top five: books, otps, and foods ? (Hope you heal up and feel better soon !)

*hugs* Thanks friend! Been doing lots of warm drinks, soup, medicine and swiping all the kleenex boxes in my house. :P I might have to skip ballet tomorrow though. :/ 

In no particular order for any of these...

Top five: Books(fuuuuuuuuudge but i have so many! :0 And they constantly change)

1. “The Lost Heiress” by Roseanna M. White (Ladies of the Manor series). Mystery/romance, childhood friends-to-lovers, mutual-pining but super oblivious, talk about slow burn, SO. GOOD

2. “All the Tea In China” by Jane Orcutt. Headstrong woman determined to follow her calling, a man who tried tricking her family ends up saddled with said head strong woman at risk of her exposing his motives, an interesting glimpse into Chinese culture, set around the Victorian era... 

what’s NOT to love?? :D 

3. “Les Fiancés de L'hiver/A Winter’s Promise” by Christelle Dabos. 100/10 recommend the whole series! Victorian/Edwardian era feel while also set in a  futuristic time, and also feeding my Steampunk aesthetic. It’s not afraid to really let stuff happen (both physically and mentally) to its characters. Like if Ophelia breaks her ribs they will stay broken in real time. Idk it’s just something i think most other books gloss over by doing a week or two time skip (do the drama but not the consequence). 

4. “Entwined” by Heather Dixon. A darker take on the Twelve Dancing Princesses tale; mixing humor, mystery, thriller-borderline-horror, romance, and relatable family all in one amazing story. Gah it’s so good!

5. “Cinder” by Marissa Meyer (The Lunar Chronicles series). Si-fi meets Fairytales. 

Nuff said.   

Top five: Otps

Again...SO. MANY! akdfdlsdfjdagmsgj (my current list, just off the top my head)

1. Hakyona (FOR LIIIIIIIIIFE!!!)

2. Perc’ahlia/Vexcy (yes i am that level of nerd, Critical Role owns my shipping heart ok?!) 

3. Mitsukiki (pry them from my cold dead hands mate, let me live in denial!)

4. Fjorester (girl is 90% his impulse control, also chaotic neutral, the most oblivious mutual-pining that’re convinced the other doesn’t think of them in that way, equally supportive of one another, heart-eyes for days, ) 

5. Zenyuki (Most pure-hearted people that’ll give you a cavity with their love and melt your heart with their tenderness, friends before anything else happened, also most realistic relationship development i’ve ever read)

(bonus shoutout to Nalu that own the “More than Friends, but Less than Lovers” title and my heart)

Top five: Foods

Not sure if this is types of food or specific food in general. *shrug* Either or what a question, there’s so many to choose from! And they’re always changing. 

1. Pizza and just pasta in general (Italian is my top choice) 

2. My mom’s famous tacos as well as our salsa (i built off her recipe so it’s only slightly different) (also Mexican food in general is just delicious, depending where it’s from)

3. Mom’s homemade Chili (i love my mom’s cooking ok?) w/cornbread 

4. Chipotle (need i say more? ;D) 

5. Pastries I could never choose just one, there are so many good ones for so many reasons; i’m talking cookies, cakes, breads, sweet pastries, savory pastries, truffles, soft pastries, crunchy pastries, pastries with surprises inside, pastries with surprises on the outside you need to break, tiny pastries, fancy pastries, pastries as big as your face, 

I 👏🏼 LOVE 👏🏼 pastries!

I am so hungry now after all this food talk. xD

re: Hurricane Irma — taking commissions!

Hello friends! For everyone checking in on me, thank you for your kindness and for your thoughts. I definitely got the better luck of the storm and it could have been a lot worse. I don’t have power or proper cell service, but I have not been displaced and having a place to sleep is more than I can ask for. My community is generous and we are slowly getting back into the momentum.

Unfortunately, some of my classmates and my community members have not been so fortunate: they’ve been flooded, lost valuable items, and are stretching their pockets for hot food to eat. We’ve put together some gofundmes, but I thought I would try opening commissions in order to raise money as well. In fact, even after much of the rebuilding/renormalization happens, I’m thinking of continuing to have commissions open to go directly to charities or various non-profits in the future.

Anyway tl;dr I’ve finally decided to open commissions for donations! Exciting! I’ve never done this before but let’s see where this takes us! Without further ado, below is more details!

