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duvayknox · 3 years

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DEAR BIG HOMIE

DEAR BIG HOMIE: GOD, mayne. Look heah. Every since U let dem Horsepital peeples MURDER mah DADDY I began 2 wonder bout YOU like U aint even hear mah PRAYERS 2 KEEP Him heah among the LIving.

I C How U are wich is 2 say U aint SHIT god!!!!

All mah LIFE I have heard U say thru Yo PREACHERS and TEACHERS dat Wee shood Pray when we really NEED Sumpen and dat U wood NOT only HEAR butt ANSWER Us.

Butt mebbe its jes MEE cuz U aint hear shit or mebbe U DID butt U ackted like U aint Hear Mee. Ion kno if U was trippin on sumpen mee n Ya Boy LUKE had got 2getha and did when wee whupped dat Nigga FRED ass in da PARK.

Butt Hee brought dat on his self 4 fuckin wit Mah MAMA lil FOOD GARDEN shee been tryna keep goin 4 her TOMATOES/POTATO/CUCUMBERS/SQUASH n whutnot.

And shee tole mee she had been praying too dat U wood keep dem lil bad ass kids of Miss Johnson nem dat live down da Street off her shit. Anyway I did 90 days in LOCK-UP fo dat shit so I had thawt dat was settled.

So I KNO u aint holding dat against Mee?! Lease I ane think so.

Butt ion kno bout U no mo.

Seem like u been on one er since dat day. U ack like wee aint kool no mo.

And up til U fucked round and aint sho up when mah Daddy died u was like THE BIG HOMIE 2 mee. I C how U is.

Jes when a Nigga NEED You'U BAIL.

B4 This nobody cooda tole mee SHIT bout You. Cuz I bleeved in U when nobody else did or wood. Cuz I FUCKED wit U like dat is whut I tole dem Niggaz.

Muthafuckaz thawt I was krazy doe.

Butt I aint give not ONE Fuck bout WHUT nobody THAWT cuz I knew U was REAL widdit.

Now Im da FOO. U done left mee holding da BAG like a STOOPID muthafucka.

I aint never been da type-a-Nigga to be da BAG HOLDER 4 NOBODY. That aint how I gits down.

YET dats ezackly how U set mee up.

Afta all da BRAGGIN I was dooing on U this how U doo mee!! Ya Nigga?!

Now Niggaz astin mee all kinda QUESTIONS now n shit bout YOU n whutnot dat I dont wanna answer. Fo Real.

Ion Blame nobody butt mee cuz I shooda known U wood pull sum shit like this frum dat time I ast U 4-a-Bike way bak when I was a SHAWTY and it never showed up.

So I had 2 STEAL one instead. I shooda KNOWN den U was LAME.

Butt NAH I kept on Thinking and Bleeving in YO shit.

And mostly dat was how wee was raised by mah Mama n Daddy. U dont QUESTION GOD bout whut HEE doo dey said.

Hee always LATE butt RITE ON TIME is da shit er body nem useta say.

So I grew up bleeving dat too. Even tho I neva got dat BIKE.

Then U let dat Big ass country-fed white boy knock mee off mah BIKE I had stolen AND let him take it. Then when I TOOK it bak I got in trubble wit 5-0!!

See how U doo me??!!

They aint bleeve mee butt they bleeved da white boy. Made mee give da shit bak!!!!

I PRAYED n I Prayed bout dat 2 U too.

Butt guess wut?!

U aint give-a-FUCK!!

Butt mah DUMB ass kept rite on fuckin wit U.

Meanwile U was showing mee yo ENTIRE ass doe.

Now mah DADDY Dead n shit.

Cuz despite it all–and even tho Hee KNEW how U was hee STILL kept da FAITH and kept HOPE ALIVE.

The same wit mah MAMA hoo ironickally DIED wile she was on her KNEES Praying to YOU or Yo Son J.C. hoo has also prooved 2 B a AINT SHIT Nigga.

I SWEAR: Im jes really DISAPPOINTED and SICK of BOFF of yall fo real.

I TRUST MONEY mo den either one of yall now.

And the Day a MAN gotta Trust CASH Over GOD is sum sad/sad shit. Butt U got yo name all ova dat shit too doe!!

Yet n still: I tell U wut doe–MONEY has been BETTER to MEE than YOU have.

And I shood not have 2 say dat.

Butt I doo cuz its TRUE.

And whuts even SADDER is MUCH Money I done gave You on SUNDAYS.

And I aint tom bout not jes ONE SUNDAY.

Im tom bout ERRY Sunday I went in mah POCKETS and TITHED major LOOT to Yo ass.

Damn near PAID For Mah SINS on sum CHEERFUL GIVER Shit.

Butt soon as I hit a LICK & a PRAYER and NEED you-U aint NO WHERE 2 B Found!

