may have to make a non essential purchase (sweats on sale at the store again eek}

march 16th 2017

gm gm blog i havent been here to update in a while but shits been dry lowkey for me since my last entry- there was like a lot of emotional turmoil regarding me and sean after we slept together idk it was kind of a mess and it really got to me just emotionally and tbh im kinda glad i went through that kind of experience bc it taught me a lot about myself- havent updated you on bae either in a while um im like 99.99% sure hes in jail again right now so i havent heard from him in a super long time sadly coming up on close to a month with no contact :-/ idk it sucks but i like him a lot so imma just sit around and wait for him to come back and see what he has to say for himself. 

so why were really here is my sexual activity right so the other day i was in the art building and just sitting and i look down at my phone and i have a text message from tony and lowkey i was shocked like i think my jaw dropped lmfao it wasnt like a wild text or anything just havent heard from him in forever like since december is the last time we fucked and ive slept w G and sean since then both of which are kinda better in bed but tony is the most avail to me lmfao that sounds so shitty but imma just be honest anyways it was wild that he messaged me tbh bc i was gonna be in columbus the next night which was wednesday and because i had a dr apt this morning to get some birth control lol so i tell him im gona be home and tell him ill come see him if thats cool he said for sure so the night of i head over there looking crusty af like dead ass no brows on no makeup at all leggings and a gross ass white tee and same old shit we sit on the couch and catch up about work and stuff literally same shit we always talk about and eventually he asks me to give him a back rub which is fuckin code for were moving into the bed room and so im like omw boiiiiiii hahahaha and when i get back to his room hes shirtless laying in bed and i just jump up next to him and scratch and rub his back and eventually he flips over onto his back and i flop down on my stomach like basically like ok my turn lol and hes rubbing my back and my ass not like sexually yet literally just a nice booty/back rub lol and dead ass im like falling asleep and so is he and eventually he leans in to kiss me and were kissing and kissing and shits getting hot hands are wandering around my body...and eventually im like ok get these leggings OFF and were kissing more and more and he like literally just put his fingers inside me and he usually never does that so i was shooketh tbh and hes kissing me still and wow it was nice he stops after a while and were still kissing and im like ok where the dick at and im reaching for it and like urging him to take his pants off and when hes just like out i grabbed his dick and kinda jerked it a little before giving him head and i was goiiiiiiiiiing in on him and i could hear his breath catch when i would do something really good and he was whispering ‘shit’ and idk bout you but if a boy is cussing while ur mouth is on their dick thats just the sexiest it gets tbh and im going going going and he kinda pulls me back and is like you have to stop or were not gonna be able to do anything i was like ayyyyy look at me go giving good head he stands up and is like what do you want and im like lol i wanna have sex obvi and he grabs a condom and is like alright bitch and grabbed my left ankle and like throws it over his shoulder and is like over kind of hovering and then is inside me and wooow that first thrust that really fits in and is like complete?? like fuck me UP so were fucking and he pulls out and is like trying not to finish fast which i appreciate tbh and is like ok flip over i know how you like it so im like on the edge of the bed and hes standing and im like up on my knees ass all the way up in the air lol and getting dicked down from behind is just hot????  so were going going going and eventually im like ok you stop lemme do the work so i asked him to just stand like solid and let me like do the thrusting?? idk if that visual makes sense but anyways im backing it up HARD like realllllly going in on him and it felt so good like i was really working it and i was feeling those pre orgasm feels and i was like yesss hoe im bout to do this hahahah so im like going hard and hes got his hands just on my ass like gripping me and i hear him moaning behind me and he like grabs me hard and makes me stop like hes about to finish and im like ugh why boy and i sort of flip over and hes like are you good im like yes boy are you good? hes like yeah im fine do you want more and im like lol yes im sorry its really good today he kind of laughs and shoves me over and puts it back in and this is where it got juicy yall so hes still behind me ok and im like alright imma be the one thrusting so just chill for a sec and he grabs my anlkes which are on either side of his legs and ls like holding my ankles and using my own body weight to like pull himself into me even harder and shit was hitting me deep i was like WOOOOOW so im kinda loosing my mind and goin hard and moaning like a demon as always and he was just really feeling it he smacked my ass kinda hard and finished he had a condom on so no worries lol but i felt bad bc he loves to cum in my mouth to like finish so i wanted to do that for him but he just was shook by my movements i guess hahhahaaha he kind of laughed at me and playfully smacked my ass and went to the bathroom and i was SLUMPED in his bed like good night type mood and he was like babe theres pillows if you wanna stay tonight i was like AWWW WOW i would love a sleep over w a boy but i gotta get home so i walk back out and we just like lay on the couch together and were deadass falling asleep so i get up to go and get my coat n shoes n shit and we hug and he says be safe tomorrow and and as usual i say i will and leave it was really nice honestly it wasnt like mind blowing but it was really good and really comfortable i can be me around him hes seen everything you know i dont really care about how i look when i go over there bc hes always tryna smash regardless ahahah anyways thats it for me 

talk soon hopefully having sex once a month is fucking mothers dude