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antpernas · 3 years

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PAST TWO WEEKS SUMMARY

I really don’t feel like making a journal entry for every day I’ve missed, so I’m just going to bullet the important things I remember for each day.

1/25/21

Tried to have a heart-to-heart with my mom to see if I could reconcile with her and confront all the trauma from my childhood, inspired by Scorpio’s recent impact. Utterly failed, only ended up assuring me of the fact that I should absolutely cut my family out of my life once I become financially independent. Also ended my OnlyFans and made amends with some people I ended things badly with.

1/26/21

Told a bunch of friends I love them, especially ones I hadn’t reached out to in a while.

1/27/21

Worked out for the first time in forever!! Died in the process. I think I also found my GoPro.

1/28/21

First leg day in FOREVER. Also died again in the process. Also played volleyball and tested out my GoPro, it works okay!

1/29/21

Went kayaking at a park I’ve been meaning to see for a while!

1/30/21

Let myself be depressed all day, bought and started playing Hades and BOY what a mistake. Spent the whole day playing it.

1/31/21

Got flaked on, but I salvaged the day by meeting up with an old friend and going to the beach and getting dinner!

2/1/21

Finally managed to fix my registration to my new college, got a student ID and account set up. Joined a piano discord and started getting acquainted with how it works!

2/2/21

Stayed the night with my friend.

2/3/21

Helped my friend cheat on a Calc exam. Finished Kakegurui with them, then went home after!

2/4/21

Did some chores!

2/5/21

Got my car checked out since it’s been making a noise. Practiced piano!

2/6/21

My snorkel goggles shattered somehow? Went to nurseries with my friend, dirtied the shit out of my car. Watched a piano recital!

2/7/21

LOTS of chores (laundry, mopping/cleaning my room, cleaning my car again). Also, finally finished a playlist for a friend. Piano!

2/8/21

Finishing up on the chores I didn’t finish the day prior (grocery shopping, some other stuff I can’t remember)

2/9/21

Finally fixed my sleep schedule! Caught up on all my diaries, delivered some medicines, then went on a hiking trail with my friend. Went back to his place and hung out with him and his roomie after! No piano because it’s late.

AND THAT’S THATTT I’m excited to get back to making regular entries!!! And having a routine again!!

#mydiary

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maddieandyou · 4 years

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FINALLY WATCHING THE NEW EPSIODE "HEARTBREAK"

aww shaunny

The pancakes

Claire is so great for going to see him

Aww claire, I LOVE her

Lol Melendez suddenly next to claire

Damn shaun with an attitude? I'm kind of living

Shaun in between TWO in love couples I see👀👀😂

Seeing lim and Andrew's in interesting

Morgan going into a different field would introduce new characters and storylines and I'm here for it

Glassman being good at his job is something I've missed

The way both claire and shaun are like 👀👀 to the kissing, stop making them pine for people

This guy really thru Claire's patient mental health before surgery back at her in a way that allows his cheating lol

Love this idea of balancing 2 girls between one person, what.... does... this... remind me of... not just shaun....

LOL the way Neil looked at Clarke when she asked who shes dated

The 3 of them together is something I've missed

Yes claire!!! Noticing things

SHAUNN CALLED IT OUT, HE NOTICES HOW MELENDEZ HAS AKWAYS BEEN NICER TO HER

Ckaire interrupting group therapy is so funny

Omfg Shaun wth, that's CLAIRE you're being mean to hes pushing people away

Lolol this argument between Andrew's and lim shows how when it's the same situation between melendaire it's a different romantic feel than when it's with anyone else

Melendaire!!

Omfggg

Flowers?!?!

Dash is a romantic thought u hated them.? Says Neil, the biggest Romantic is the world

Omg, haven't kissed?? Its because it would be fucking weird claire please dont kiss dash

Its BECAYSE UR JUST FRIENDS THATS WHY ITS NOT THE WRONG TIME FOR A KISS CLAIRE

Awww Neil

DID U HEAR THATTT

If hes the right guy stop holding out for the right time?!!!

