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the-faultofdaedalus · 1 year

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“steve’s real fucked up after the ice” fic but it’s nothing to do with the ice, he just did Actually Die but was in relatively decent condition so SHIELD just tahiti’d him and now he’s fucked up from that

#i don’t think they ever say how Long the tahiti program was a thing before a1 #i feel like you can make it work #everyone tells steve. the serum is why you survived. you were alive but unconcious. you were in stasis.#it happens. even with normal people they can survive like that.#and he doesn’t know how. and he knows it makes no sense because. well. he IS alive.#so how could they be. but he knows that they are lying.#he’s even already an artist you could get that aspect of it in there so easily #also wheeeee put steve in the brain’m’jig #and every time he tries to put the pervasive feeling that he doesn’t belong here. that he shouldn’t be alive.#that he is living on borrowed time. that he should not be here. into words #it’s explained away as trauma from the crash. from loosing that much that quickly.#and it’s Not. and he knows it’s Not. but he can’t explain why he knows that #i feel like it would be Fun if he also got like. the false tahiti memories #but also i feel like they’d just replace it with nothing tbh #just the crash and nothing and wake him up #it’s plausible enough and then there’s no falsehoods to be poked at #it would be REALLY fun if steve just thinks. they woke him up in this weird new world. he flipped his lid. they sent him on a vacation #mainly bc like #ok they can falsify memories. which is Fucking Terrifying (ohhh wait bookmark more aou fixing fodder perhaps)#but they can’t fully erase them. coulson’s still held many of the same aspects as what really happened #and. how do you falsify memories in a supersoldier when you have no idea how they experience the world?#so. i think it would be fun. tony springs a beach vacay for steve #and shield’s smart there is actually a resort in tahiti that is named and looks the same as where the tahiti patients supposedly were #with a falsified guest list #and employees who definitely remember steve #but they get there and steve takes one step into this place where he’s supposedly been #and is just. this is wrong. this does not match.#because there is some aspect to it that his senses can pick up and register #that the false memories cannot mimic #he has never been to this place before in his life. he swears to god he is telling the truth.

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