in the dark, the day the music died.93.summer or winter? Summer94.day or night? Night95.dark, milk, or white 🍫? Dark, like the night.96.favorite month? March97.what is your zodiac sign. Pisces 98.who was the last person you 😢 in front of? Besides myself, my mother.

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mobile phone job interview request for details ? Good day, I am making use of for employment, I will have a mobile phone job interview subsequent 7 days with a cellular firm outside my region. They reported it will last forty minutes. Do you know how need to i act in reaction or say to give really nice impact? what need to i put together? they might inquire me technical issue for a situation application engineer ? what concerns need to i expect?

(Ex goal staff and present-day goal employees)I love a second job interview at goal subsequent Tuesday? I i bought an 2nd job interview at goal for a cashier transient the to start with girl she actually like me alot and quite before long i have to wait around right until tuesday for the 2nd job interview for the reason that i love university monday and we are out on tuesday but i actually want to know what is what to expect with the 2nd becoming and i read through that you have two in a person and the identical working day but i did not do you that is a issue or not and my brother spouse operates surrounded by the human resource division do you consider i have a coincidence for the reason that she operates in there oh yeah im sixteen and i agreed to do the job weekends, evenings, and holiday seasons is that apposite or what

a fit, while encouraged, sense overkill to me? can i get away donning only a buttondown/perhaps a tie, at a obligation good. a fit, while encouraged, feels overkill to me

hold a unpaid hand who solely operates a person or two weekends a month, and I love a issue upcoming to her.? She has been operating beside me for about a calendar year and a half. I am close friends beside her. The issue is she has questioned me to about three various outings: her bridal shower, her marriage, and, most just lately, a jewelry social gathering. Now, everytime she's operating near somebody but me, she likes to convey to the tale in the purchase of how I reported I was not capable to appear to her jewelry celebration, nonetheless her close friend saw me at Wal-Mart. She experienced advised me a person-sidedly her close friend saw me at Wal-Mart, but I did not join that actuality to the actuality that it be on the working day of her social gathering. Now she convey to the other individuals she referred to as me out on it. To my face, she convey to me it truly is ok, she understands, and so on...Now she's a very good Christian female, but I do not understand why she's performing this speaking. Not just is it a do the job difficulty, it truly is also a personalized difficulty among us. She have done the identical with other individuals who do the job right here and have not long gone to her outings, but if you try to articulate a little something to her, she acts like every thing is high-quality. So what do I do? Phone her from do the job? Phone her even though we're not at do the job? She might give up if I say aloud anything to her, but I'm weary of this. How do I deal with it ideal? I'm going outrageous if I hold to hear her speaking about me a various time.

I am sixteen and geared up for a trade? I am a girl sixteen and stay in a town wherever you can see the border of mexico. I hold been participating in guitar for a few years and sense I possess what it normally takes to go out in attendance and make my occupation as an artist seem. Am I trapped in lil girl fantasies or need to I get emancipated and run for it.

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I obligation a situation but I with the sole goal hold my Diploma In high-rating University? I am a male who is on the lookout for a task, i am with the sole goal eighteen years who just graduated, I looked for several hours for task out there but i require some enable, does any a person know what task are out there in Dearborn MI, for a high University track record stage, if you do make sure you send out me the speak to

im on the lookout for a obligation at davids bridal, any guidelines from bygone staff ? i actually want to do the job at davids bridal or some variety of bridal store i listened to that its actually obedient to get in right here ,for the reason that you get paid out by the sail you make . a person of my close friends utilised to do the job there and she made deeply of funds even the to start with couple months she was operating. i consider your meant to be eighteen to do the job in attendance while even if you have a operating allow? capably if any one is aware of anything about operating in that and what the employment like stuff me in (:

Occupation Application Question Enable!? okay i'm performing an software and this issue is quite difficult two me! You Say Whatver Is On Your Intellect? Strongly disagree Disagree Concur Strongly agree What need to i put? if i affect sure, it might probably appear improper but what about if i say No? somoene beside knowledge out there enable me make sure you.

Journalist/Editor/Freelance Writers ? What is the change in them? Which a person is greater to grow to be? (Not pay prudent, just in prevalent... Your view) Thank you

Require Job ease? In what variety of key, my firm that i will do the job for, will transport me abroad to do various variety of initiatives...also make sure you convey to me what chief i would have to analyze to do a organization of making or just have my employees to make residences/purchasing purchasing arcade and provide them

on the web charge oppurtunities? I want to do the job from my house ,but my close friends advised me that the on the web task possibilities are faux . Is there any site which pays you for ur do the job with out finding any one rupee as financial commitment?

