things your muse will notice about mine. ( repost, don't reblog. )

what they look like : although his personal style tends toward a darkness ( sometimes even a slight-grungy, purposely disheveled aesthetic? ) , I'd say he's still notably, in contrast, pretty. elegant, 'princely'. catlike, feline... definite pretty boy vibes asjajj. he's lanky; long legs, pianists' hands, thin spindly fingers that can't hide the delicate skeletal structure that lies beneath our skins. slender and sleek rather than broad. but he's very physically active, so muscular definition is apparent, though carried on a lightweight frame. some other notable, distinctive features is he has a prominent nose & prominent dark eyebrows, very defined cheekbones, and sharp canine teefies. he's naturally smirky, with a dry/sardonic expression, sharp observant cat-like eyes, and tends to radiate a sort of devil-may-care casual confidence, with an undertone of mischief .

what they smell like : the shampoo/conditioner & soaps he uses tend to be tea tree, yuzu scented, a little minty, and very-lightly-citrus scents: clean, bright, white... natural, but I feel, almost, medicinal?? but like in a 'traditional medicine' sort of way. there's usually a little bit of product in his hair, so there may be a hint of that modern, polished smell when leaning in close. and he has a habit of chewing cinnamon flavored gum when bored/nervous/etc/all-the-time so there is a undertone of cinnamon & spice from the gum chewed & kept in his pockets . when he wears cologne, he likes sort of fresh scents; things that hearken back to wind-blown laundry left outside on the line to dry; the ocean breeze; an open meadow ... but, he will wear stronger, darker scents with a hint of sharp SPICE in the fragrance notes, for special occasions... like a date night, or something else where you want to leave a strong IMPRESSION .

what they taste like : cinnamon, a little sweet & a little spicy. ( see above~ ^ )

what they sound like : rich and deep and warm, like pouring thick velvety honey. less smooth and more hoarse/raspy when he raises his voice (or is otherwise emotionally affected) . but most of the time, his voice is calm, relaxed... i use his rl faceclaim as his voiceclaim, but i also really love haru from fruit's baskets TONE as an example of how he speaks; very chill and unbothered. quite frank and deadpan, but not ( usually ) unfriendly & cold?? i wish there were more clips i could share to exemplify it !! if there was, i would maybe even consider using dub haru as his voiceclaim bc HE'S SO TAI-CODED IS2FUCJAS. but yeah. there are not many clips out there, so you just gotta watch furuba ok. JUST DO IT !!

what they feel like : sharp. angular. he feels at best like the cool touch of silk on your skin or the cool side of the pillow. the comfort of ice soothing your dry throat on a hot day. he's not soft to the touch and he can't be your heavy weighted blanket of a lover, either. he's not soft like flower petals; and he's not pure muscle and sinew that signifies strength. he's human, warm pumping blood and bone; a lot of bones; angles and edges that you adjust around in the bed in order to cuddle comfortably. an imperfect creature, but when he holds you tight against him, you feel loved so deeply, to the core, the way that only something flawed and empathetic in their flaws can feel.

tagged by : no-one, i stole it, i am a criminal mastermind xoxo tagging : @yaoogui & @wingached & @ofgentleresolve ( for any muses you want !! ) and STEAL IT !!! i wanna read it for all the muses on my dash ... for science.

digital media. 2018

SCREAMS SOFTLY; i miss writing in general so much & i miss writing my bOi; i want to reply and do rp things soo bad. but my brain is in this state right now that seems only capable of doing what i have to do to survive/''Adulting'' ++ mentally passive activities like vidya game or watching stuff and reading during my free time . . . i LUV the effortless act of thinking about muses & plots . . . but cannot bring myself to actually write something, tho asjajja. i've been in a very thick cloud of brain-fog and it's frustrating : c but i guess i wanted to provide a little update and say that when you see me on dash but not writing, or if i continue to write very sparingly and randomly,, that's why. : c i will return in full force asap, but rather than beat myself up about it & continuing to try to poke & prod myself into writing instead of doing other stuff, i realized i just gotta let it be for now, and let the cloud of foggy brain pass on it's own, like it always does ^^ I am lurking && also on discord tho!! : D and will write whenever my writing muse permits me !!! :)

tumblr is once again doing the thing where I can post This, and other small posts, but if I try to post my 1680 word meta post, it says it can't process the post or even save it as a draft . . . 🙄🙄  it also took me like 10 minutes to copy and paste the post into a google doc ( a text post editor that actually works, and won't randomly 'refresh' and Delete all my work,, ) to save it until / if tumblr decides to let me use their blogging website to ... post a text post. but anyway, it took forever to even do that because the copy / paste function on their text post editor barely works, and only picks up a few paragraphs at a time. and even that is hit or miss.............. I love this functioning website & my 200 porn bot followers...........................................

roxy (@pararennial) & taiyang's friendship moodboard is so hilarious and perfect to me because it's like: *badass pic of anti-authoritarian ass-kicking* *ethereal divine imagery; may or may not be unsettling to behold* *uncompromisingly ride-or-DIE friendship* . . . and then there's just ridiculous meme's like this

