#but like I said. I’m much more used to writing the jami/azu so that’s kinda been the driver of the story | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

cerealmonster15 · 5 months

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life is like a metronome sometimes I reread my fics and go “heehee silly fun times” and other times I can’t get past 3 sentences with out going “NO this is CRINGE and BAD everyone that has ever said something nice about my work is a LIAR and an ENABLER and just FEELS BAD FOR ME” actually that says less about life and More about My Issues I think 🤔

#go back to therapy challenge. maybe In the new year #no actual hostility towards anyone that is nice 2 me lol #I simply just feel Insecure 🧍 but that’s a ME PROBLEM!!!#I’m on my lunch break writing my Kalim fic (???) (Idk Hes Kinda the pov protag) in my phone #chapter 2….. lol I was outlining it the other day like general points I want it to have #and like I have a GENERAL idea of where I want it to go. kind of.#but I really am kinda going into this blind #it’s ok it’s not meant to be a long deep fic #just like idk maybe a handful of chapters #but like I said. I’m much more used to writing the jami/azu so that’s kinda been the driver of the story #so much that I keep forgetting the silver/kalim part lol OUGHHH #lads idk if I’m gonna be able to pull this off. but I must try 🫡#it’s ok if it’s bad I do not have to make a masterpiece but hhhhhh #I will be embarrased if I forget to include key points HAHA hdjfvjdjdjdjfjgj #knowing WHEN to introduce certain parts is the toughie #cuz there’s stuff I want to happen and things I want ppl to say but #lol organizing hard…. pacing hard…. we’ll see lads we’ll see #that’s why we r doing this… we r learning by doing lol 😭 DONT LOOK AT ME

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