Is that not the WHOLE conflict of why melendaire cant yet be together

I'm so deaddd

claire being so focused on the work and not the feelings of the patient is so cool i wish we had more times when she doesnt give a fuck about the patient bevause they're a dick

Punk rock, patti smith?? Claire we r bffs

All they have in common is their college days

Dont kiss him

Nooo

Well see how it feels I guess

Neil is the most in love person in the world

"Right approach, wrong route" keeping that quote for my melendaire analysis lol

Hope this guy doesnt acc become paralised

Aww look at the framing YET again of melendaire being their own team

This poor fucking patient no one cares about him 😭😭😂😂

Heartbreak- neil bless youuu

Aw shaun

Andrews jumpers are the highlights of every episode

Poor morgan working on a HANDS case and hearing lim say it's time to let go

Omg I love this patient lol setting shaun up

You cant.... mess up a car...in a carpark like that....without being ..arrested???

Aww Morgan

LAST Surgery?!?!

I'm glad she fessed

Aw shaun with random people is always a gift

Only half way thru the episode and so much has happened?? Can last weeks episode take the memo of how to fit in a lot without having to cut cool (melendaire) scenes

Aw Lim, that was nice of you

LOL shaun the way he said stutter

No one is more in love than neil lol the LOOKS

Thats so good how prosthetics move like that

Aww hes so nice to her

He LVES HER TO MJCH I CANT BEKEJVE JT

He loves herrr

Ckaireeeeeee

She either can tell he loves her and isnt sure or is like fuck I LOVE him??

Morgan.....

I like this nurse tbh, I would like to see more

He said "our" backyard, sir you are not over your wife

Claire... shes deffo confused about her feelings now

OMFGGG

Why are you smashing leas car up

WHERE IS CARLY PLEASE

She doesnt deserve to be side lined like this

Freddie is so good at acting

I mean shaun... you can't keep a Gf

SHAUNNNNN I love that he told her off like that, the ACTING

Claire?!?!

Omg

What's about to happen ?!?!

Imfgggg

Shit

Confirmed

I wonder where they're gonna take this

#the good doctor #melendaire

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stale-cheezit · 5 years

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Treat You Better (S M U T)

Alexander Hamilton x reader

Requested by @thefreakinghamiltonpotatoaddict : (hope I didn't run out of my request chances :>) since I'm a sucker for sum Alex smut, could you do a Alex x Reader where the reader gets cheated on by her boyfriend and goes to Alex for support. They cuddle and find out they like each other then smut. I know this is the most cliché thing on earth but my mind is a cliché universe

A/N: Ahh I love thattt! You won’t run out of request chances! Request whatever you’d like, love. I’m really proud of this one so I hope you like it.This gets real kinky so you have been warned ;)

warnings: when I say kinky, i mean kinky. thigh riding. face riding. denial to cum. virgin reader bc why not. There’s probably gonna be more idk

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“Fuck you, Derrick!” You shout, tears in your eyes.

“Baby-”

“Don’t ‘baby’ me! You fucking cheated on me!”

“It didn’t mean anything! Baby don’t leave..” Derrick runs his hand down your arm and rests his fingers on your waist.

“No! I’m not an idiot! You went to her because I wouldn’t give you what you want!” You push him away from you, “I really loved you. I really did. I’m done, Derrick.”

“Baby, please. It won’t happen again I promise-”

“I’m done, Derrick.” You walk into yours and Derrick’s room you shared and grab a backpack. You pack a few days worth of clothes and essentials. “I’ll be back to get the rest later. Goodbye, asshole.”

Before Derick can protest or stop you, you’re already out the door and on your way to your best friend Alex’s house. You realize you didn’t grab your jacket. You shiver and wrap your arms around yourself and walk as fast as you can. Tears still fall from your eyes. You and Derrick were together for years. None of your friends liked him. Alex couldn’t stand him. They all said you were too good for him. But you loved him, and they understood that. About thirty minutes later, you arrive at Alex’s house. You shakily knock on the door.

“Y/N? What are you doing here? Why are you crying? Where’s your jacket? Oh my God you must be freezing, come in please.” Alex pulls you into his house, “I’ll get you a blanket and hot coco and we can talk.”

You nod, Alex runs to get you a blanket. He wraps it around you and goes into the kitchen. He comes back moments later with a mug of hot chocolate. He hands it to you and sits next to you.

“What happened?” Alex asks, putting an arm around you.