What is a straightforward Job roadway ? nicely im in my 20's i possess two kids and i am a one mum or dad i acquire no support. i require to know what is a very good paying task/occupation that i can carry out in a relativly shorter volume of time university is hopefully an route but i have an infant so i do not know how before long i was contemplating of beginning pre-req's for the LVN method but i'm fearful to turn by way of the total detail and not elapse the condition exam i can't actually pay for to squander my time any concepts on totally clad occupation paths

why WWW.earn45k.com does not supply a out there task ? i experienced acquired an sms about that site. that they established aside section time task near income of forty five,000/month is it true

$$$ or enthusiasm? which subject? I am owning a really hard time decide on what occupation to go into (I am seventeen). I want to be an English Instructor, (I look at it would be pleasurable) but they dont have significantly funds. i want to be capable to pay for a nice sports activities automobile, condominium and and so on. i realized that lawyers draw from paid out a total lot! but i dont infer i would love the topic, in general. i adore to speak, argue...but i cant picture myself surrounded by a courtroom. i am bewildered. enable me out.

"Not Suitable for Rehire" if you give up on...ahem..not so terrific language? If you give up a task for very good use but on poor terms, on a situation software years afterwards, when they inquire "Are you out there for rehire", what would be the solution?

"why do you want to do the job right here" metropark software interrogate support? i'm making use of for a seasonal task at metropark the clothes store and it asks that on the software. its a tiny room to write so i want to make certain my solution is hasty and snappy you know? i'm not certain what to write in these types of a modest room so if any one could give me counsel on what to write that would be actually terrific!

(In an on the web opportunity software) what is "intermediary situation"? Its in the area wherever on earth you have to give a intermediary or reference to somebody like a trainer, but what is referee situation - what do I have to write near?

**Graphic, but make sure you read through. I entail suggestion, Sexual Harassment at do the job.? There are a lot of places that my firm operates in. Effectively, when I be relatively new right here, they employed a person and he be variety of a fill within just at no matter what location we desired him to go to for the sunshine. Effectively it didnt get extensive for him to get my mobile phone selection from the unexpected emergency ring sheet. So he referred to as a person night time and reported to get alongside one another 4 beverages, I advised him no bc I dont know you. I didnt see him at my location 4 a couple times, and then one working day he appear in my place of work and shut/locked the doorway and put his arms on respectively a person of the chair arm rests that I was sitting down contained by, and advised me I need to want to go out with him, and I reported no bc I dont belief u and he reported...u dont belief me? or u dont belief by yourself? So thats when it actually started out finding wierd, but i blew it poor. Subsequent, I was walking down the corridor and he handed me, and seize my butt, I advised him dont contact me once again. Then, I was on my way to do the job and he recently occurred to be driving upcoming to me, and he be telling me to pull in excess of so he could kiss me and contact me. This is when I started out debating on whether or not or not to relate my manager, which is his manager far too. The remaining straw was when I was house a person darkness and he referred to as my mobile phone as personal and when I answered he reported he was within just the shower and if I could appear "enable" him. So I hung up, and referred to as the mobile phone firm to modify my selection...even though I be performing that, he was calling me again, departure me messages telling me to solution bc he desired to hear my voice in proclaim to "complete." And despatched me a picture concept of the "proof". Effectively I saved the messages and made the decision to depth my manager asap. Effectively I just occurred to start my depart the working day that it occurred so I arranged to wait around a pair of times right until I could go and sit down beside him. By the time was again from vac., a person of the empire advised me...that person bought arrested for violating probabtion and have to do time for a calendar year right before hell get out. Lastly, i didnt love to fret about it, i in no way advised any one to free the embarrassment and drama. Effectively its been a calendar year and i mainly found out that they rehired him! I talked to my manager and advised him every thing and he reported, u need to have advised me early...I already employed him. So I advised the HR person, and he reported okay I will cope with it, he wont do the job at your location. Effectively the identical several hours of daylight he advised me that, he showed up! He walked in my bureau like nithing ever occurred and reported your however right here...? Arent you operating a second or two late? Which I while was an irregular greeting soon after not viewing every other for a total calendar year. Effectively I not right here instantly. I referred to as the HR person, and I reported what happen?! And he reported he was overwritten by the functions person and that he be going to do the job there. He also reported that he cant actually do significantly about allegations a calendar year back considering that I in no way advised any one to originate with and he also has to secure his rights to love a secure task. He reported considering that hes already employed theyre going to give him a different randomness and THEN if he does a little something theyll hearth him. Is what he is expressing correct? I even advised HR that he doesnt have to hearth him, but I why they cant distribute somebody else in excess of right here in its place and retain him away from me. Is that it? Now I just sit and linger for him to "do" a little something...and hope its not far too traumatizing? I know it was a calendar year back and I in no way advised any one but this however doesnt look proper. Is it? Oh! and the HR person reported, moreover hes on parole and he cant pay for a 3rd strike...so im fairly certain he wont do anything! Also, I dont even know what he be arrested for.

