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#but she also scolded me once (and btw i was like 15) bc idk i was acting. like a perv?
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It's not easy to be a guy with a weird gender and complicated relationships with its sexuality and romantic attraction and fat and autistic and traumatized to the bone but someone has to do it
#luly talks
#i tried to rb a post but i hit post limit and i lost it LMAO but i find it interesting how my things overlap
#bc as some of you might know i grew up as a fat little girl and you know the world fucking hates us
#and on top of that autistic although i had the most neurodivergent ppl along w me
#i still wasn't like my other friends tho i always was slightly more lonely slightly more disconnected
#they were in on things i didn't seem to be in the social spectrum and i never understood that
#and one of those things was indeed romance and dating and in my teen years sex too
#like by default i was seen as undesirable. just by virtue of being fat and also kinda androgynous
#and the autism just. kept me far away from any social circle or interaction that'd bring me closer to an encounter of any kind
#and i always yearned lord knows i still dream of Ana but the thing is i...
#i just. love romance in paper
#i love the idea of romance. i love the yearning i love the feeling
#i know the feeling bc i know euphoria! i know the euphoria that comes from love.
#but to me that's a very short lived feeling specially when engaging directly with it
#i think its part of a matter of being taught what romantic attraction is and how they paint it
#it's similar to how you are taught X and Y is hot even before you understand why
#like i remember my mother always joking w me about male mannequins' cocks and like sure i played along
#bc i thought it was funny and if the adult i seeked approval from did it then i absolutely should too
#but she also scolded me once (and btw i was like 15) bc idk i was acting. like a perv?
#and it's so bizarre in retrospective bc it might have been before the age of 15 bc i really didn't care about such matters then
#I've always been amaizing at masking i love understanding people and why they do what they do and replicating them
#so me being positive to sex and romance is to be expected
#but at the same time its weird bc i cannot bring myself to hating it but i also just. dont fucking feel it
#but at least w sex comes the horror of having a body too like there's a lot man
#but my point is that its funny how despite being seen as undesirable for society i was unaffected bc i was oblivious to it
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