“D-Derrick cheated on me.” You choke on a sob. Alex gasps and hugs you.

“I’m so sorry, Y/N.” Alex whispers. You sit the mug down on the coffee table and fall into Alex’s arms. “Why would he do that to you?”

“Because I wouldn’t sleep with him.. I didn’t want to lose it to him..”

“Oh, Y/N..”

You move to sit in Alex’s lap and put your head on his shoulder, Alex’s hands go around your waist, “I’m glad I didn’t give in to him. He’s tried to force himself on me.. a-and I didn’t want to have sex with him.. So he went to someone who would give him what he wanted.”

“I could treat you so much better than him...” Alex mutters quietly.

“Hm?” You mumble in his neck. You pick your head up and look into Alex’s eyes. By now you’ve stopped crying. Alex bites his lips, and looks down. “Are you okay, Lex?”

“I’m sorry,”

“Don’t be sorry, you can’t control what Derrick does.”

“No, Y/N, I’m sorry for this.”

You look at Alex, confused. He leans closer to you and kisses you. His lips are soft, and passionate. Your heart races and you start getting butterflies in your stomach. You kiss back. You put your arms around Alex’s neck. His grip on your hips becomes tighter, and he rubs circles on your skin. Alex reluctantly pulls away from the kiss, but keeps his face close to yours.

“Y-Y/N, I like you.. A lot. I have for a while but you started dating Derrick and I tried to ignore it but the feelings wouldn’t go away-”

You cut off Alex with a kiss, “Derrick is an asshole,” Alex smiles at you, “I feel the same way.”

“I don’t want to take advantage of you in your heartbroken state...”

“You’re not taking advantage of me Alex,” You look at Alex with innocent, begging eyes, “Please?”

Alex pecks your lips and begins to kiss your jaw. You tilt you head up, giving him access to your neck. He smirks against your skin and starts to suck on the skin of your neck. He sucks, and kisses, and nips at your neck. A sound of pure euphoria leaves your lips.

“You’re so beautiful..” Alex whispers and continues sucking on your skin.

“Alex you’re going to leave marks.” You sigh.

“I know.. I want everyone to know you’re mine.” You bite your lips and hold back a moan, a small squeak leaves your closed lips. “Don’t hold back, love. Let everyone know how good I’m making you feel.”

You get butterflies in your stomach, “Alex please..” Alex stops kissing your neck and you pull off your shirt. Alex bites his lip as he looks at your chest.

“Fuck yes.” He whispers.

You giggle and slap his arm. Alex kisses your lips and starts to pepper kisses down your neck, and to your breasts. Your hands go to Alex’s shirt, and you start undoing the buttons, and pull it off his arms. Alex starts pushing your leggings down. You lift your body up so he can get them off. He gives your ass a squeeze, you giggle. Alex’s eyes watch you intently as you reach down to unbutton his jeans. He helps you pull them off his legs and he kicks them off onto the floor.

“Are you sure you want this?” Alex asks, You nod.

“Please, Alex..” You reach behind your back and slowly unclasp your bra. Alex watches your hands fall to your hips. Alex takes this as an okay to remove your bra. He kisses your lips and pulls the bra off, throwing it onto the floor. He rolls your nipples in his fingers, causing you to throw your head back and moan. You pull your panties off and drop them on the floor. Alex bites his lip when he feels you against his legs. You straddle his thigh and push yourself down onto him.

“You dirty little girl..” Alex chuckles and holds onto your waist. You swirl your hips on Alex’s thigh and grind on him. “Mhm are you going to get yourself off on my thigh, babygirl?”

“Mmm yes.” You moan and ride his thigh faster, “Alex!” You moan. Alex brings his hands down to play with your clit as you ride his thigh.

Alex gets an idea and moves on the couch so he’s laying down. He holds out his hands, which you take, and he pulls you close to him, so you’re sitting on his boxers. “You ever been eaten out, baby?”

A newfound excitement builds up in your stomach as you shake your head, “N-No.”

Alex smirks, “I’m going to make you feel so good baby,” He pauses, “Do you want to ride my face, baby?” You nod you head and scoot to hover over Alex’s face. “It’s going to feel so good, babygirl, I promise. I’m going to make you feel so good..” Alex holds onto your thighs and you lower yourself onto Alex’s face.

