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toomuchtv95 · 4 years

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Selfish

Pairing: Damon Salvatore x Reader

Word Count: 3.4+k

Warning: Fluff, Angst, Smut (18+), Unprotected Sex

Summary: You and Damon have a long history together and when you find out that he’s got werewolf venom in his system and no sign of Klaus, he refuses to to take the cure. Once you comforted Damon about not taking the cure, you find out why he didn’t take it.

A/N: I know this was supposes to be out yesterday, but I got distracted and didn't get editing it. I manage to finishing it super late (2am) and I was tired and I ended up editing it today. I also didn’t plan on it being this long, but I was on a roll and I just kept writing.

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It was a quiet afternoon at the boarding which is what you needed. Things have been hectic over the last couple of weeks. Elena was turned into a vampire; Klaus was dead but then ended up he wasn't and now there's a vampire hunter out there killing every vampire he can get his hands on. As you walked into the parlor with a blood bag in your hand, you headed straight to the cart to grab a glass and poured the blood into the cup. Drinking the blood, you closed your eyes letting the blood hit the right spot. As you stared down at the blood in the cup, you took a few deep breaths as you tried not to think about the fact that you were slowly losing control for blood.

“You know what I hate? Vampire hunters.” You chugged the rest of your blood before turning around to see Damon walking in shedding his coat. Damon stepped over to the cart to grab a napkin to wipe off the blood from his shoulder.

“Well, no one told you to go and piss off a vampire hunter.” You muttered to yourself as you set your glass down to help Damon. Grabbing the napkin from him, you unbutton the first few buttons of his shirt so that you had better access to the blood.

"You know if you wanted to see me topless all you had to do was ask," Damon whispered as he gave you his famous smirk. You rolled your eyes as you shook your head slightly back and forth.

"Nothing I haven't seen before." You spoke low so that only Damon could hear just in case more people were lurking in the house. After cleaning up the blood, you took a few steps back as awkwardness and silence filled the air. “I need some air.” With that said you disappeared out of the room.

Once you walked outside there was a slight breeze with caused you to cross your arms over your chest as you held your sweater close. Standing underneath the entranceway of the house you closed your eyes as you thought back to when things were simpler. Before you were a vampire, you were a witch that was born in 1685. You were born to a powerful witch who had a child out of wedlock and was kicked out of her family. Your mother had taught you everything you need to know about being a witch and when you were attached by witch hunters, they had killed you and your mother. The only difference between your deaths was you woke up as a vampire which meant you lost your magic.

“I’m worried about you.” You pulled out of thoughts when you heard Damon speak up from behind you.

“Since when you do care about me?” You mumbled to yourself without realizing that those words slipped your mouth.

“Where is that coming from? I’ve always cared about you.” Damon lightly grabbed your upper arm, turning you around to face him.

"Well, you have a hell of a way of showing it.” You blurted out in anger that you have been holding back for so long. Damon was stunned at your outburst. He knows something as been bother you lately, but with everything that's been going on, he's kind of neglect you and he feels guilty about it. “Why don’t you just go back to Elena? Because it’s always about her.” You yanked your arm out of his grip and walked towards the forest.

“What the hell is your problem lately?” Damon vamp speed so that he was now in front of you.

“You are! This town is and I’m sick of this crap. I’m sick of fighting battles that aren’t mine to fight! And I am sure as hell sick of tired sitting around watching you and Elena do whatever it is you two are doing with each other!” With that said you disappeared into the forest not caring that Damon was calling after you.

This was one of the many arguments that you and Damon have been having lately and most of the time it was about Elena. You and Damon had a history that dated back to the early 1900s. Some people would say that you two were bad for each other and others would say that you two couldn’t live without each other. When Damon showed up in Mystic Falls after you and Stefan, things between the two of you escalated. Constantly arguing, him always dropping everything to go save Elena, and sometimes that meant he left you when you needed him the most. The Salvatore brothers were your best friends and only friends you manage to keep over the centuries. You had meet Stefan first during one of his ripper stages in the late 1800s.