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*ten Factors* what are some principle for occupation straight from soaring schoo... ? ok so i just graduated from h.s this calendar year and im viewing how the cutback is performing.. poor with task and all that so.. i want to have a craft in which my task can be secure.. i be organizing on going as a health care assistant but alot of ppl are telling me that they dont pay moral and that its just a squander of time attending higher education for that. But i want to do a little something with my life. is in that any occupations in which you dont hold to go to university for a extensive time or anything? plz enable me.. thankfulness in progress! .Careers?.inevitability give a hand?!? Will any store retain the services of somebody for a task underneath the age of fifteen? I do not aid for what wage, I'm just asking yourself if any one would retain the services of.?

:]] any task at sixteen? Im sixteen and like 4 months and im unwell n weary of operating at taco bell and was contemplating of a different assignment, like the shopping mall so i didnt obligation an unattractive uniform. The shopping mall by me have generic merchants like V.S, charottle rousse, wetseal, Gap, Endlessly 21, pacsun, and no matter what else. Whats a totally clad spot to do the job at? or everywhere else with no food stuff at all haha :] ty.

?CLUELESS?Enable i dont kno what my occupation need to be!How to resolve?any Tips!?!?if u possess a Job that? u like or are in or examined plzz notify me extra or less it any concepts will enable or internet websites, i be contemplating about becoming an Architect or Felony Justice or Tourism or Anthropologist or anything that will aid folks HOW do i decide, can u plzzz let anyone know me some details on Architect or Felony Justice or Tourism or Anthropologist for the reason that i dont kno like the income? how tons higher education years total? what your going to be performing in the discipline? IF u are operating surrounded by people discipline or HAVE A Job that u Genuinely like plzz share it beside me, and convey to me all nearly it thanxxx [Job in] picture, or psychology? I'm down to people two alternatives, for now at minimum. For a even though I've looked-for to go into psychology, for the reason that I just adore to lend a hand, and I comprehend a lot of people's issues, even while I barely know the "official" motives and every thing. In other words, I variety of purely relate to what is on people's minds, and comprehend personally how they have a sensation and what to do about it (what to convey to by yourself). So it truly is a little bit extra of a philosophy than anything, but however. I adore the notion of becoming capable to aid folks, primarily kids, who appear in for anything at adjectives. Not too long ago, having said that, I started out to get into film. I'm within just a form of film course in my establishment, and started out utilizing my more mature brother's courses that he left down when he enlisted to the military just lately, when I fell on Adobe Right after Effects 6.five. An elder version, and I have not the slightest plan how to use it, which sucks considering that adjectives of the tutorials out there nowadays are for the more recent versions which price tag around $one,000 bucks, which is WAY beyong my price range. Than there are other factors to support me boost, which also price tag a considerably high volume of funds. So the vital issue is that if I decide to enter a occupation surrounded by film now, than funds probably shouldn't be anything to prevent me. But I wouldn't possess wished to squander adjectives that funds for a couple university initiatives this calendar year if I'm in no way going to use it once again. In that situation, I would want to pursue a task in psychology. Anyhow, I would appreciate any feedback from you guys to perhaps aid me make a conclusion, so that I can see extra really into equally alternatives, considering that, like I reported, I barely know anything just about both discipline.

--|-- Occupation warning. --|-- All support appreciated, maybe Psychology/Criminology and/or Law enforcement guidelines make sure you? I would like to go and do a scope in Psychology prehaps with criminology or politics mixed, and afterwards sign up for the police. I wondered if any one experienced any organizing or activities in any of this, as I'm a little bit bewildered how to get right here. I have also been advised I am 'wasting' my intelligence. I am intelligent (not to nouns boastful right here.) and I wondered if subsequent this occupation path will bore me? I desperately do not want to commit my purely natural life to learning, and I want to do a little something that will test me, be benificial to society, and will entail operating with populace, as I am quite significantly a folks social gathering. If any one has any concepts or proposal it would be significantly appreciated.