P R I C E S:

drabble (100-500 words): 1 USD — (erlu) (sasunaru) (yonalili)

+NSFW: +0.50 USD — (shallura) (crackpair haikyuu)

oneshot (up to 1k words ish): 3 USD — (klance) (jerza) (viktuuri)

+NSFW: +1 USD — (hakyona) (jaeha/hak)

oneshot (up to 2k words ish): 5 USD — (erlu) (kakashi/ayame) (shallura)

+NSFW: +1.50 USD — (jerza) (crackpair fairy tail)

longer pieces (up to 10k words): 10+ USD — (zutara)

Examples are linked next to their respective categories, listed as their ships. Feel free to scroll through my ao3 or fanfiction account to see more examples!

This is just a list off the top of my head, so if you have other kinds of requests or are not sure how your piece categorizes, please feel free to shoot me an ask and I can give you an idea of how much I would expect the work to be. All of the above mentioned are one-shots, which is basically all I write, but given enough time, multichaps are not completely out of the game, so definitely don’t be shy if you have questions!

(more info below!)

I N F O:

What do I write?

Voltron: Legendary Defender, Fairy Tail, Naruto, Noragami, Avatar (both tLA and LoK), Akatsuki no Yona, FMA:b, or other animes that you know that I’m familiar with (if you don’t see it, please feel free to ask!)

or your original characters and settings! (prices may vary)

all gender pairings, all types of relationships, or general fics

any genre, SFW or NSFW

Give me as much information/details on what you want as you can so there’s a higher chance that I’ll end up writing what you have imagined. The more specific a request, the more likely you will like the piece! I encourage you to send me prompts, pieces of dialogue, situations, or even headcanons (especially for alternative universe commissions). Our discussions will be kept entirely confidential, especially if it’s a commission you wish to keep to yourself.

And if you’re requesting a commission to gift for someone else, definitely give me as much information so I know how to best make your recipient happy!!!

Payment will be through PAYPAL. I will send you an invoice/ask you to send the money after I started writing your commission, or after I’ve finished it if it’s short.

I reserve the right to post my work through social media (such as tumblr, archive of our own, fanfiction) and other websites UNLESS you specifically ask for it to not be posted. You don’t need to tell me why, and I completely understand if you prefer to keep your commissioned work to yourself. You can also choose to permit me to publish it but I will not tag you in it or keep you anonymous. 

If you’d like to see your work posted before a certain deadline, let me know. I reserve the right to add additional value to my work if I need to complete it before other priorities. Otherwise, if you request something from me, I’ll give you a proper estimate of when I can complete it, and we’ll take it from there!

I reserve the right to reject any request that makes me uncomfortable in any way.

C O N T A C T:

If you’re interested, please feel free to contact me through tumblr (@ahumanintraining), twitter (@napsbeforesleep), discord (@ahumanintraining#2153), or through email (send me an ask for it). 

Anyway, enough from me! Let’s hear what you have! I’m really excited to start writing what you’re thinking about, so thank you so much for reading this post and for sharing it with others that you feel may be interested! 

Thank you all! I appreciate you all so much.

Unimaginable Light

HakYona Week Day 1- First Fandom: Akatsuki no Yona Ship: HakYona Rating: G+, T Notes: I’m determined to get through HakYona week but don’t expect anything on time lmao

Yona rolls the bottle of sake between her hands nervously, just listening to the sound of the ceramic grating against the wood of the little table in their room. 

She knows Hak will be back soon- the sun has been down for long enough that he should be returning from washing up after training any minute now. She has everything laid out perfectly- from the meal she prepared herself to the incredibly fine drink she can’t help but fidget with and to the small, ornate wooden box that sits tucked away under the table next to her. Everything is perfect. She has no reason to be nervous in the slightest. And yet-

Hak had given her a look when she had asked him to eat supper in their room as opposed to the dining hall where the two typically feasted with the Dragons and Yun. Despite the odd request, though, her husband didn’t question it, and for that Yona would be eternally grateful- she didn’t think she had it in her to be able to come up with a convincing lie.