The first time you meet Damon was in 1912 when you returned to Mystic Falls with Stefan for their nephew’s funeral. Then when Damon made Stefan feed on human blood again, Stefan disappeared leaving you behind and that’s when you and Damon got close. The two of you spent a few years together and after getting to know Damon, you started to develop strong feelings for him, but he was still hung up on Katherine. So, you did the one thing you do best, you flipped the switch. You tend to flip the switch when things got too much for you. You were the type of person who cares too much and once you became a vampire, you learned about the switch causing you to use it quite often. You ended up disappearing because when you had no humanity, you were not pretty to be around.

For the next 40yrs, you struggled with your humanity, turning it on and off whenever you felt your emotion start to take control. It wasn’t till the early 50s when Stefan found you and helped you turn back on your humanity and keep it on. Then in 1960 you ran into Damon again and found out he turned off his humanity, and for some reason, you were determined to help him turn it back on, which didn't go as plan. Your feeling for Damon resurfaced after a somewhat drunken one-night stand with him and after almost 10years, you flipped the switch again not wanting to feel those feelings for him again. With both you and Damon and no humanity, you were basically Bonnie and Clyde. The next 17years you and Damon traveled around and in 1977 is when the two of you settled in New York and at that point, you were completely lost with yourself.

That was the year that Stefan sent Lexi to deal with Damon while he came and personally got you to save you from yourself. After leaving Damon yet again, you felt lost without him, considering the two spent so many years together. Once your switch was back on, everything flooded back to you, all the kills you made, and of course your feelings for Damon. There was something that always drew you two back to each other, rather it was fate or just luck. When you and Stefan arrived back in Mystic Falls in 1994, Damon and returned claiming he hand turned his humanity back on and wanted to make good with the two of you. You soon found out that he was lying everything. Then you and Stefan left Mystic Falls and the two of you went your sperate ways until about two years ago and the rest is history.

As you sat down on a tree stump, tears formed in your eyes as you felt like you were falling apart. It was moments like this where you wanted nothing more than to turn off your humanity, but you worked so hard to keep yourself together for the last decade. You laid your head in the palm of your hands trying to gather yourself. Without realizing it, you felt a pair of hands grab yours causing you to look up to see Damon squatting down in front of you.

“I’m slowly losing control, Damon.” You finally admit was been going on with you lately and you felt completely broken. “I’m having a hard with controlling my urges for blood again and my emotions are all over the place and all I want to do is turn it off.”

“Well, that's not going to happen because I won’t let it.” Damon felt terrible that he didn’t help you sooner, but he was determined to help you know no matter what it takes.

Tears rolled down your face as the damn was now broken. “Ever since that night that Klaus compelled me to suck that innocent man dry all I think about is blood and how I want to drink from the vein again.” Damon could see that you were on a verge of a breakdown and he knows that you need him right now. “I am losing control and I don’t know much longer I can hold on.”

“Hey, look at me.” Damon grabbed hold of your face forcing you to look at him. “I’m going to help you. I promise.” You nodded your head not believing him. Damon forcefully pulled you into his chest and that's when you completely broke down. Damon wrapped his arms around you tightly not wanting to ever let you go. Damon hated seeing you like this and he would do anything to make your suffering go away.

"Hello, sweetheart.” You stopped dead in your tracks when you heard the one voice that you thought you would never hear again. With the Veil to the other side being down Mystic Falls was crawling with ghosts who most of them were out of revenge, but you had no idea that Henry was one of them.

Slowly turning around, you saw your ex-fling who had died 250yrs ago to a stake to the heart. “Henry,” you choked out as Henry stepped out of farther from the shadows. All of a sudden, your body gets thrown up against the brick wall letting out a groan in the process.

“I see you moved on without thinking twice about me and with another vampire.” Henry tightened his grip around your neck causing you to gasp for air. “250yrs I have been watching over you and I knew you were in trouble when you first laid eyes on Damon Salvatore. How could you do this to me? To us?” Henry was raging with anger as his grip was only getting tighter.

