#cons: unsure it's actually like objectively good for me. it's in my hometown. makes studies a year longer. might crash and burn idk. | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

anaalnathrakhs · 2 months

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stupidest dilemma ever but if i even manage to graduate at the end of this year, do i go for one year at a preparatory course that'd be really good for work ethic and all the stuff i really struggle with, but 1) makes me stay in my hometown (which means, at my parents' place) for one more year and 2) makes me effectively lose a year of tertiary education bc no way in hell i'm starting out in year 2 of a licence afterwards, or do i immediately go for the three year cursus i'm aiming for, in a different city, but missing out a very needed crash course in organization and discipline and all related stuff.

#pros of preparatory class: will be with a friend from high school. excellent on the resume. sounds fun to work so much.#cons: unsure it's actually like objectively good for me. it's in my hometown. makes studies a year longer. might crash and burn idk.#I DONT KNOW #is six years of higher education a reasonable time?#it feels wasted it feels so wasted i can't be wasting my parents money for a degree for such a bullshit job right #im too weakwilled for healthcare and not math-proficient enough for any kind of engineering #whats left #the trades? im scared and also realistically i'm assuming as long as they've got a supply of people who followed the high school cursus #theyre not just going to accept any random 20yo with no prior training #or i do go for some bullshit job in linguistics which im barely smart enough for anyway #and i waste my parents money on a degree that only ever benefits ME #broadcasting my misery #vent

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