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blujayonthewing · 2 years

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one of my irl friends is asking about commissioning a big full party piece, which is something he’s talked about before, and the PROBLEM with this is I just have no idea how to handle it as a commission because like

- the actual scope of the project means it Should Be QUITE expensive, admittedly more than I’m entirely comfortable charging anyone, let alone a friend in real life - the art is the kind of art I’ve wanted to do for a long time anyway, feels kind of weird to charge for it at all, given that? - if my friends respect me enough to proactively request to spend money on my art I should let them, I guess - if I don’t do it as a commission then without that concrete accountability I will simply not ever get it done

#the good news is I am in No Position to take commissions right now and told him so SO like I still have time lmao #the BAD news is the first time he mentioned wanted a commission like this was like three or four years ago #and that was apparently not enough time for me to unspool this little riddle kdfgjhkgfh #re: the last point-- a different friend asked if he could commission me to draw a couple of his PCs-- like more standard character portraits #like.... last summer #me privately: I'm not gonna let him pay me for this I'm BADLY overdue to draw these characters it's the least I can do #also me: [doesn't fucking DO IT]#I mean. in my defense. my mental health has been uhhh. ummm. uhhhhhhhhhh #but Still. need that looming crushing guilt ruining my life to get results kjgdhfdg #but hOW MUCH.... DO I CHARGE.... THIS IS THE IMPOSSIBLE FUCKING QUESTION!!#my commissions page doesn't have a listed rate for Groups but the one(1) I've done before was like... 300$ I think?#just scaling up my rates per single character #and honestly with the amount of time and effort I put into these things I'm probably not charging enough as it is BUT LIKE.#YES MY FRIEND IN REAL LIFE IF YOU'D LIKE TO COMMISSION ME TO DO AN ART I WANTED TO DO ANYWAY THAT WILL BE ONE THOUSAND DOLLARS. NO????#even half that! even a third of that!! there are so many COMPLICATING FACTORS AT PLAY and I'm ANXIOUS ABOUT MONEY AHHH lmao :'D #the concept he has in mind IS. extremely good. it makes me very happy to think about so the OTHER good news is I will Like Doing This #I just. ugh. UGH.#about me #irl frens #my art

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