Gods, there was no reason for her to be this nervous! Hak would be excited! After all, haven’t they been talking about this for years? Haven’t they been trying for years? Isn’t this- The door creaks open and Yona practically leaps out of her seat, nearly spilling the sake that she manages to grasp firmly at the last second, having been too distracted by her worried thoughts to remember it was in her hands. Across the room Hak stares at his wife as he shuts the door behind him, eyebrow quirked in question. “Ah, Hak! Welcome back!” Yona greets as she gives the man a far too formal bow, only adding to Hak’s confusion. She gestures to the table, still standing beside it, “p-please, sit down.” He does as she requests, albeit a bit reluctantly, shrugging off his surcoat before taking the place Yona’s laid out for him. He watches Yona carefully as she then returns to her place across from him, reaching out to pour the liquor into his cup. “What are you doing?” He questions, eyes narrowing as he looks from her hand to her face, taking in the way she bites her lip in concentration. “I’m pouring your drink?” She responds as she finishes, sitting back on her knees and pointedly not making eye contact with her husband. “Is that- not okay?” “It’s okay, I guess.” He murmurs, raising the cup to his lips, “it’s just… not something you usually do.” He downs the drink in one go and immediately Yona is there again to refill it. “Are you trying to get me drunk or something?” He asks, his tone joking, “you know, you don’t have to go through all this trouble if you want to have sex- a simple ‘Hak, I want you' would be more than enough for me.”

Yona’s face burns red at his remark, still embarrassed by how casual he is about their lovemaking even after all these years. “Th- that’s not-!”

She goes to pull away but Hak catches her wrist in his hand, keeping her from retreating. “Then what?” He asks seriously, voice low enough that it sends shivers down Yona’s spine. “You’ve been sick on and off for days and you’ve been nervous and jumpy since this morning. And now this? What’s going on?” Much to Yona’s surprise Hak lets go of her wrist and suddenly rises from his seat, walking over to sit next to his tiny wife. “Yona,” he asks, and she can feel the concern radiating off his body as he moves his hand to caress her cheek, “whatever’s going on- whatever the doctor said… please, you can tell me.” A gentle, calming sigh escapes her lips as she leans into Hak’s hand, her own finding the box she has stashed away under the table. “I have something for you,” she tells him softly, reluctantly pulling away from his touch to hold out the box to him with trembling hands. He takes it from her warily; fingers ghosting over the intricately carved, richly stained patterns that adorn it. He recognizes instantly that it’s very old- certainly something that has been passed down through quite a few generations, judging by the gold work of the latch. It’s beautiful, truly, and something that holds a unique air of royalty to it, just as much as Yona herself does and Hak can’t help but wonder what’s so important- yet so small- that it could call for such an important box.

“Please just open it,” Yona tells him, and he can her the impatience in her voice. So with his thumbs he nudges the latch until it gives a gentle click and carefully urges the top open as to not damage the antique. 

Inside sits a golden headpiece, situated precisely on a silken cushion dyed in a purple that pales in comparison only to Yona’s eyes.

The first thing Hak notes is how tiny it is- barely even the size of his hand. Its dainty golden leaflets are accented with fine stones in floral patterns and around the sides dance four wispy, delicate dragons; frozen in time to hold the beautiful crown on its owner’s head.

Distantly, Hak thinks he knows this crown. Perhaps it was one Yona wore many, many years ago back when they were first meeting. It’s not something she would have worn long into their friendship, in any case- it’s far too small to be meant for anyone more than a few year old.

But… why is this the thing that’s sent his wife into a tizzy all day? Why has she gone through so much ceremony to present to him something that isn’t even for him? What could she possibly be trying to say by showing him a child’s… crown…

It takes a moment for him to process it, but when he does Yona can see it on his face. His otherwise uninterested eyes widen to about the size of their dinner plates and his set jaw goes slack with the realization of her intent. His gaze shoots from the crown to her face to her stomach and then back to her face, where she gives him a shy, almost sheepish smile.

“Hak,” Yona says softly as her hands slide down to caress her still flat abdomen, “I’m pregnant. We’re going to have a baby.”

A heavy pause hangs in the air as Hak just… looks at Yona, letting her words ring in his ears. Pregnant pregnant pregnant he hears, over and over again, a baby. We’re going to have a baby. We’re going- a baby.

