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i LOVE the way you draw moira! Especially how you depict her as a gnc woman with top scars. I was wondering if you have any specific headcanons regarding her gender/presentation/transition?

thank you! i dont particularly have too many headcanons, i relate a lot of my own feelings on my gender onto her though, so most of what i say is just my own experiences? For example, her primary pronouns are she/her, its what anyone who relatively knows her refers to her as, however when it comes to people she barely knows or strangers, any pronouns work. when someone knows your pronouns, especially those who dont explore gender at all.. they do perceive you differently. I think she hates being perceived as 'woman' to strangers, in a sense that she doesn't like being treated differently just because of her gender. She does get a certain enjoyment seeing people stumble over themselves trying to figure out what to refer to her as without having to blatantly ask her, though, likes to watch them squirm. She doesn't like being called ma'am or miss, but likes to be called sir, and to have partners call her handsome. She doesn't like accentuating her body in an overly feminine way, but does like to wear the occasional dress and makeup, though she is most comfortable in a suit. She likes being the proverbial man in the relationship, planning out the dates, toting her partner around on her arm. She would never turn down her partner planning anything though, she just doesnt ask for it. Sexually as well, I think in most scenarios she is a stone top, doesn't get much out of being touched herself and much prefers tending to her partners needs. I've seen before that people lean her towards butch more often than gnc but i never could see her referring to herself as butch.. she plays with both. She is very comfortable in her body and likes being in control of how she is perceived to outsiders.

#it can be hard for me to explain being gnc.. especially to those that dont get it yknow?#sometimes i will say things that contradict each other.. but i think thats kind of the point sometimes..#also for clarification: i dont always draw her with top scars its usually by request. typically i just draw her with a very small chest #but obviously i like top scars moira and do sometimes draw it on my own accord. maybe someday *i* will have top scars. wow.

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daggerdove · 6 years

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Ramblings on developing relationships and character changes

Warnings for: mention of rape

I know I talk about Safe in the Dark a LOT

Safe is my baby, well, my seven year old child by now I guess.

The characters and relationships have come HUNDREDS of miles since I first sat down in 2011 at the age of 14 with hope in my heart and an insatiable wish for penning another death and another and another, and letting the bodies pile up with my word count.

So, hastily cobbled together relationships, flat characters and an overstretched cast.

And for a hot second, a love...quadrangle.

Sort of.

BUT NOW?

...I don’t fucking know everyone is gay, so sue me.

Daniel, poor thing, is a WWI vet who went away to war far too young and came back with too many scars. Vampirism can be a shocker out alcoholism though, so he’s got that going for him. He was going to propose to this lovely lady Emily. Of course, Thea said ‘fuck you I want a tiny vampire army so I can rule the world’ and that was the end of that.

Daniel swings whatever way happens to suit him at the time.

Generally he’s pretty romantically NO, but sexually, he really has no preference.

side note he usually bottoms when with guys

After losing everyone he cared about not once, but twice, he decided that who got to know him became a matter of absolute top secret break through seventy years worth of locked doors bs.

Jesse came through like a whirlwind and said ‘How about I jump over the doors instead?’

After that Daniel started letting himself remember that the world isn’t as shit as he convinced himself it was, and started to enjoy life again, with some minor hiccoughs along the way.

Jesse is GAY . Bold, italic, unsubtle, with all his fluorescent green hair and as much 80′s college kid as can be crammed into a person. He is the embodiment of a cross between what my cousin’s Mike and Jesse (hah, it wasn’t intentional, it just happened) were around his age.

While he likes to pretend he’s as directionless and brain dead as his appearance sometimes suggests, he was a fucking straight a college student (don’t ask me his major it fluctuates a lot).

Jesse is HIV positive (guess what vampirism doesn’t cure) and when he met Daniel, he wanted to DIE.

He also offered to fuck Daniel in the back room of the bar but that is another matter entirely, because Jesse was very drunk, and not in the best mental state, evidently.

