"Coming here is a privilege he rarely accords himself, and only when he's certain not to be observed; only when he is sober, only when he is clean, only when he hasn't fucked himself to exhaustion; only when the confines of his mortal body, of this camp, of this tiny world close around him too tightly; only when he can't stop himself from remembering that once, none of those things were true." Map of the World, Chapter 7

Grayscale 'cause of how Cas' night vision works. I have so many feelings about pre 5x04 Chitaqua Cas :((((

ID: Two images of the same digital grayscale drawing of Cas staring out across a moonlit landscape. He is shown at the bottom of the image, from behind, standing on the edge of a roof. In front of him are shown the rooves of a couple of other buildings and then a wall. Beyond the wall are hills, with a moon rising over them, positioned in front of Cas' head. It is crescent moon, with the old moon visible in the new moon's arms. Above this scene is the starry sky, with the milky way clearly visible and lyrics written in white over it reading: "Life in a cage/ is turning me blind/ I pace in a rage/ and I wait to die." This first image shows the full drawing and the second shows a close up of Cas, haloed by the moon. End ID.