Talk about Ara

a nonny mouse but for @uroborosymphony 's ara ♡

he looks at the requester with a slightly exasperated quirk. what do they expect him to do; burst out in broadway song while birds flutter around him? no, he's hardly the type: passionate yet private, one would do better to observe him to know his true feelings. watch the way his dark eyes soften when her cheeks round into a smile, or when a fit of unexpected laughter bursts from her lips. how his eyes always search the room for her, and hands always tend to her, or run trails on her skin: never at rest until she's contented, satisfied . . . it's in the little things, too, like how he'll be a few blocks from reaching their home– then stop, suddenly, to duck into the nearest patisserie and snag her favorite treat. no reason, no occasion; he just wanted to bring home a reason for her to smile. how to describe, in words: the years of memorizing the little details that made her her: he knew her usual order at their local take out places, what scents of cologne she didn't prefer, and how she took her coffee in the morning. the way that over months, years, his body had adjusted it's sleeping habits, to curl most comfortably around her; never fully rested without silky black strands of hair tickling his nose or brushing his skin. the bed ( and the cavity of his chest where his heart beat ) felt so deeply empty without her. . . " . . . she's home. " that, he supposes, is the closest he can come to describing it. the words were simple, and succinct, but said with rich, warm feeling. she's his home, if home is where the heart is. she was his family. he knew what words her mother had said, the one that wounded her the most, and he sought every day to heal where it had hurt her. just the same, she knew where all his scars were: invisible lashes, the kind that only came from love or the lack of it . . . " she's the only good home– a real home– I ever had. " and there was NOTHING he cared more about– would fight harder for– than his home; his family. " you know how some people say they were born to make art, or their job is their calling? it's like that-- but i think, she's my destiny. i think we were meant to do all this, together. this is where i'm supposed to be – with her. " he smiled crooked– affectionate, and proud. grateful that she'd chosen a life with him. his eyes sparkled with adoration, and years worth of precious ( and a few not so precious ) memories. " – she's the kind of person you meet, and it changes you. you never see the world the same way again. i never felt so real– and alive– until i met her. . . and that's what life's all about, right? finding something to live for . . . " ( to DIE protecting, if it came to that . . . ) " and honestly, you're not really living until you spend a day with quinn. try it sometime & you'll know what i mean ! "

@mystiika ( re: shifter smut books JASJAJJA. )

when they come across the gently used paperback in the 'supernatural romance' section of the bookstore, it gives Tai the same immature-sort-of delight that came when he, as a young boy, would catch his friend staring too long at his crush. it's that unique brand of best-friend-camaraderie that delights in pointing out the other's innocent 'embarrassment', when it's harmless. he was sure Jamie would have nudged him in the side with a smirk, had they had found a book with the premise of “water deity sex”; it was merely the natural reaction of two best bros ... but they hadn't found that. it was 'shifter smut', complete with barely-clad characters on the covers. though, Tai kind of doubted this book would actually embarrass Jamie. (Jamie was pretty hard to embarrass.) but certainly, Tai did try from time to time. " okay, all jokes aside; be honest . . . you wrote this, right? " he looks at the author's note, reading the name aloud: "'Lana Paige... ?' right..." he draws out the syllables of the word in faux-disbelief: " great penname, man. but since we're being honest... ? I gotta say: the 'paige' thing's a little over-the-top. we get it, 'Lana', you write books. " he places the title back on the shelf, and without the distraction of it in his hands, then notices a woman watching them stand around in the erotica section of this small, picture-esque, and otherwise quite-quiet bookstore . . . " sorry. I was just asking my friend if he could sign a copy of his autobiography, " Tai 'explained' to her, 'politely'. she wrinkled her nose at him and began to walk away. " . . . we should probably buy something before we get put on a 'do not serve' poster, " he then suggested, also beginning to walk away from the smut-lined bookshelves.

I always hesitate to say this bc I know it makes some people Angy or feel personally attacked . . . and I don't want to do that!! BUT, I do think that characters should be allowed to have flaws. I never shy away from giving my characters' flaws; Tai has a lot of them!! so I'm not saying he's right for this; I'm just saying it's how he feelS !!! . . . so with that disclaimer out of the way . . . can I just say: it is wild to me how there's a problem in the rpc of people not giving non-cis-male oc's the time of day, or not giving them any meaningful interactions and connections to their muses-- not like they do with male oc's. ( unless mAYBE they're shipping with them. then the 'female oc' MIGHT get some decent engagement... ) because on tai, that is so the opposite of my experience JASJSAJJ partially because I WILL LOVE UR NON-MALE OC'S ASJKHASJ; SEND THEM ALL MY WAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but also?? ic?? tai does the opposite: he will hate on men for pretty much no reason at all. JASJAJJA he generally has a harder time bonding to or connecting with men. he's like that dog that barks at all men because they had a bad experience with one once... but seriously tho, this is an actual character trait caused by his history asjajj; it's not for nothing or just for shits n giggles or bc 'all men r bad grrrr' girlboss-feminism. his grandmother was the only family member who loved and accepted him and took good care of him, and warmly showed him affection. some of his aunt's have been pretty nice and supportive of him, too ... MEANWHILE, all the men in his life have given him nothing but problems and complexes asjajjJS. or they simply gave him nothing at all. his father, other family members, his adopted father ( to be fair, his adopted father DID take good care of him in some ways-- but he was still very emotionally distant and closed-off to tai which caused some emotional damage of it's own ) and most of it ties back to toxic masculinity. there is a lot of intergenerational trauma in his family & he spent his life watching men be deadbeats or otherwise toxic to their family members. therefore, he internalized mistrust and resentment toward them... which is ofc not to say he hates all men ajsjaj, obviously not because he now has close friends and mentors and other men in his life with whom he has a nothing but love and respect for !!! I’m just saying that he does have a internal negative bias ... and it initially makes it harder for him to care about or trust men, and anyone who 'exudes' traditional masculinity, he is Naturally sus of them, i am so sorry asjajjaj. and he will more often assume they have bad judgement or bad intentions, more than he would of others . . . yes, he can and has been proven wrong about someone before, though !! ... pls don't cancel him; he just has Traumas TM asjajjaj