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I felt confused this night just as those many other nights, different memories&thoughts lingering in my head.  I remembered I kept writing them down before college, deperately annoucing the shiny part of this world and love in my small silly blog, and hoping my friends can feel the same. And stopped after the first year in college. I didn't know how painful I was at that time, but enough for me to stop the thing I've been doing for almost 10 years. Shanghai is pretty famous city. But students like me from other parts of China would simply not enjoy it.  Regional discrimination is just extremely seveve. Studying in UM-SJTU Joint Institute with 90% Shanghainese students, you would experience how it feels to be isolated. They would still speak dialect and they know you don't understand it. And then you know you would never experience how it feels group study or team project. And you would be probably mad or more likely sad. Some of us were lucky enough to find each other and comfort each other, however, some of us never had a chance and buried themselves in solitude.  I was lucky enough to make some good friends and get to know some nice professors but then came some sad stuff. During spring break of 2012, I was playing basketball with Haotian and he was killed in an accident the other day(the guy who drove the ferry was drunk and refused to go back to search him after dropping him into the water). My academic writing professor Alex with warm smiles, we were having a nice class on Friday and this is the last time we met. Weeks later news came he committed suicide. Jason Daida, from Umich, taught me how to be a true engineer, gone because of cancer. Masako Iwamoto who completely saved my college life that time, went back to Japan after this. It felt worse hope come and go. Rather never have it. I don't have much with family. I treasure school life. I viewed friends as my siblings and viewed teachers my parents. I put much hope in college when struggling in competitive high school life. And when I got into this so-called top university and thought finally I can have family here. It just failed me. Life is hard...... For almost 4-5 years I was like a walking dead, felt nothing. Though I still believe good thoughts boldly at the bottom of my heart, I stopped trying to share them with people around.  I wanted support from my parents when feeling sad and frustrated but always ended up a terrible quarrel.  Basically, I want them support my idea that people should love others and think good of others and think good of this world, but they just want me to care about myself, be defensive, or use others for own interests.  I cried so much after every quarrel and felt extremely tired. I understood it they work in govenment and they thought this is the way to protect me. But how terrible this world would be if people were like this.  Wierd as it may sound, I played parents to myself and told to myself that don't give up those good thoughts and its ok, its ok, its ok to cry. It was such a mess and I dont know how to describe that scene.  I was so torn that I should know my parents love me and I love them but I just dont feel that way.  And all those turned to strong self-hatred.  Because I am the living counter-example of my beliefs.  Actually I feel scared with my parents, the only time they won't criticize me is when I got first place in exams, not even 2nd place. And for 20 years of my life, study is the only thing they talked to me. My father even tears my book(the count of Monte cristo) just because it's not relevant to school.  I didn't know what to do then to please my parents. What can you do if you already are the first. I wanted to know how it feels to have a hug and to have a "its ok, child"(>< I just cant stand to see such scenes in church).Then I started to hate study, because whether I did good or bad, my parents won't care about me anyway.  And later it went worse.  I started to entertain myself into those dark thoughts hurting myself and carried out some of them. And suicide was on my schedule and I just gave up hope in this life. And then I am here with BCF and Near West family, though still a little different from my dream, it is the best year I have ever been. Also, I know about Jesus and God and know that he preserves my heart in this long journey. Finally I found backups for the first time of my life, love nature(this is how i interpret holy spirit before like the ultimate goodness) and love others is the right thing. Passion, ACW, CG, or even just time with each other made me feel less stressful to live in this world. I grew a lot during time with BCF.  I started to pray so hard every night for each everyone of them.   However, after the excitement becoming a Christian, thoughts and doubts flares up from time to time. Does God love all the people or just his people? If he loves just his people, why we have new-believers like me. If he loves all the people, then why some people dont come to Christ until they die.  Sometimes I felt something but why pastors said we were far from that(like dependent on God). I felt panicked,"am I feeling good about myself?" Paul said to live is Christ and to die is gain. What does it mean to die is a gain?  Am I being tempted to death again? A easier way to escape from this life(also escape his plan for me to live on)? Actually, I don't even want to know the answers. I don't know where those come from. But I love JESUS so much and I want so much my friends in college can feel it too. On Weds, I was thinking of myself failing to invite college friends to our church and felt in a lost. I planned so long but those words never came out when they came.  I felt terrible.  I also felt sad being with BCF(not saying this is not good) because I am not confident with myself.  I can't stand myself being with those pure and loving souls because i feel i am away from it.  Anyway, BCF is just great. "you don't know about real loss until you love something much more than yourself" says Robin Willaims   If possible, I want to interpret these feelings(fear of losing) as a sign that I really love them more than myself.  Except from spiritual world, they pulled me out of the hell in this practical world. And I just want to say thanks to all. And also, destination has been settled and I would not be afraid to wave a little bit with those people alongside in this journey. Really really appreciate it. Don't know what to say now. Maybe next time >< good night. Dont forget to pray!