severely depressed and continuously thinking about & re-watching jane eyre (2006) & withnail and i (1987) which at first glance may seem like very different pieces of media but which are very similar in that both stories are about: being impoverished, plain, miserable, mentally &/or physically ill, lonely, hating your family, having weird relationships you can't explain to anyone let alone yourself, walking in the rain crying & reciting hamlet to yourself in front of a dog (this is withnail but it's also exactly the kind of thing rochester would do with pilot), using humor & fantasy as a coping mechanism, going to a random village in the middle of nowhere & then leaving it, nearly dying from the cold & poverty, & having to leave to start a better life even if it really hurts