Mayne U got me FUCKED Up.

Butt U Kno WHUT??!!

Its not jes YOU.

Its ALL you Muthafuckaz dat kall Ya Self Gods.

YOU/ALLAH/JEHOVAH/YAHWEH/MORONI.

Erry Last ONE ov U NEGROES aint shit butt a LAME NAME Full ov GAME hoo always FAT MOUFIN bout SERVING Yall.

Well all yall kan KISS MAH HAPPY NAPPY BLACK ASS 4 never beeing around when a NIGGA really and TRULY Needs Yall the MOST.

Sincerely,

Yo Useta Be Nigga

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duvayknox · 3 years

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A DIABETICK IS A DYING ADDICK

She was hooked on HONEY BUNS and SKITTLES especially the GREEN Ones. And da Fack dat she was a DIABETICK wit da same issues as a DYING ADDICT seemed to ESCAPE Her. This is shit U kno when U have taken a ride on da WHITE HORSE knowwutimean?? The NOD is beautiful-baby. PLUS: U dont give-a-fuck bout the werld WICH is useful to a Man at sertain times in his life. Butt the COST 2 yo VEINS is reconstruction. U ever seen how da City fuck up the highway when they rebuilding the roads/Roads be so fucked up u gotta drive on the shoulder/ditches n shit be erry where. Aight. Well dems yo Veins inside yo body lookin jes like dat cuz they been done COLLAPSED like-a-muthafucka/Let sumbody show u their veins hoo been shootin up so long they done run outta places for the needle .... they arm look like POT HOLES in da street n shit. Sum Scabrous-Treacherous shit. But She aint know dat. Cuz she didden associate DIABETES wit being a DYING ADDICK. Its da exact same shit tho. She aint kno dat her rotting flesh is summa da same shit happens to-a-muthafucka hoo been shooting up HEROIN so long/and their system breaks down due to SUGAR--cuz its a DRUG too.

Butt she aint kno dis type-a-shit cuz she aint HIP 2 dis type-a-shit butt im 1 ov dem Niggaz hoo .... dat wut ever I PUTT in mah body wether its FOOD or DRUGS like da HEROIN im on. I been doing Heroin for 20 years butt im da type of muthafucka I always kno how much of wut 2 doo 4 wut. I been doing Heroin for 20 years/got a full time job butt dats cuz I got a good job. I got wut black folks kall a GOOD JOB/Make $35-$40-an-hour--befo Taxes. So I got a good job--butt I kno how 2 doo Heroin. Butt its a lotta muthafuckaz i grew up wit got on Heroin same time as I did butt they aint end up good as mee....knowutimsayin?? They have becum DIABETIKS cuz dats wut a Diabetik is. A Diabetik is a DYING ADDICK. Its da same muthafuckin shit. U ever seen a muthafucka wit they arm fucked up frum doing Heroin it aint a purrty picture-baby. It aint a purrty picture at all. And when u see a Diabetik & they feet start runnin n shit dats cuz ov all da SUGAR. See? When u doo HEROIN n when U git DIABETES its da SAME muthafuckin SIMPTOMS! Boff ov em AFFECK yo KIDNEYS....n U...and the only difference wit food is most ov da FOOD u EAT go 2 yo FEET cuz U digest frum da BOTTOM Up and then when u dooing da HEROIN u puttin dat shit direckly in yo VEINS .... n it go 2 yo HEART. Butt either way it Affecks yo KIDNEYS and u git DIA-muthafuckin-BETES. Im tryna SHO sumpen mayne. See-a lotta muthafuckaz dont kno dis shit butt I B tryna TELL peeps dis shit .... knowuthimsayin?? when ever Im talkin bout HEALTH .... Seewutimsayin?? Cuz yeah I kno I doo Heroin butt i talk bout Health too to other Heroin Addicks uknowutimtombout: the best way 2 use a needle/how to use a needle. Rite? If u ever noticed Diabetiks use a needle too. Thats wut I tole her.

Butt she say: I aint kno Heroin Addick like U doe.

I says: Butt U shoot up dont U bitch?

She said: Yeah.

I says: Aight. U use a needle dont U?

She said: Yeah.

So I says: Aight. Well-U a drug addick den. Jes cuz U use GRADE-A Pharmaceuticals dat cum frum a PIG dont mean shit.

Butt she was a young know-it-all hoe thawt she cood defy all da rules--and was still fuckin wit dem sweets last time I seent her: cakes/pies/cookies and candies n shit. SKITTLES was her thang. She loved that POISON. Not knowing dat Skittles were made wit DYES that were outlawed in sum countries even tho they were "legal" in the United States. So she still poppin dem SKITTLES and HOOKED on HONEY BUNS.

Butt I gots a GOOD JOB.

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