“You died 250 years ago.” You struggled against this grip as the air from your lung escape. “Why are doing this? You and I both know that what we had was just a fling that lasted a summer.” The two of you agreed that it was just supposed to be a fling that lasted a summer, but you notice that he was catching feelings so when you went to end things, he was already dead. He had a stake through his heart, and you were left with disposing of his body.

“I loved you. Why didn't you love me back? Instead, you wanted nothing more than that." Henry pulled you back slightly before slamming you into the wall again. Henry slammed his hand into your chest wrapping his hand around your heart causing you to gasp in pain.

“Henry, please stop.” Henry slightly squeezed his hand around your heart causing you to gasp for air. “I’m sorry that I hurt you, Henry, but you knew that I couldn’t love you like the way you loved me. You need to move on. You shouldn’t haven’t held on this long.” Within a blink of an eye, Henry let go of your heart as he took one last breath as he stumbled to the floor causing you to slide down against the wall.

“Y/N,” you looked up to see Stefan standing in front of standing over Henry’s lifeless body.

“I’m okay.” You manage to speak up as your breath started to become even. Stefan extended his hand offering to help you up which you gladly took. “Did I miss the ceremony? I was a little busy.”

“No, it hasn’t started yet. We have another problem.” As Stefan pulled you up, you could see the worriedness on his face which instantly caused you to be worried. “It’s Damon. He's got werewolf venom on his system from wooden bullets that were laced with it. We are trying to get a hold of Klaus, but it’s not looking good. He refuses to take the cure. Alaric is with him now. Call him and convince him to take it because he’s not listening to me.”

God, this can not be happening. Not again. Grabbing your phone, you landed on Damon’s name and instantly click on it. “Y/N,” Alaric answered on the second ring.

“Alaric listen to me. You shoved that cure done his throat because odds are, Klaus isn’t coming through.” Anger flooded through your veins that Damon is dying, and you were miles away.

“He won’t take it, Y/N.” Clutching your eyes shut, you felt tears coming on just thinking about losing Damon. You spent so much time with Damon, and you must admit that if he dies, you probably won’t survive. You would end up turning off your humanity and never turn it back on.

The last 24hrs have been hell and all you wanted to do was sink your teeth into someone’s neck and drain them, but you have worked so hard over the last couple of months to gain control again. After Alaric called you back letting you that Klaus came through with his blood and Damon was going to be okay, you thanked whatever god was listening. Pulling up to the boarding house, you cut the engine of your car and climbed out and headed into the house. Walking into the living room, you saw Damon standing of the fireplace with a glass of bourbon in his hand.

“I wanted to apologize.” Damon didn’t bother looking up knowing you were the one that walked in the room.

“No, you don’t get apologize.” You stepped down the steps and stood a few feet away from Damon. “Why wouldn’t you take the cure? You would rather die than to be human again? Did you think of how it would make me feel if you died?” Anger pulsed through your veins as tears filled your eyes. Damon set his glass down on the table next to him before turning to fully face you.

“Yeah, I would rather die right now than to be human again because I’m selfish like that. I make bad decisions that hurt you in the end. We spent a handful of years together and I know I’m bad for you, you, and I both know that. So, I would rather die right now than then spend the rest of a miserable human life disappointing you and losing you when too old and sick. I’m not going to change, Y/N. And there no apology in the world that shows you how sorry I am for everything that I’ve done to you.” Tears welled in your eyes as Damon spoke with pain in his voice.

“Fine, then I'm selfish too." Damon snapped his head towards you and looked at you confused. “Because I would do anything to save you and if that means that if I had to travel miles away to find Klaus to get his blood then I would do it. And I’m also selfish because I realized that I can’t live without you. I've tried and it's miserable.” More tears filled your eyes as you were now pouring your heart out to him. “I’m not sorry that we spent 20 plus years together and I’m definitely not sorry that I’m in love with you, Damon. I’ve been in love with you for almost a century and I -” Damon rapidly closed the gap between the two of you and crashed his lips against yours. The kiss was gentle yet slow. Your entire body had been taken over with lust as your lips moved in sync with his.

