i don’t think i’ll ever get over how vocal lars is with his admiration/feelings/ thoughts of james and and het is just,,, radiating uncomfortability every time

it sure is discomfiting to watch sometimes ! it's obvious he's uncomfortable with that level of honest vulnerability — why, though, is probably a pretty complex tangle of shit. all his insecurities & fears of vulnerability & the usual emotional constipation plus, maybe, how terrifying it is to hear it out loud.

it's kind of breathtaking to have someone acknowledge how much they need you in their life, & lars doesn't just say it to him, he says it in front of everyone, to everyone — i think that's part of james' discomfort. he's a shy, repressed guy ! intimacy for him is smth private, so lars openly admitting to that level of devotion & attachment is ..... a lot, i think. lars might be the one saying it but it makes james vulnerable too, & there's a point of contention there, because james can't control that