Slowly, he sets the near forgotten box on the table and suddenly Yona can’t read his clouded eyes. His silence concerns her and, briefly, a pang of worry rattles through her chest. “H-Hak-” But everything- every doubt, every fear, every nervous feeling that had been eating away at her all day- is washed away the moment her husband’s hands reach out to cup her face oh so sweetly, letting her relax into his touch. “Yona,” he breaths, blue eyes locked with her’s so that she might see the way they swim with joy, “Yona.” Her name, again, like a prayer, as if he’s unable to process anything else. Though this time there’s the slightest hitch in his voice and before Yona realizes it he’s gathered her up into his arms and is very softly crying into her shoulder.

"I’m sorry,” he says through quiet sobs, as Yona’s arms reach around to hold him against her, “I’m just- so happy.”

Yona gives a hushed laugh but Hak knows her far too well and can hear her happy tears coming as she cards her fingers through his hair.

It takes some time for him to calm himself- for both of them, really, to compose themselves enough to look each other in the eye again. It’s Hak that pulls away first, just far enough to kiss Yona’s tears away to the sound of her light giggles. When her face is more or less dry he wipes his own on his sleeve and then presses his mouth to her’s.

“A baby,” he says between kisses, “we’re” kiss “going” kiss “to” kiss “have” kiss “a” kiss “baby”.

She smiles against her husband’s playful mouth, heart swollen over with joy. “We” kiss “are.”

“I love you,” he tells her, pausing his kisses to catch her eye. His hands slide from her hips around to her abdomen, caressing her still taught stomach carefully. “This is-”

“A dream come true,” Yona finishes, her own hands moving to cover her husband’s. “It really is.” She squeezes his hands lightly, pressing her forehead to his “I love you, too.”

Thank you to everytone who tagged me and sorry for the late response c’:  

I tag: @tsukis @gintoukis @nikiforv @josenji @sarapyon @aomine-s @sougu @ackermanss @oohiras @ferid for any of these (or none at all, it’s up to you c:)

rules: copy/paste and replace my answers with yours and tag people ^^

a - age: 20 
b - biggest fear: failure 
c - current time: 2:40pm 
d - drink you last had: water 
e - every day starts with: "no” f - favorite song: Perfect, by Ed Sheeran 
g - ghosts, are they real: yes 
h - hometown: Somewhere near Paris c: 
i - in love with: Anna and Kuroo ♡ 
j - jealous of: envious of wealthy & healthy people 
k - killed someone: :^) ... no(t yet) 
l - last time you cried: two-three days ago because i was very anxious m - middle name: Sin i dont have one 
n - number of siblings: two 
o - one wish: tranquility p - person you last called/texted: called my mom to let her know my sis who went with her forgot her phone at home q - questions you’re always asked: "why are you so quiet” :)))) i strongly Hate™ this question 
r - reasons to smile: wonderful people with beautiful souls ♡ 
s - song last sang: Barcelona, Ed Sheeran t - time you woke up: 11:10am (finally could sleep in after waking up all week at 5am rip me) 
u - underwear color: blue  v - vacation destination: Japan + Philippines (I really miss it) 
w - worst habit: i procrastinate way too much now 
x - x-rays you’ve had: one for my back y - your favorite food: mom and dad’s cooking 
z - zodiac sign: leo

