reading all these old articles and thinking about the way everyone described their perceptions of younger valtteri's confidence vs daniel's. and how, given what we know now, we can assume there was more friction between their exterior presentation and their internal lives than previously accorded. what was real, what was fake, what was fake but believed to be real by even themselves bc of diminished emotional capacity or lack of healthy model or or or etc., how did that belief serve or fail them and what version are they living with now.... is it more holistic is it more informed is it more associated... how did they get to it and what is it made of. the texture of these two drives me ssskkskskskoosnendndjdnnfn