#building. the unrelentless joy i feel surging through me when i think about the franchise as a whole | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

lovestryke · 4 months

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this stuff hurts me even more than it did back then. it hurt back then as well, i had more violent thoughts about everyone and that made it worse for me to live here. now it sucks in a different way because i know what love and friendship is supposed to be like. now i know that i am being deprived of actual love every day in this household yet i know what real love is like? its hard to keep hope but i know there is

#its hard to imagine the better life i can life without family because. well listen to the beach boy song wouldnt it be nice ok #ok actually looking at my transformer figures on my desk #i felt that hope #idk how to put it in words #ill try to keep physical things near me so i can feel this hope. im just staring at them right now like um im building my life around this #thing that gives me hope and ok hi this is a whole thing yes about how optimus is a great role model #im not making sense its ok. looking at my shockwaves with my optimuses is just like. reminding me of everything. the me the orion im #building. the unrelentless joy i feel surging through me when i think about the franchise as a whole

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