Damon pulled away just enough to get a full look at your face. “I didn’t take the cure because I don’t want to be human if it means you’re still you. I don’t want to grow old if it means I lose you in the end." Damon frames your face with his hands then lightly stroked your cheeks with his thumbs. “I love you, Y/N.”

A smile spread across your faces, as you pulled him as close as you could to you before kissing him passionately. You wrapped your arms around his neck as his hands roamed your body making their way down to the back of your thighs. Giving them a light squeeze, you jump up, wrapping your legs around his waist and your lips not once leaving his. Damon pushed up again a nearby wall causing the stuff on the table to fall to the floor.

A small chuckled escaped your lips as you pulled away to see what had dropped. "Stefan's going to kill us if we break something.”

“He’ll get over it.” In one quick movement, he pulled you away from the wall and carried you up to his bedroom. Once inside, he laid you onto the bed with him hovering over you. His lips left a trail down your jaw eventually working his way to your neck causing you to let out a moan. His fingers found the hem of your shirt, slowly drawing it smoothly off over your head. You looked at him with a smile on your face as you reached for the buttons on his shirt and unbuttoned it, then slid off and tossed it to the floor. You stared at him, letting your eyes linger over his body. You have never seen anything as beautiful as Damon.

“I guess you got what you wanted.” He smiled down at you as he was referring to your convention a few weeks ago. “Topless and all.”

"And like I told you. Nothing I haven't seen before." You sat up leaning back on your elbows as your hair laid loose at your shoulders.

“That was over 50years ago,” he whispered gently.

“Yeah, well I remember it like it was yesterday,” you admitted and without hesitation, Damon leaned down and planted a kiss upon your lips. As you reached out, you started unfastening his pants and once they were off, he pushed you back on the bed gasping as he kissed his way down your stomaching. As he stopped at the top of your pants, he unbuttoned them and drew them down your legs and tossed them into the pile of clothes that was growing on the floor. Once the two of you were completely naked, his hand rested on the back of your thighs before gently moved them apart.

You smiled at him just as he gently slid into you and it was just the most amazing feeling in the world. He withdrew and pushed in again and you groaned at how amazing it felt. Even though it’s been 50yrs, you never once forgot about how good he felt, and you weren’t going to lie no other man could make you feel the way Damon did. He smiled at you and you knew you were smiling back at him. He repeated the motion a little faster, his breath unsteady, his hand on your hips giving them a light squeeze. You wrapped your arms around his neck as he lifted your legs so that they were around his waist. You gasped at the change in position inside of you, hitting you a spot that hasn’t been touched in a very long time.

We moved together and it felt good, it felt right. His hand moved to your thighs and you gasped as he started to touch you, his fingers grasp and if it could leave a bruise it would. He slammed into you again and again. You shut your eyes as you felt yourself getting closer and closer to your climax. As the two of you both cried, his body relaxed and collapsed onto yours. After a moment of both of you catching your breaths, Damon rolls onto the bed next to you adjusting the sheet over this lower half. You followed his action before laying your head on the pillow and faced him and to see him smiling at you.

You reached up to touch his face and he turned in your hand and kissed the palm of it, a gesture that made your heart melt. “By the way, I would never ask you to change who you are.” You smiled at Damon, before scooting closer to him just inches away from his face. “I love you for who you are.” You whispered against his lips just as Damon kissed you with everything he had.

“I love you, Y/N.” Damon pulled away just enough to speak before returning his lips to yours. You deepened the kiss as you pushed Damon back onto the bed before laying on top of him. For the rest of the morning and most of the afternoon in bed going at it like rabbits and cuddling and when the evening came around Damon took you out to dinner as a first date.

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