#cause if he's usually unpredictable he gets a million times worse when he doesn't feel in control
Text
I know it's not my responsibility but it's really hard not to care when I can feel it all
So
Much
Pain
#like i always knew he's not happy w/ the way things are or the way he is not really but#usually doll's the only one who even gets a glimpse he buries it somewhere so deep#i'm not sure what happened. did smth get triggered or is it just cause he doesn't seem to know how to leave the front fully#i mean i. i got no idea how to help him. don't even know if i can i might just make his walls go back up if i try#but leavin him alone w/ all this isn't gonna help him change either#n doll isn't around n i don't wanna trigger him out front when he clearly doesn't wanna be here rn#i guess somethin about the co-con fucked up smth for the both of us#i keep havin all these warm fuzzy feelings for him n i guess he...can't just ignore all the damage he's done now#if i try to...help idk connect some kinda way. he might just take advantage#cause if he's usually unpredictable he gets a million times worse when he doesn't feel in control#also takes everything remotely resembling sympathy as an insult when it's from someone ~ below ~ him#which in itself should tell me not to fucking bother but#but. but. but.#spdrvent
0 notes
Last Seen Blogs
well-cup-feel-according
Untitled
yulaielizabeth
utopía Atiny
darklydreamingpeter
don't put your faith in me
sarafina90
Sometimes, I Write Stuff
cinematechno
come back with gravity