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#and this week she was hospitalised but i didn’t stress too much about it bc she’s been so a few times with infections etc
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#death cw
#cancer cw
#dying grandmother cw
#so from the tags you probably already know what this little rant/diary entry is about
#so my nans cancer returned this summer after many years and it quickly got worse
#so when i came back from my summer holiday i travelled up to her and spent a week with my grandparents and that was so nice (and sad ofc)
#but it was like already thought that she probably wouldn’t have like a year left but rather months
#and she’s gotten worse but not like she’s dying right now worse but a gradual thing since july right
#and i was supposed to travel up last week but i got ill with a corona/cold/the flu kinda thing and that’s obvi an absolute no to be around
#and this week she was hospitalised but i didn’t stress too much about it bc she’s been so a few times with infections etc
#and then this morning my mum called and said i should get up as quickly as possible
#so three hours later i was on the flight to them and like almost crying with regualr intervals and i managed to hold it together and not
#break down on the train nor on the flight
#and i got to the hospital and just… seeing how badly she’s doing and that she’s going to die within the next few days is just….
#like we’re superclose we’ve always been superclose she’s my closest grandparent
#and like these months of knowing she’s going to die soon and grieving her while she’s alive and okay has just been so weird
#and i’ve been sad but also a little bit pushing away the thought that she’s dying while preparing myself
#so it’s felt like unreal but a little real you know?
#anyways the whole family is here and so when i got to the hospital we all sat in the room and a i cried a few tears here and there
#after a while i got some alone time with her ans i just broke down
#like i tried to talk but i just kept crying and not being able to control my voice and i hate that feeling so much
#my nan can talk and she’s there but she doesn’t have the energy to lead the conversation
#but we said we love eachother so much and she was very comforting while i had my breakdown
#which btw i have a raging headache from crying so much<3 it really helps the situation i think to have a headache as well
#anyways i feel bad that i didn’t say more or had anything in particular to say
#but she said that’s fine and that she didn’t have a lot to say either but she loves me so much and it’s just
#like i know this is grieving and being sad about death and it’s heartbreaking to see her this bad and i’ll be fine life will keep going but
#her not being around is just Not Right at all
#i’m just sad and i want to be comforted but i don’t want to at the same time and just i don’t know
#i’m just sad and a mess idk sorry to anyone if they read all this
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