Tagged by @juminss & @sarapyon ! thanks bbies ♡

1) Coke or Pepsi? coke  2) Disney or Dreamworks? disney all the way !!! but i love dreamworks too c: ♡ 3) Coffee or Tea? coffee 4) Books or Movies? books but i dont have time for them anymore ; u ; 5) Windows or Mac? windows, i dont understand mac tbh lmao 6) D.C or Marvel? i dont have a preference since i’m not a fan of either  7) Xbox or PlayStation? PlayStation 8) Dragon or Mass Effect? are those videogames ? because idk what they are lol c’: 9) Night Owl or Early Riser? early riser, though i love to sleep in lol 10) Cards or Chess? cards 11) Chocolate or Vanilla? CHOCOOOOOOOOOOOOO ♡ 12) Vans or Converse? vans  13) Lavellan, Trevelyan, Canadash or Adaar? what 14) Fluff or Angst? both :^) but angst man ... i def need more of it and see my faves suffer bc i’m a sadist. but an emo sadist bc i cry when they suffer even though i asked for it. *cough* 15) Beach or Forest? beach 16) Dogs or Cats? DOGGGSSSS !!! but i love @aomine-s‘s cats c: 17) Clear Skies or Rain? clear skies 18) Cooking or Eating out? simply eat ; i dont like to cook and i dont wanna go out lol  19) Spicy or Mild Food? SPICYYYY :^) 20) Halloween/Samhain or Solstice/Yule/Christmas? CHRISTMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS ♡ 21) Would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot? a little too hot (i cant stand cold at all)  22) If you could have a superpower what would it be?  time travel 23) Animation or Live Action? animation, but i love stage plays :) 24) Paragon or Renegade? again, i’ve no idea what this is c’: 25) Bath or Shower? shower 26) Team Cap or Team Iron-Man? iron man 27) Fantasy or Sci-Fi? fantasy 28) Do you have three or four favorite quotes it so what are they? "When you’re hungry, eat” (Monkey D. Luffy) :^) ; “Give back double what people do to you” (Sakata Gintoki) ; “Always help someone. You might be the only one that does” (Unknown). 29) YouTube or Netflix? youtube 30) Harry Potter or Percy Jackson? HARRY POTTER !!!!!! 31) When do you feel accomplished? when i’ve done something i’m satisfied with  32) Star Wars or Star Trek? i haven’t watched neither  33) Paperback book or Hardcover book? hard cover have a beautiful charm imo c: 34) Fantastic beast or Cursed Child? i havent read/watched them but i’m drawn to fantastic beast contrary to cursed child 35) Rock or Pop Music? pop-rock  36) What is the most important thing in your life? my family/friends ! 37) Mountains or Sea/Ocean? sea/ocean 38) How do you express yourself? i rarely express myself irl because i’m shy and introverted ... but when it comes to texting / group chats with people from tumblr, it’s easier for me c: 39) What’s the first book/film that really counted to you? i cant remember c’:  40) What’s your element (air, water, etc)?  water 41) If you could travel anywhere, where would you go? Japan  42) If you could have any job in the world, what would it be? Archaelogist 43) If you were granted three wishes, what would they be? Be rich without working, let my family and me be healthy, and let there be peace and equality in the world.  44) If you had to eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? My mom’s fish amok  45) What’s your Spirit Animal/Patronus? Ibizan Hound, according to Pottermore 46) Would you kill yourself and save your friends or kill your friends and save yourself? Save them  47) If you had to become a mythical creature which would you be? a phoenix 48) Your favorite song? Perfect, Ed Sheeran 49) A4 or A5 notebooks? A4 50) If you had to give up on someone you love, making this person forget about you, and never see him/her again, to save his/her life, would you do it? I would, which I already am doing, kinda.  51) Did you ever wish to become someone else? If yes, then what would you do to make yourself better? Yes. but I’ve learn to accept who I am c:

tagged by @aizawashoutta​ & @sougu thank you so much <3

rules: answers these questions and tag nine people you want to get to know better.

relationship status: with kuroo single

favourite color: blue, pastel colors, red

lipstick or chapstick: i dont wear makeup at all lol

last song I listened to: We don’t talk anymore, covered by Jungkook

last movie watched: Moana

top three tv shows: dancing with the stars is the only reason i’d turn my tv on lol / as for animanga : hq!!, gintama, one piece

top three ships: it’s very difficult for me to have ships but i love iwaoi, hakyona & hijigin

Tagged by @akutagawah ! Thanks mom ♡

Five Things You’ll Find In My Bag:

first-aid kit

tissues

an umbrella

pills/pain killers/etc.

a bottle of water

Five Things In My Bedroom: 

my laptop

tons ... of school books

i have my own little “pharmacy” as well lol

family pics

the Philippines flag

Five Things I’ve Always Wanted To Do In My Life: 

travel aboard a ship

travel to other countries and get to know the people who live there

do a road trip with friends (so much travelling ikr lol)

i ... dont know lol

Five Things That Make Me Happy:

friends & family

anime/manga

kuroo tetsurou

make gifs

historical discoveries

Five Things On My To-Do List:

graduate asap 

buy a car

get my own appartment

get a summer job

learn more languages

Five Things People May Not Know About Me:

it’s really hard for me to start/keep up convos in real life

i have a bunch of beauty marks here and there all over my body

i’m patient and understanding, but i can bite the Hardest :)c

i’ve been through depression

i’ve a strong attachment to ancient asian beliefs / tradition

Ship tag game

Tagged by @onoheiwa, thank yoooou! :)

First ship you ever read fic for: Pretty sure it was one of @abutterflyobsession‘s Strange Magic au’s on AO3 (possibly Art School AU?)

