#but when i dont expect it or its a random sudden w/e thing its harder to maybe prepare for? | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

monsterbisexual · 1 year

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smth abt how my chronic pain is p much predictable so its easier to live w it every day but then its way scarier n harder to handle when its a new pain or smth sudden/random etc

btw my tumblr app is fucking w me as usual n i cant make my posts unrebloggable so ill just say here like dont thx

#heads up this is abt me falling while walking my dog n it making me cry lets not get too deep here #but idk i mean when its pain that is always there in some capacity so im used to it n even when its worse i can #kinda know when/why n deal w that too like after i work especially n even the next morning a bit too its extra worse #but when i dont expect it or its a random sudden w/e thing its harder to maybe prepare for?#or like. idk #sometimes i wonder if unless its rly bad ppl know abt it otherwise cuz i like to think i have a handle on like #how to act/seem which gets harder the worse it is n then when theres other factors like work stress or smth #its a bit harder to seem fine cuz it takes like effort #or maybe its rly not this deep at all n i just have a rly low pain tolerance actually #but can hide it n feel it quietly? hmmm #cuz ive like teared up n stuff gettin some of the piercings ive had n obvs i knew it was coming n id had it done before #so idk w/e #ow #p

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