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#but im slowly letting go off a bunch of resentment that has truly no business being here and im trying to self reflect and all that
indigodawns
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#these are just some thoughts re: friendship as a result of tonight that i need to jot down somewhere but
#realising that i really do have a strict and set idea of Good Friend(ship) and what that entails to me
#and id written people off bc i wasn't yk ~receiving love or friendship the way id prefer and i was angry with them for that/hurt about it
#did i communicate that to them though? nooo. was i fully right in that? also no. like just bc i felt unheard didn't fully mean
#that they were doing something wrong. they were trying in their own way (and sometimes they weren't really or it just wasn't nice)
#but that's about how we match and how we communicate right? this is so silly that's so basic but it never fully clicked for me like this
#i was blaming them for stuff and building up resentment without ever expressing that (and i still haven't yk dhshsjd)
#and i think where i went ~wrong was in thinking that bc i felt that way they weren't ~giving me what i need
#when it's like... but did i pick up on the ways in which they DID appreciate me and show me love etc? did i give them ANYTHING to work with?
#(ok yes occasionally but also... tangent but i was watching a variety show and they were teasing woozi about how
#he gives interviewers/hosts literally nothing to work with. like no extra information for them to ask about or tease him for or anything
#and i was like ohhhhhh. yeah i do do that sometimes with friends and it's genuinely smth i don't really know how to do like
#giving casual information (but not too much and not too little???) so they can then ask questions etc. so then if im like ughh
#they never ask (the right) questions or show interest (or let me talk but that's a different thing dhsjdjd) it's like...
#well do i give them the chance to? much to think about thank you woozi)
#anyways where was i dhsjsnsnsjns idk but it's soooo annoying that i haven't figured this all out yet
#but im slowly letting go off a bunch of resentment that has truly no business being here and im trying to self reflect and all that
#and im honestly doing so shit some days but others days it's? finding stuff that matters to me on a deeper level ig?
#and all of it really does pale in the face of multiple genocides and it's. but yk. if i want to keep fighting
#i need to build a strong foundation and sort my shit out as well and be present so im really really trying
#and beating my stupid stupid depression and brain with a stick until i get there
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