First ship you ever wrote fic for: Sonamy

Ship you write the most now: Looks like Hakyona at the moment. I’ve got 2 separate works going on currently. But there is a WIP Ouran fic i have that’s got an outline over 120 pgs long and still growing...:0

Ship you read the most now: Kind of haven’t been reading any ship fics lately. But in the past it’s almost always been ButterflyBog. 

Newest ship: Aoi x Odanna 

Rare ship you want to read more of: I’d love to read some good Kacxa (Keith x Acxa)!

Your taboo ship: Uh there’s plenty that i don’t have any interest or investment in, mainly ones from Voltron which happen to be popular (Sheith, Klance, Shance, etc), but i don’t have a fiery rage against them. But i will admit Shadam is a particular ship i shake my head at in sheer confusion.  

They never met in canon ship: Don’t think i have one...

Your unexpected ship: I was not exspecting Lotura but by golly did it hit me square in the feels. Also Kacchako is an interesting dynamic i didn’t think i’d like (not my main ship, more of a guilty pleasure).  

The ship you always forget to give love to: Tbh my Sonamy has been kind of put on the back burner lately. I still love them tho!

Ship your OC with a canon character (if applicable): I actually have quite a few from various fandoms. So many it’d take a long time (but to name a few of the shows; Ouran, Yona of the Dawn, Snow White With the Red Hair, etc...if i started talking i’d never stop :P)

A ship you’re embarrassed to ship: I don’t think i have any...

Your most romantic ship: Gosh it’s gotta be a dead-even tie between Hakyona and Zenyuki.  

Your sexiest ship: Hmm, Jerza 

Your most tragic ship: Zervis and Zeno x Kaya (hands. down.)

A ship you want more content for: Kacxa (Keith x Acxa)! There’s hardly any art or fics for them and that in my opinion is a crime. Also Zeno x Kaya and Aoi x Odanna. 

I tag: let’s do @raediation, @kluvfantasy, @allons-y-to-hogwarts-713, @goldwerewolf, @dillislazii, @funsized-4673, @aspiringsinger15

Get to Know the Writer

tagged by @onoheiwa (*gasp!* wait, have i told you i write before?? i have no memory of this conversation...xP). 

1. Pen or Pencil?

Pens flow much smoother, but i make so many mistakes writing in pencil is safer. 

2. Have you ever drawn your OCs?

I have! 2 from my ever expanding roster, and both being from my Ouran fic “Lady of the Host Club”, which no one knows exists cause it’s still not up yet (i should really get on that huh?)

3. Does your writing ever make you cry?

Uuuuuuh not really. I think i only cried a little once, and that was when i really wrote something painful from the heart. 

4. If your muse was a person, what would they look like?

Tbh I don’t even know what this means. Are we talking like a personification of my general writing? Cause heck I’m not even sure what my writing style is. :P  Maybe an angsty romantic with lots of sarcasm?

5. Which of your pieces would you choose to be remembered for?

Oh geez, i don’t think any of them are really worth being remembered by. :P Well i dunno but if i had to choose, maybe my WIP Akagami no Shirayukihime “Crimson String of Fate” (title also wip), or “Love Me But Do Not Leave Me” Hakyona short?

6. How much have you written or worked on your WIP so far today?

Well i had classes and work all day today so i only managed a bit of editing for LMBDNLM and then wrote it an embarrassing 100 words or so. And that’s if i’m being reeeeeeally generous. `:0

7. Have you ever based a piece or a portion of a piece on a dream?

Mmmmm, none i can think of at the moment, but i get the feeling i might have... 

8. Do you prefer silence, a little noise (music, ambient noises, fan, etc.) or a lot of noise when you are writing?

Half the time it’s silent and the other half i need inspiration to get my creative juices flowing. Never anything super loud tho, usually it’s gentle/emotional/relaxing. I might play music to help get me in the mindset of a specific scene, or just to have a soft generic beat going on in the background. 

9. Do you have any routines before you sit down to write?

I mean i always fill my jug with ice cold water and set it someplace directly beside me. But other than that not really?  

