#dont know man. to be strangely vulnerable i am painfully lonely and isolated and its driving me up the walls | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

lightnersdream · 1 year

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so reflecting i have done jack shit since i graduated. had an ok first quarter and then it went to shit hard i want to draw more but i have to get over my insane perfectionism if im gonna keep doing it at all. and it applies to my life in general also but

#dib noise #would help if i wasnt in pain most of the time #or sick. i was sick since mid october #still kind of sick #need to get back drawing again i have obligations aaauughhhh #dont know man. to be strangely vulnerable i am painfully lonely and isolated and its driving me up the walls #the only people im ever around irl is the family that doesnt get along with me #and i never leave the house #i have so little.motivatijg my sluggish existence that i just dont know anything #the only thing i have going for me is art i refuse to create #i have friends online and they mean the world to me #but i swear to god i need to see a person that isnt my mom. im going to actually kill someone #ive basically never been around people that werent my parents #like never. my entire life #i have bad social skills to begin with but can you imagine what that has done to me #and continues to do #i dont like being around people. but i think i kind of have to be to a certain degree #i need to be around someone offline #i swear #every day is exactly the same

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