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#and this visceral awareness that gives him of being percieved and the idea of never really having the choice to not be noticed
zevranunderstander
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9 months
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i wish literally anyone else except for me would in depth care about my pathfinder character and would know like. all the lore and be in the sessions BUT i still wanna do it without the Mortifying Ordeal Of Being Known
#myposts
#like nemja is so coded into my own expieriences of growing up and is kind of a way for me to channel and deal w some stuff
#like he is so much based on this expierience of being a young woman with a mental illness and this lack of any authority that comes w that
#like. and he is insanely socially akward and shy but in this way where you are never taken seriously
#like. the expierience of being a young adult who isnt really comfortable around Adults With Authority
#like a driving instructor or your boss or whomever and you just feel akward and uncomfortable having to interact with this person
#but who also has no ideal about social cues & is just really Weird but in the way people dont like yk
#and whose impulsiveness and thoughlessness and general lacking understanding of consequences
#creates horribly akward situations for himself like 24/7
#which also includes situations where other people are mad at him afterwards and it kinda feeds into a weird cycle of self-hatred
#like while learning and growing up he feels so viscerally on a display case where everyone can watch him fuck up and stumble around 24/7
#and he also feels way too old to be going through this process and is horribly embarrassed (hes 22 but doesnt remember 7 years of his life
#so hes emotionally kind of like 16-17 but also hes kind of 22 in some aspects so hes kind of embarrassed by how little he knows)
#and also in his design he has these huge ass horns that make it impossible for him to ever really disguise himself
#and not immediately stand out like a sore thumb everywhere he goes
#and this visceral awareness that gives him of being percieved and the idea of never really having the choice to not be noticed
#like as a woman growing up with alopecia being in any public place everyone will notice/look at you all the time
#like no matter what you do like you can never turn it off and him being a rogue and good at stealth and shit
#is kind of like an ironic wish fulfillment because as a kid i really did have this thing
#where i thought invisibility would be the best superpower
#but like. it's nice to not be seen but it always makes you an observer looking in and not a member of any group
#this character is my absolute everything ok?
#nemja
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