10. Have you ever participated in NaNoWriMo or a Camp?

Heck to the naw, 50,000 words?? In a month?? All of my publicly posted works combined don’t even equal half that. Not to mention i’m terrible at forcing myself to write on a consistent basis.  But I did once participate in an Akagami no Shirayukihime Secret Santa. That’s where my Mitsukiki one-shot came from. :) 

Tagging if ya wanna: @theragamuffininitiative, @dillislazii, @kluvfantasy, @raediation and any others i’ve forgotten atm that write. 

Finally posting the gift for my amazingly talented, funny, dorky, mutual fawning-over-hot-men friend @goldwerewolf​!! It’s awkwardly late but Happy Birthday Golden Gal!! (idk where the name came from but it’s stuck now :P)  

An angsty Hakyona fanfic is my belated gift to you! I hope you enjoy it! *she laughs maliciously, knowing full well the contents of her story*  Plus shoutout to my Beta reader @dillislazii​ for helping me work out the bugs. Many thanks to you!! 

{Based off the saddest scene in Mulan 2. Y'all know which one.}

Also posted on my AO3!

Love Me But Do Not Leave Me ~Chapter 1: Sacrifice Is a Four Letter Word

There once was an ancient tale, that long ago man and woman were once one sole being. Together with four legs and hands plus two heads they lived as one. But the gods feared they were too powerful and as a result split them in two. It is said that though torn apart man and woman would spend their entire lives searching for their opposite half, desperate to reunite once more. When found there was no greater joy, and when death separated them there was no greater sorrow.

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Sheets of rain descended upon the countryside, the four dragon warriors and Yoon taking shelter under the protection of the mountains side, mournful expressions upon each face.

“We should get the princess out of the rain. She might catch cold.” The somber reluctance Yoon spoke with held no real persuasion. The five companions merely gazed aways off at the redheaded figure on her knees. No one stepped forth. None had the heart to. Thunder rumbled in the near distance, as though agreeing to leave her be.

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Mere hours before Yona and company had been traveling within the mountains dividing the countries of Kouka and Zing, all in high spirits despite the blanket of dark clouds looming above. Zeno was counting on water falling before long, joyfully exclaiming nothing made a landscape shimmer better than a hearty rainstorm. The journey was long and treacherous, though no worse then past trips their group had been on. They’d expected to make it to the mountain’s pass by nightfall, but fate chose to be unkind to them. Bandits praying on passing travelers tried setting their sights on the Happy Hungry Bunch.

Three of the dragons and lightning beast took the large group head-on, the others hanging back in the event they needed long distance aid. Yona hadn’t sensed the figures approaching from behind until Zeno had fallen, being struck on the head and felt arms hoist her up and over a shoulder. A frantic glance around showed the boy genius had been similarly captured as well.

“We got lucky.” The bandit with an ear piercing holding Yona grinned to his partners, the four dashing off with their stolen prizes. “These beauties are bound to fetch us a high price.”

“Hak!!”

The bodyguard finally caught sight of the kidnappers splitting off in different directions.

“Damn it!” Hak grunted, turning towards the other fighting Dragons. “Jaeha, lend me your help!”  

The Green Dragon and Lightning Beast took off in different directions, Jaeha leaping right for Yoon while Hak ran forward for the Princess. The bodyguard caught sight of three men as they began crossing the rickety bridge connecting Fuuga to Kuuto. Using his glaive to vault himself onto the bridge, Hak landed smack in the middle next to his target; the unfortunate fool who dared touch his princess.

With a swift kick to the bandit’s leg Hak snatched Princess Yona from his hold, placing her on her feet. Jabbing the bandit straight in the face, the Lightning Beast sent him careening over the bridges side and plummeting down the cliffs deep ridge. The remaining two who’d managed to escape stood at the bridge’s end.

“Screw this.” The bandit with an ear piercing turned to his partner. “Just cut it!”

“Go. Run!” Seizing Yona’s wrist Hak tugged her in front of him and they made a mad dash for the opposite end. They’d managed to make it three-fourths of the way before the bridge’s strength gave way beneath the princess and ex-general’s feet.

Yona reached out in vain for the ledge but grasped only air. A breathless scream ripped from her lips as she felt herself go weightless, squeezing Hak’s hand still holding tight to hers. This is it she thought helplessly. This is how i die. As gravity took hold Yona momentarily felt time slow to a halt. In it she saw Kija, Jaeha, and Shin-ah sprinting towards them, panic etched in their every feature. But she knew they were too far off to make it in time. Squeezing her eyes shut Yona braced herself for the inevitable.

