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gentil-minou · 7 months

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Xiantober Day 12 - Falling

CQL | Modern | Reincarnation AU

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Yanli-jie recommended bungee jumping as a romantic and exciting date. It was supposed to be thrilling, give them an adrenaline rush they'd carry all the way home.

It wasn't supposed to go like this…

The bungee cord that was meant to be pulled taut by the force of gravity from his descent is loose and dangling in a U shape as their guides whisper among themselves

"Did you see him run? Wasn't his boyfriend all the way on the other side?"

"How did he even grab hold of him?"

"You talked to them earlier right? Weren't they both excited and ready? They seemed so into it…"

"Yeah…they definitely weren't crying like this…"

Their voices sound far, far away. A part of Wei Ying registers them, knows where he is. Knows who he is. But the other part…

He's a million miles away…no that's not quite right.

He's hundreds of years away, the empty and safe ravine he and Lan Zhan had driven to is gone, though he can't tell because he can't look down. But he can feel the burning heat as it sears through his clothes, turns his bones to ashes and rips him apart.

The standard issue helmet they gave him earlier might as well not be there at all. In fact, impossibly, he swears he can feel a scorching wind whipping his long hair around him, despite the fact he'd had a haircut just last month.

But he can't look away to check or take note of anything, because his eyes are glued to Lan Zhan's above him, where he's hanging over the edge of the cliff, is hand gripping Wei Ying's wrist tight enough it's like its like they're welded to each other.

And Lan Zhan is crying.

The tears pour uninhibited from his eyes, normally a honey brown but somehow tuned pure gold in the sunlight. His tears fall and fall, though he doesn't say anything. Jaw clenched tight and his arms trembling, he's like a man possessed. Or Wei Ying would think that way if it wasn't for the look of deep anguish that spills from him, shaking Wei Ying to his very core.

Even as Wei Ying is dangling above an abyss, all he can think about is his worry for Lan Zhan, for his zhiji.

The word pops into his head from no where, feeling right. Describes them perfectly.

A cloud passes overhead, revealing a dazzling sub that blinds him, making him squint, and suddenly his boyfriend's short hair is ten times longer, falling over his shoulder as he purses his lips. He's bleeding from his arm, wearing white instead of the jumpsuit their guide gave them.

But that's not right… something isn't right. Wei Ying feels like he's in two places at once. They both feel real, but how can that be possible?

Is he the grad student on a once in a life time trip with the love of his life, crossing off a bucket list item?

Or is he a pariah, letting go of the hatred and pain in his heart to find salvation, being held back by someone who knows him as well as he does, inside and out.

Why can't he figure out where he is? Who he is?

The words spill unbidden past his lips.

"Lan Zhan, let me go."

Lan Zhan's squeezes his grip, digging into his skin even as blood drips from his injured arm down into Wei Ying's palm. The sound of swords clashing mixes with concerned whispers of their workers trying to get near, except Lan Zhan won't let them, afraid to let anyone near.

"Lan Zhan…"

Lan Zhan purses his lips, the furrow between his brows deeper than any canyon. He shakes his head, once slowly, before more vigorously. Water leaks from his eyes to drop on Wei Ying’s cheek as he hangs there.

"Wei Ying, no…"

"Lan Zhan, you can't save me."

His mouth keeps opening of its own accord, as if the words Wei Ying says aren't even really his to begin with. Like they're following a script that's been written long ago.

But Lan Zhan doesn't listen. Even as the voice above keep shifting from battle cries to frenzied workers trying to keep everyone safe, Lan Zhan hold on his wrist remains firm

"Wei Ying will not fall again."

Something bursts inside Wei Ying's chest. He'd think it was his heart, except he can still hear it, drumming against his skull as tears fall from his eyes to drop into the endless chasm below.

He feels like he's been waiting a long time to hear those words.

His voice chokes between sobs, and he has to take a moment to speak with a clear voice. "Will Lan Zhan save me, this time?"

Lan Zhan must have gained purchase on the ledge somewhere else, anchoring himself to it, because his other arms comes around to grab Wei Ying near his elbow in a secure grip. He's gritting his teeth and trying to heft him up, a vein in his forehead giving away his exertion.

"I will save Wei Ying, every time." he says, a fire burning his eyes scorching anyone or anything that dares to disagree.

He drags him up, and Wei Ying just barely gets a glimpse of a pair of guides holding Lan Zhan's legs to keep him stable, muttering about needing new rules.

When his feet land on the ground, it feels solid beneath him in a way it never has before. Like he's finally reached clarity and peace for something that's been gnawing at him for generations.

The long hair is gone, and Lan Zhan's arm isn't bloody or injured. They're both wearing their jumpsuits as the breathe heavily, just sitting on that ledge watch each other.

Wei Ying remembers where he is again, the fog gone from his mind. But something feels...different. Something has been changed irreversibly, though he can't quite put his finger on what.

Their guides are trying to give them a lecture, but all of Wei Ying's attention is on Lan Zhan. Where the tears no longer fall but glisten in his eyes and his mouth curves up in the sweetest, happiest smile.

"Wei Ying. I saved you."

Wei Ying huffs a laugh. The joy in his heart doesn't feel like his…but at the same it feels like all ever had. Like it flows through his veins and lights up his center.

"Yeah, Lan Zhan. You did. You caught me."

He leans forward, presses a steady hand on Lan Zhan’s tear-stained cheek, and kisses him, letting the light and love he feels pour into him, their souls entwined and at peace.

(threadfic here)

#disclaimer please dont do anything like this if you are bungee jumping thanks #also i mentioned on twitter im probably gonna do less of these - only the ones i really like or have good ideas for #im starting to feel a bit burnt out and a tiny bit discouraged and i want to focus on my fics again #i miss them #i think 12 days is a pretty good streak though!!!#mdzs #mo dao zu shi #the untamed #cql #wei wuxian #lan wangji #wangxian #mdzs fanfiction #the untamed fanfiction #xiantober #mdzs musings #bushy writing

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