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urostakako · 11 months

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ok lrb i feel like the biggest idiot ever and i probably am 💀it has been established multiple times but ive been really feeling it now these past few days

#so im like a physical person with friends i know its ok with it im touchy and huggy and all that #so i have this friend im super comfortable with and we do this kind of thing all the time i cling to her whenever we see each other #and she does basically the same thing #so a few months ago she was hugging me and then i didnt really register at first but she kissed my neck while we were hugging #and i was like aww thats so sweet that she kisses her friends <3 such a nice friendly gesture i bet she does that to all her friends #and i thought nothing about it. now a few days ago she was sitting next to me and took my hand in hers while i was writing smth #and i didnt think anything about it cuz thats normal. and then she was like turning it over in her hand and feeling it #and trailing her fingers over my palm and my fingers and all that and i still thought nothing of it i was like ok!#and i kept writing w my left hand while she was talking and then. she very very slowly started to intertwine her fingers with mine #LIKE SLOWLY. LIKE A DELIBERATE VERY CAREFUL SLOWLY. and i was like wait a minute.#cuz i wouldnt have cared if she just took my hand WHY WAS SHE SO CAREFUL ABOUT IT?#and then she was like wow ari your nails are so long. and i wouldnt have cared if she said 'wow theyre pretty' cuz thats normal #but she was like 'your nails are so long. its cute.' HELLO #but i wasnt sure at that point i was like ??? ok but maybe she meant it friendly! she does this kind of thing to all her friends right!!!#and then i spoke to her friend confidentially and she was like yeah she doesnt do that with anybody #now im not sure 😭i feel like it could easily be explained by something else since she never mentioned being gay #but it could equally be that shes gay. schrodingers lesbianism #and i feel so bad because me being touchy is just kind of who i am what if she feels like ive been leading her on if im right 😭#but now her friend is telling me that im an idiot. and my best friend says im an idiot. and my cousin says im an idiot!!#cuz this sounds like shes been flirting w me the whole time and ive been like 'aww shes so sweet <3 bffs 4 life'#i really hope she doesnt like me tho </3 hvgfdbsljhfgbsvclujinf #aricouldyounot

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