and my heart beats

buck/eddie | 27k+ | ao3

Christopher grows up. Eddie plants a garden.

It’s Chimney, who brings it up first.

“At this point I don’t think I know how to do anything except be a dad,” he says, with a laugh, and it’s not the point of the conversation, fatherhood, only that Buck said that he’s been thinking about signing up for a sport at the local rec centre and if anyone would be willing to double up in pickleball with him, and Bobby said he and Athena already played tennis, and Hen said she didn’t believe in racket sports, and Chimney said, I would, but at this point I don’t think I know how do anything except be a dad, and Eddie:

Eddie stands at the kitchen, with his hands tight around a scalding cup of coffee, wearing the BEST DAD socks Carla and Christopher got him for Christmas, while Christopher goes to the park with his friends after school for the first time and then gets the bus home by himself and feeling weirdly, unexpectedly, unstitched by it all.

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