Suddenly, something brushed against her. A thin, rough material. Yona didn’t have time to process what exactly. In a split-second decision, she blindly snatched at whatever it was in the hopes for something good.

Rope! It was rope! Adrenaline raced through her body, the course braid burning the skin of her palm but Yona refused to let go. Gripping tight to Hak they jolted to a halt.

“Princess!” He called below her, both their breaths coming in short, heavy pants. “Are you alright?!”

“I’m fi-ugh!!” Yona grunted, her slim arms under immense strain trying to hold herself and Hak’s combined weight. “Nyghuh…”

Voices up above shouted frantically, the four dragons and boy genius scrambling for a way to reach the pairs only tether to land before it was no more. This is okay. We’re gonna be okay Yona forced herself to repeat, not daring to look down where her dangling feet hung. It’s gonna be alright…

As if on cue there was a sudden jerk, the frail rope holding the princess and lightning beast began to slowly fray, string by string coming undone from the excessive weight. Not good. Not good at all!

“Princess, listen to me.” Yona dared a glance down at her bodyguard, catching a look of resignation in his face that made her stomach clench. “It won’t hold us both…

I need you to let me go.”

“No!!” Yona shook her head furiously, refusing to even acknowledge the idea. “It will! I know it will! It has to!” Tears pricked her eyes at the absurdity of his suggestion, but also from pain creeping up her arms with all the weight she was enduring. Surely Yoon would find a way to save them before…

Another jolt, more violent this time, showed the rope holding them was dangerously close to snapping. Something had to be done and soon.

“Princess…” Hak gently called, looking up to gaze directly into her eyes. His princess, his dearest friend, his only love. “I’m sorry…”

“Stop it! No!!” Face now shrouded in hair Hak released his grip. Yona tried desperately to hold on but his massive hand slipped through her fingers in seconds, his body plummeting downward and swallowed up by the thick mist swirling underneath.

“HAK!!” Yona’s horrified shriek reverberated off the cliff’s sides, tears cascading down her face as she reached out to where he’d just been.

“HAAAAAAAKKKKKK!”

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Water dripped off the red-headed princess’s skin, the rain soaking her to the bone yet she felt none of it’s chill.  

Yona had not wept when they hoisted her from the frail rope, nor had she screamed once on solid land. She simply sat there, tears pouring down her cheeks, face a mask of shock.  

Motionlessly she stayed knelt beside the cliffs edge where the bridge remains hung, staring at the lightning beast’s glaive in her hands.

Yona remembered when he’d first got it, the immense strength he possessed when wielding it gave him great pride. He had used it when training her, had taught her to fight and protect not only herself but others as well. And yet what good had that done her? Skill had not saved Hak when he needed help most. The knot within Yona’s chest tightened at the thought. Once more she’d been too weak to save anyone, and this time Hak paid the ultimate price.

She saw her violet eyes in the reflection of the blade’s surface, drained of any emotion save a hollow sadness gazing back at her.

Hak.

A flash of lightning and thunder boomed overhead, replacing the reflection of mournful eyes with ones of sky blue. A steely gaze surrounded by tanned skin and hair of deepest black. Within those eyes she saw silent admiration and a love so intense gazing back at her. Eyes that did not regret their decision.

Yona felt something within her snap, taking the pieces of her already broken heart and shattering them to dust. Her hands gripped tightly the hilt of his weapon.

“HAK!!!“

With a strength she did not know she possessed, Yona raised his glaive high, bringing it down with force enough to bury the blade in the ground before her. Her shoulders shook heavily as she sobbed anew, certain the ache she felt within her heart could never heal.  He was gone. Gone in the blink of an eye. Gone…because she couldn’t hold on.

There she stayed till dawn broke through the sky, it’s radiant light painting the scattered clouds intense shades of crimson. And yet none could enjoy the beautiful sight, the only color seen above was that of sky blue.

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{*cough and sniffs* Yeah i’m all good, this is fine we’re fine.

If it’s any consolation, Shang DOES live in the end, soooo who’s to say Hak doesn’t also? Eh? Eh? ;D }