Despite Daniel being obviously disinterested over the months they live together while Jesse plans to have Daniel kill him, and Daniel ponders the possibility of whether he’d be able to turn someone- Jesse falls fucking HARD.

There is obvious flirting, which, Daniel doesn’t reject so much as brush off.

However when he DOES turn Jesse, he gives in and the process is a little more, let’s just say physical, than need be.

This is where that relationship gets very complex.

Because after a decade or two, Jesse knows how to manipulate what he wants out of Daniel, and he does it.

He knows it’s wrong, he knows it’s really REALLY wrong.

He does it anyway.

When he confronts Daniel about this, (Some 30-40 odd years after being turned) he specifies what he’s been doing as a kind of rape.

Daniel, doesn’t see it this way.

That doesn’t change anything.

Daniel never saw it as manipulation, he saw it as his own personal weakness, as giving in to what Jesse wanted because sometimes it was nice, and other times just because it was easier than the alternative.

But that still doesn’t change things.

Let’s, move on.

Alexandra is probably the only /probably/ straight character left, and I say it like that because she’s only classified as such because she’s never specified otherwise to me like everyone else has in some way or other.

She went from paper doll abuse survivor to- well.

Herself.

I won’t speak much on her past, but she went from being driven by fear to being driven by a want for family. A real one, somewhere she was safe and happy and loved.

She found it.

Alex has, an odd relationship with sex.

She’s had it used against her and she’s used it herself as a means of getting by and sometimes it’s nothing and sometimes it’s pleasure and once blood is in the picture it goes a little, softer.

Once blood is in the picture it’s like everything has reset.

Because even though some things can still leave her curled up from the memories and the feelings, a lot of it is finally, finally okay again.

Isaac is like an invitation to normalcy she never got to have.

Isaac feels like coming home when she isn’t even sure she knows what home or love or being in love even means anymore, if she ever knew it at all.

So she’s a little too heavy handed and it shows and she scares herself in how ready she is to drown in the new feelings.

So she runs away, because it’s what she’s always done.

Isaac is pretty middle of the road bisexual, and quicker to label it than Daniel- with more of a preference toward men, more of a preference for those with softer edges and big dumb grins.

Tom and Isaac were high school sweethearts.

They fell out of what they decided wasn’t love shortly after senior prom. Still best friends, neither worse off for ending that aspect of their lives.

Alex is an odd experience for him. A loss of control, wanting something his past says he shouldn’t. Something akin to your spike buffy mess except neither of them is evil.

Isaac watched a vampire tear his father’s throat out when he was nine.

His uncle raised him ever since.

His parents divorced when he was very young, his mother gave up all rights. He hasn’t spoken to her since he was 14.

He doesn’t know what to do when Alex comes into the picture. Because she shows up and he expects to get killed.

And then he doesn’t

and he doesn’t

He tries to draw lines between what is definitely morally right or wrong, but it seems to keep pushing the limit until he has to start over. And he doesn’t seem to care as much as he feels he should.

Moira is trans, ace, and the biggest lesbian ever.

I knew she was a lesbian from the start, the asexuality came about later in a conversation with Carrie.

The transgender bit, that was a realization several months ago. Then came the wondering, would hormone treatment work on a vampire?

How much would you have to hush pay a doctor for a patient who wasn’t going to bleed like normal, or have a proper heartbeat?

Daniel and Jesse never questioned calling her Moira, they never knew her by any other name, and she never felt it necessary to tell them. They didn’t ask.

She did ask Daniel for help finding a Doctor.

Alex walked in on her once to the discovery that surgery ended above the belt. Much to her embarrassment and Moira’s amusement.

Carrie is a lesbian as well, she goes in between girlfriends a couple times within the story, though focuses more on her work as an EMT and continuing her progression through medical school.

She once posed as Isaac’s girlfriend for something, which she made him swear he’d never ask her to do again. I have a lingering suspicion that it was a family wedding.

there is more but I am getting incoherent in my writing, so that’s that.

#SITD #Writing Ramblings #sitd ramblings

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