Alex’s tongue slides up your slit and flicks your clit. You moan and he starts to suck on your clit. “Alex oh my God!” Alex does things with his tongue you’d only dreamed of someone doing to you. You rock your hips back and forth on Alex’s face. He grabs your hips to keep you still. “Alexander!” You moan as you feel yourself beginning to reach your orgasm. Right before you cum Alex stops all movement, grabs your hips, and lifts you off his face. “God damnit Alex!” You pout.

“Well how was that for your first time being eaten out?” Alex chuckles and licks his lips, “You taste delicious baby.”

You blush, “Alex I’m about to make myself cum, please, Alex fuck me.”

“Hmm I’d like to see you making yourself feel good.” Alex sits back and you climb off his lap.

“Please, Alex. I need you..” You open your legs and look up at him with begging eyes. Your hand moves down to in between your legs, you gather your wetness in two fingers and insert them into you. You throw your head back and moan, “Alex~” You close your eyes and pleasure yourself, Alex watching your every move.

Alex thinks you look angelic like this, “I’ve never seen such pure beauty..” You blush but continue to pleasure yourself, at this point you’re desperate for release. He smirks and takes off his boxers. He grabs a condom from the coffee table and rolls it on. He takes your hand and pulls it away from your core. You sigh, you were just getting yourself close again. “Are you sure you want this?”

“Yes, please Alex just fuck me already.” Alex positions his tip at your entrance, and slowly starts to push in. You’re slightly stretched out from your fingers, but it still hurts. “A-Alex..” You wince

“I know it hurts baby..” Alex kisses you and holds out his hand, you lace your fingers together. His free hand pushes stray hairs out of your face. When Alex is fully in you he gives you time to adjust to his size. Once the pain is gone you let out a quiet moan, which Alex praises you for, he thinks its the most beautiful sound. You push your hips against Alex’s and he starts to slowly thrust in you.

“F-Faster.” You whisper. Alex complies and starts thrusting faster, gradually getting faster and your moans get louder. Your orgasm comes faster this time than the last. “Alex I’m gonna-” You moan.

“I know babygirl. Cum for me.” Alex kisses your collar bone and sucks a new hickey onto your skin.

“Alex oh my God!” You gasp as you reach your orgasm, the most beautiful feeling rushes through your body as Alex rids you out of your high. “Alex fuck! Fuck me harder!”

Alex smiles and starts to slam into you harder and faster.

“Alexander!” You scream and clutch his hand. You spread your legs wider and Alex uses his free hand to quickly rub your clit. The amount of pleasure overwhelms you and you reach your orgasm again. “O-Oh God! Alex!

You tighten around Alex and he moans as he reaches his orgasm as well. He connects your lips and holds your face as he pulls out of you.

“Thank you.” Alex whispers.

“For what?”

“Letting me make you feel good.”

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The next day you go to pick up the rest of your things from Derrick’s house. Alex insisted on going with you. He holds your hand as you step into the house. You toss the key on the table. Derrick sits on the couch with a girl on his lap. He looks up at you and Alex, then down at your linked hands, then at the hickeys on your neck that you didn’t bother covering. The girl gets off Derrick’s lap, and he stands up and walks over to you and Alex. Alex tightens his grip on your hand and pulls you closer to him.

“Hamilton,” Derrick chuckles, “Nice to know you’re picking up my sloppy seconds.”

“Says the one who she wouldn’t let fuck her. You’re just jealous she came to me, and I got to make her feel like a goddess.” Alex smirks.

“I-” Derrick is lost for words.

“I’m here to get my things, and then never see your face again.” You say.

You and Alex go to Derrick’s room, and pack up all your things. You pick up a hoodie Derrick let you wear all the time and frown.

“Baby you can wear any hoodie, or shirt, or anything of mine, I promise.” Alex kisses your head. You toss Derrick’s hoodie on the bed and finish packing. You and Alex leave and go back to his house. You cuddle with him on the couch, and watch Rent.

“Hey Alex?”

“Yes, babygirl?”

“Thank you.”

“For what?”

“Making me feel like a goddess.”

#alexander hamilton #alexander hamilton x reader #hamilton smut #hamilton x reader #alexander x reader #hamilton imagine #hamilton #hamiltrash

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