on 2/16/20 steve tyler told me i can do anything

and also asap rocky bought some salmon like 2 hours later

good morning didi :) yup the full forms are right and i studied cbse and ncert since young and what about you? i know right, math and physics are good and needs more brain power like kang taehyun and i love bio because i can learn new things. lmao i fucked up y 9th grade to be honest and today i created my own personal email account 🥳 and then later i will create a gmail for my tumblr and other things <3 well for the future it's planned — 💙

all asks have been copy pasted under the cut so that i could answer them together and in continuation!

so after i write my jee or iit, i have to get my rank below or above 5000 for near by colleges at home. then i'll get into university and do B.Tech ad then get my job at 4th year of B.Tech and then i'll go to abroad to do MA (masters) to get a doctorate? idk about that. and here my life is planned and settled before hand by my parents 😭 and i have nothing to say or to decide, lmao. my parents are strict when it comes to studying!!

and for singing didi, i have an interest of singing since young, but it's just like a hobby more than a passion. ah~ you are still in 11th, it though you were 12th, lol. i didn't study nursery that's why i'm in 10th or else i'll be in 9th for now!! yea- i will focus on my life too didi, don't worry <3 and you too, do the same, take care of yourself and drive carefully :) even i wanna learn scooter, like i learnt it when i was 12 or something but i forgot now, hehe

also thank you for telling me to rant or yk to talk about something. i feel safe now, i didn't lie when i said you were my comfort place and blog too <3 thank you didi. so what i was thinking is that i wanna create an account now, but not for writing. i'll later create an account for writing once i get my life back together, so like after everything is settled in june, so i might come back at june. my birthday is next week, 23rd :) and when's yours? i'd love to celebrate my birthday with u

good afternoon 💙 anon!! i studied in the state board :”) i have a few friends who were in cbse tho so i’m familiar w the curriculum! also ncert 😥 isn’t that super hard? if you love bio, go ahead and learn it! a family friend of mine wants to do engineering but she likes bio so she chose pcmb for 11th and 12th grade. omg noo ☹️☹️ it’s alright now though! all you can do is learn from your past mistakes and not make them in the future. 9th grade marks don’t matter in the long run so that’s a good thing too :”) congratulations on creating your own email account!! you can use tons of other apps by logging in now that you have one 🤩

damn your parents planned your entire life for you 😲 is b.tech what you want to do though? i think all parents are strict when it comes to studying but that doesn’t mean they get to decide your entire life for you ☹️

omg you’ve been singing since childhood?? that’s so cool 🤩🤩 oo so you skipped a grade :”) LMAOAOAO dw i’ll drive carefully! did i rant abt that incident on tumblr too 😭 WOAHH YOU LEARNT THE SCOOTER WHEN YOU WERE 12 ?&):?&! my parents barely give it to me rn 💔💔 i have to literally Beg 😞

omg nooo don’t say thank you!! it makes me very soft when ppl take the efforts and spend their time to send an ask to me 🥰 my blog is a safe space for everyone, so don’t hesitate to talk to me if something is bothering you! i’m not the best at giving advice or consoling but i’ll try my best to make you feel heard :”) ofc you can create an account! you don’t have to actively post anything on it, but it’ll be easier for you to interact w people. i’m looking forward to seeing your works when you come back in june 🤩 YOUR BIRTHDAY IS NEXT WEEK WTFF HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE!!!! my birthday is on the 17th of june :D

Brain Log - Day 1 (2020年9月一十八號）

People I’ve been thinking about: Chris Wu, Jake Hsu, Sehun and EXO in general

Ava Max released her debut album, that haircut was terrorizing my twitter timeline. Her visuals are good, but I just can’t believed she really thought her forced branding will make her memorable, at least that’s what I think she’s doing. Well it’s stuck in my head, for not good reasons. One, they’re tacky. Two. I have  mild OCD and seeing that haircut pisses me of for no reason. Man, I try to be a good person everyday but fuck. I’m in women’s business, I know. It’s just my thoughts. They’re mean, I am aware. I just want to say my daily thoughts. Her songs are all, very reminiscing of a manufactured popstar. Well, she has to be famous somehow and its a marketing tactic for starting artists. I do enjoy her music, it is careless catchy pop that won’t be remembered because there’s too much songs released nowadays and most of them are quick hits thanks to social media, I mean TikTok. 

The ChrisJake rumor is bothering me too. Fuck them shady ass managers. They’re in taiwan shouldn’t they be celebrating their feelings. And if the manager that has something to do with chris not interacting with jake did it because it might ruin their career. B!tch, that might even make them more famous. And they’d be good representation of the actual community. I wish, if ever the rumor is real.. For ChrisJake to be happy together.

Looking at South Korea, you’d think they’re liberated but when you look closer they’re actually still pretty conservative. Tattoos are a taboo. fucking tattoos. 

And not one famous K-Idol has come out yet. Somebody has to be gay in that industry. I mean there are ones, that aren’t famous because they’re out. 

I’ve been thinking about age and time recently. When I was a kid, I had measles. And they left lots of circle marks on my left, like tiny ones. I have a photo of it. My skin tone back then was brown, and the marks where light. I used to ask my aunt when will the scars fade. And she said, when I’m 21. I was probably like 7 to 10 years old. And now I’m 21. And they’re still here. I remember thinking 21 isn���t that far. Man, I was right. But I think when I was a kid I used to think that time is so slow. Like, used to think that elementary was taking so long, now I wish I seized every moment of it. Because now I can barely remember. It feels just like fever dream to me now. Time is so fast. Ageing is very scary. Lorde was right, it feels so scary getting old. If you think that’s scary. There’s also oblivion. Fuck, whoever created me besides my parents are sadistic. 

I mean there are standouts with my childhood memory and some random shit thrown in the back of my memory that if I think hard enough I will remember just a piece of information off it. I wish I have photographic memory so I can remember every little detail about my life and share it with my family. That’s some black mirror shit. Man Fuck COVID I just wanna go out again and so the normal shit we do. This pandemic has been making me question my sanity. The people in this house is getting boring. 

Edit: 1 minute after i closed the tumblr tab in google chrome.

I’ve also been thinking about Xiumin. He’s sneaking in my head, lmao

It’s probably coz he’s confident and might actually be one of the funniest EXO member. IDK